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Sunday, October 27, 2002

<  Session 1172 (Private)  >

ďLooking for a RelationshipĒ


Participants: Mary (Michael) and Sheri (Milde).

Elias arrives at 4:36 PM. (Arrival time is 18 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good afternoon!

SHERI: Good afternoon! How are you?

ELIAS: (Together with Sheri) As always! (Both laugh) And yourself?

SHERI: As always!

ELIAS: Very well! Proceed! (Chuckles)

SHERI: Okay! I would like to know Richardís stats, you know, all the goodie stuff. (Pause)

ELIAS: Essence name, Kia, K-I-A (KEY uh). And your impression?

SHERI: Orientation or families?

ELIAS: Families.

SHERI: I think Sumafi is in there, but Iím not sure. (Elias chuckles) Iím really not sure! Is Sumafi in there?

ELIAS: Yes. Essence family, Sumafi; alignment, Vold.

SHERI: Vold! My goodness! I guess I get to figure out Vold now, huh?

ELIAS: (Chuckles) Orientation, common.

SHERI: It is common! I wasnít sure about that. I thought common because he talks to me! (Both laugh) What about the number of focuses in this dimension for him?

ELIAS: Eight hundred twenty-two.

SHERI: How many do we share?

ELIAS: Nine.

SHERI: Can you tell me Ė of course you can! Ė Sabrinaís boyfriend, Dale, his family and orientation and essence name?

ELIAS: Essence name, Norman. Essence family, Sumari; alignment, Zuli; orientation, common.

SHERI: I guess my big question is I want you to explain to me, if you can in a way that I can get it, this choosing Ė when I think Iím choosing and Iím obviously not choosing because itís not happening. I think Iím choosing Richard for a relationship, but itís not there yet. So I donít know if Iím not choosing, or if Iím choosing and Iím getting all the other stuff I want to, like getting to know him first and seeing how... Can you help me understand this, please?

ELIAS: Be remembering, you choose in the moment, and you generate outcomes in the moment.

SHERI: So at this moment Iím not in a relationship with him.

ELIAS: Correct. But in the process of choosing a direction, so to speak, you may be moving in a particular direction and you may be altering your choices in that direction. Therefore, at times it may appear to you that you may be accomplishing and at times it may appear to you that you may not be accomplishing, for you are viewing the direction as black and white and absolute: I am choosing to be in a relationship with this person. Therefore, you evaluate: I am in a relationship with this person, or I am not in a relationship with this person.

SHERI: So the more accurate way is when Iím feeling this more general ďI am in a relationship with him; Iím just not objectively perceiving it nowĒ? I mean, it feels like itís going to be, is, but at this moment itís not.

ELIAS: Correct, and it is the process. It is the choice of the direction and what you choose to continue in a particular direction, what your objective is, what your want is, and clearly defining to yourself what you are communicating to yourself.

Many times individuals in association with relationships may, in your terms, set their sights in association with a specific individual and thusly pursue this specific individual, when in actuality this is what they think they want. What they are actually communicating to themselves is information concerning relationships and what the individual actually wants in association with this creation or this interaction of a relationship.

In this, individuals, generally speaking, move in directions of generating relationships with other individuals, offering themselves more information objectively as they proceed in their direction. Therefore, many times an individual continues to view their movement in a direction in a black-and-white absolute manner, setting the sights upon one individual and projecting their attention outwardly to the other individual and what they want from the other individual or in relation to the other individual.

SHERI: I look at him and he reflects so much of me, things that I donít even expect. I think he would be a nice person to have a relationship with because weíve got so much in common. But am I not supposed to look at it that way?

ELIAS: No, I am not expressing that to you. As I have stated, in the process, in the direction, you continue to offer yourself information...

SHERI: And thatís what Iím doing now.

ELIAS: ...to generate more of a clarity within you concerning yourself, what you genuinely want and how to generate that.

Now; your example is very similar to many examples of individuals. You are recognizing and identifying within yourself that you want to be generating a relationship, coupling yourself with another individual and creating intimacy and companionship. You are also exploring you.

Now; it is not a matter of you must do one or the other and that you may not accomplish both simultaneously, for you may. What is significant is that in paying attention to you, you allow yourself to interpret the imagery that you are presenting to yourself in association with relationships and you individually.

Your movement in that direction thus far has offered you some information concerning yourself and your choices and your preferences. But your awareness in the time frameworks of what you have offered to yourself in association with relationships thus far, in your terms until recently, has not been focused upon yourself.

SHERI: Am I focused on myself more now?

ELIAS: Yes. Your relationship with your partner...

SHERI: The marriage?

ELIAS: Yes. For the most part your attention was focused upon the other individual and not upon you. Your attention began to move more to you in your relationship with [name omitted], but you continued to project your attention to [name omitted] in questioning of his choices and motivation and actions.

SHERI: It was very confusing!

ELIAS: I am understanding. At times you have your attention upon you, which you offered yourself significant experiences and empowerment in turning your attention to you. But you also continued to project your attention to him and incorporated much confusion and conflict and cloudedness.

Now; in the interim time framework, you have been moving your attention more and more to yourself and familiarizing yourself with you. But this action of projecting your attention to the other individual in association with relationships is quite familiar; therefore, it is easily expressed. It is much more difficult to hold your attention upon you and be interactive with the other individual in intimacy.

The key point in this situation is your allowance of yourself to be assimilating, offering yourself information through reflections and evaluating how that is associated with what you want in association with a partnership with another individual Ė what it is that YOU want to express, not what you want from another individual.

SHERI: I think I understand that. But Iím not doing it yet?

ELIAS: Partially.

SHERI: Because I feel like what I see of him does reflect what I want to experience in a relationship, but I donít know yet because weíre not really in it.

ELIAS: No, no, no.

SHERI: No, thatís not the way Ė okay! (Laughs) I donít get it yet!

ELIAS: Not what you want to experience in the relationship; what do you want to express without limitation?

SHERI: I enjoy the fact that I can be honest with him, that we can share that. We can talk.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: Thatís me expressing in the relationship.

ELIAS: Correct. But what do you withhold?

SHERI: In the relationship?

ELIAS: Yes, in your interaction.

SHERI: With him?

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: I feel like I withhold my natural flow, which is to be more physically expressive with him.

ELIAS: Correct. Why?

SHERI: Because heís involved with somebody else.

ELIAS: Correct, and your confusion is expressed in your evaluation within yourself that you are perhaps expressing a judgment concerning his choices. This is irrelevant.

SHERI: His choices are irrelevant?

ELIAS: Correct, and concerning yourself with what you perceive to be your judgments concerning his choices presently in the direction that you are moving now is also irrelevant. For what you are offering to yourself is an opportunity to genuinely examine what you withhold and what motivates that withholding, [and] that you wish to be expressive of yourself without limitation, which you may be.

SHERI: With him?

ELIAS: Yes, which you may be and also not expressing a judgment concerning his choices, but expressing your preference and what you want.

SHERI: I have expressed my preferences, but I also expressed my preference that while heís involved with somebody else I donít think we should become intimate physically.

ELIAS: What are you offering to yourself in information in that expression, in that exchange?

SHERI: I think what I offer myself in that is that I let somebody else make my choices for me.

ELIAS: Partially, but what also do you offer to yourself? (Pause) An identification of what you want in association with beliefs that you are aligning with and in association with your preferences.

SHERI: Because heís involved with somebody else, I feel like if I were in a relationship with him I wouldnít want him to be involved with somebody else.

ELIAS: Correct!

SHERI: So I donít want to do that.

ELIAS: Correct, which offers you information concerning relationships and what you want in a relationship, not necessarily merely this one individual.

SHERI: Right. I kind of figured it could or could not be him.

ELIAS: Correct. This is the significant element. You may generate this type of relationship with this individual if you are so choosing. But in this time framework you are offering yourself information in relation to yourself and what your preferences are and what you want, that you may offer yourself permission to generate that freely.

In this scenario, you are not generating it freely. You are generating obstacles and limitations, for you create drawing to yourself an individual that is incorporating choices of interaction and involvement with another individual, whether the individual actually physically engages interaction with the other individual or not.

SHERI: What does that mean? (Laughs)

ELIAS: At times the relationship that he engages is more of his own creation than it is a cooperative.

SHERI: So chances are sheís not leaving her husband for him.

ELIAS: In this present now, no.

SHERI: Cool! (Laughs) Then I will feel freer to make some of my choices!

ELIAS: Ah!

SHERI: (Laughs) I know! I know! Iím choosing him, but heís not choosing me. How do I make it so that I am choosing him?

ELIAS: Pay attention to you and pay attention to what you want, and allow yourself to express that and allow yourself to create that, regardless. You are generating obstacles and limitations in association with TWO individuals.

SHERI: One I donít even know!

ELIAS: Correct, but you are allowing that individual to dictate your choices.

SHERI: I understand that. Iíve already thought of that one. Some strange woman deciding my life!

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: And I donít like that.

ELIAS: Therefore, offer yourself permission to steer yourself, and also pay attention to your movement and the information that you offer to yourself and what you genuinely want. For as I have stated, many times individuals are generating experimentation with other individuals in their movement in a particular direction, to offer themselves an objective discovery of what they want in clarity.

SHERI: So I probably donít really want him? (Laughs)

ELIAS: In this present now, yes!

SHERI: Yes, I donít?

ELIAS: Yes, you do. But what I am expressing to you is merely an identification that that may change. It is not an absolute. You may choose not to change it. It matters not. I am merely offering you information that you may recognize that it is not an absolute and that there are other factors that you are incorporating in offering yourself information in relation to yourself and what you want, and this is an experimentation.

SHERI: And the other factors?

ELIAS: Concern you and your allowance of yourself in your abilities, your allowance of your freedom, your trust of yourself, your recognition of the moments in which you are allowing other individuals to dictate your choices, and whether you choose to continue to allow that or not.

SHERI: I like the illusion that heís choosing me, too. Is that unrealistic?

ELIAS: This is relative, my friend. The question of whether an expression is unrealistic or not is a matter of perception, just as I may express to you the other individual is generating a reality but the reality may not necessarily be a cooperative. It may be more of his own creation individually, just as you are expressing you entertain the idea or the reality within your perception that he is choosing you. You may generate that as a reality. It is not necessarily to say that there is a cooperative occurring.

SHERI: Is that like mental masturbation? (Laughs, and Elias chuckles) Does that mean that...?

ELIAS: You may create that expression in your reality, for that is the manner in which you are configuring the energy. It is real. That is not necessarily to say that the other individual is creating the same reality.

SHERI: So if I create that reality, it happens physically? Itís not just in my head?

ELIAS: It may.

SHERI: But he may be off someplace else doing something else and not involved with me from his point of view?

ELIAS: It may. This is the power of perception and how you manipulate it. I am understanding...

SHERI: ...that itís confusing?

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: I thought you might know that!

ELIAS: And that you want to be participating with the individual together and you want to be engaging an actual projection of energy from the other individual and from yourself. This is dependent upon what you allow yourself in your freedom.

What do you view to be attractive?

SHERI: I like humor. I like honesty. I like being able to communicate openly. I like some physical attributes; there are certain things I like that I find attractive.

ELIAS: Correct.

Now; what do you perceive the other individual views as attractive?

SHERI: Same thing.

ELIAS: Very well.

SHERI: I mean, he reflects me a lot!

ELIAS: Very well.

Now; if you recognize that the other individual reflects you considerably, if you are projecting an energy in appreciation of yourself, shall this not be reflected also?

SHERI: Yes. Oh!

ELIAS: This is...

SHERI: Can I ask you a question about him? You said that the creation of the relationship with her is more his doing than cooperative. I have said to him and he said to me that it would be a shame to have his marriage dissolve because of this other woman and then have that fall apart. Is that why heís hanging on to that more?

ELIAS: Partially.

SHERI: And the other part?

ELIAS: Apprehensiveness, discounting of self...

SHERI: Reflecting me. (Laughs) I told you he reflects me real well! (Elias chuckles and nods)

So the times that I feel like, even though thereís nothing physically going on between us except a friendship Ė an intimate friendship, but a friendship Ė but I feel like thereís more, I should just go with that instead of saying...

ELIAS: It is your choice. You may choose to allow yourself freedom, or you may choose to allow yourself to hinder yourself.

SHERI: When I hinder myself, when I feel that way, is when I say, ďQuit being an idiot. Thereís nothing there. Itís not in this here and now, so it doesnít exist.Ē Thatís where I hinder myself. (Elias nods) Okay, I got it, I think. ĎTil the next time! (Laughs)

ELIAS: Very well.

SHERI: If you think of anything else you want to throw in there, feel free! (Elias chuckles)

You told Daryl that I have 1921 focuses in this dimension and 349 are of similar tone to me. How many are in this present time framework and how many are future? (Pause)

ELIAS: Present timework, five; future, 400.

SHERI: Four hundred are future? And theyíre not all similar tone, right?

ELIAS: Not necessarily.

SHERI: Holy smokes. Iíve got a lot of future folk floating around, donít I! (Laughs)

ELIAS: You incorporate quite an interest in other time frameworks.

SHERI: Really? Why donít I...? Iím trying to figure out, because I really donít have an interest in exploring other focuses...

ELIAS: Which is acceptable.

SHERI: ...but Iím wondering, is it because Iíve got so many that itís just all there all the time anyway?

ELIAS: Although it may seem surfacely that there are many, many individuals or many more individuals that concern themselves with other focuses and the exploration of them, there are equally as many individuals that do not concern themselves in this time framework with other focuses and the exploration of them, for they are quite busy shifting.

SHERI: Is that what Iím doing, too?

ELIAS: Yes, and paying attention to what you are generating in this focus.

This is not to say that one or the other is better or worse. They are merely different choices of different individuals, in how you present information to yourselves in the least overwhelming manner. Some individuals perceive it to be less overwhelming to be viewing other focuses and offering themselves information concerning themselves in relation to other focuses. Other individuals, such as yourself and many others, view it to be less overwhelming to concentrate their attention upon one focus and not be distracting their attention with other focuses that may be confusing.

SHERI: We talked about being involved in the shift. I was reading a little bit of one of Paulís digests, and it was about the pregnancy in June of Ď96 that you said was like the birthing time. Although I wasnít involved with the forum at that time, was I involved in that?

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: I thought so. I had major changes in Ď95!

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: You talked to people about your introduction to them. What was my introduction to you, and when was that?

ELIAS: And when is your impression?

SHERI: I donít know. I could say objectively that it was when I met Vic and Ron at the conference.

ELIAS: Prior, in association with your involvement with your other teacher.

SHERI: Seth?

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: Iíve been reading Seth since the Ď70s.

ELIAS: I am aware.

SHERI: Was it then, at the beginning?

ELIAS: No, in your movement associated with conflict with the individuals that you involved yourself with, in association with that information.

SHERI: When I worked at SNI?

ELIAS: Yes. I offered an energy of comfort and encouragement to you.

SHERI: Is that why it was so easy to leave? (Elias nods in agreement) That just flowed. Thank you.

ELIAS: You are welcome.

SHERI: That was our introduction?

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: Then that would have been after I knew of the sessions. I knew of the sessions in Ď96, I think.

ELIAS: But your conflict began prior.

SHERI: Conflict began almost right after I moved up there. Yes, youíre right. (Laughs) But it was one of those things that I did in my marriage, too.

ELIAS: I am aware.

SHERI: I put up with it.

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: I assumed that it was my fault. I needed to change my creation. I did; I left both! (Both laugh) Thank you!

The me thatís the beginning focus and the me thatís the final focus, what time framework are they? Who are they? What are they?

ELIAS: You. (Chuckles)

SHERI: Yes, but itís not this focus of Sheri.

ELIAS: No. Beginning focus time framework, 1800s; final focus time framework, first century BC.

SHERI: Can you tell me where?

ELIAS: You may investigate!

SHERI: (Humorously) I may? Oh, god! You know Iím not interested in that stuff! (Laughs)

ELIAS: (Looking surprised and spreading his hands) Why shall you inquire?

SHERI: Iíve never seen you stumped! Iím just curious. (Both laugh) I tried!

Oh, my essence color and focus color Ė I think itís burgundies and forest greens.

ELIAS: And which of which?

SHERI: The green would go with the Ilda as my focus color, but I feel like the forest green is the essence color.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: The burgundies, the pinks, and the dusty roses are the focus.

ELIAS: Focus.

SHERI: Cool! Iím good! (Laughs and Elias chuckles) As you sit in my focus chair!

ELIAS: Ah ha!

SHERI: Did I have a conversation with you a couple of weeks ago about somebody coming in late to the session, or was that all in my head?

ELIAS: No, you are correct, although be aware that it is also a translation. I offered energy to you in confirmation of your impression, and you translated this as a conversation.

SHERI: Cool! So the feeling I was having that I translated into that conversation is correct?

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: Thatís cool! (Laughs) I like that! (Elias chuckles)

The thing with my printer the other morning that Iíve talked to a couple of people about Ė I think it was an example of creating outside of my belief. My printer was making weird noises and I couldnít make it stop. Then I started getting messages on the computer that the printer was having problems, and I couldnít figure out what to do to get it to stop. The next morning I got up and I thought, because I wanted a new printer, ďI have a belief that this one has to break to justify getting a new one. I donít want to spend that money right now, and I donít need this to break right now. Iíll buy a new one when I want.Ē Then I turned it back on and it didnít make the noise any more. Was that creating outside of my belief system?

ELIAS: Not outside of your belief system, but recognizing your belief and allowing yourself choice.

SHERI: That was a good example, huh?

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: I done good! (Laughs and Elias chuckles) Iíll have to remember that one and apply it to other things! (Elias laughs)

We talked about Richard and allowing other peopleís decisions to make my choices and kind of how not to do that and paying attention to me.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: Thatís hard.

ELIAS: I am aware.

SHERI: Even when you think youíre paying attention to yourself, I catch myself and I wasnít doing it still.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: But I am doing a lot better.

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: Iím acknowledging that.

ELIAS: And I shall also.

SHERI: Thank you! (Laughs)

ELIAS: I shall express to you, not better; more.

SHERI: Iím paying attention more.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: Iím widening.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: Gosh! Itís hard work! (Elias chuckles) Not really; it hasnít for me been real hard. Itís been interesting and confusing.

ELIAS: (Chuckles) And at times you may incorporate difficulty also. It is an unfamiliar action.

SHERI: Yes, very unfamiliar. Iíve always felt like Ė and I may have discussed this with you before Ė the second part of my life was going to be a lot different than the first part, and so far it is.

ELIAS: And so it has been.

SHERI: Oh, damn! I created that, didnít I! (Laughs)

ELIAS: (Humorously) Tsk, tsk! (Chuckles)

SHERI: I also thought I was going to have a really wonderful relationship in this part of my life, and Iíll be creating that, too.

ELIAS: Perhaps you shall, if you are offering yourself permission.

SHERI: I know. I shall. I donít know why I keep holding back, but I do! (Elias chuckles)

Do I project out or do I bring things in to feel things? People always talk about projecting up into a bird or projecting out into a tree, and I realized the other day reading something that when I felt my tree out in front, it was more like I brought it into me and I felt the tree. I didnít have a sense of going into the tree like some people talk about.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: Is that what I do?

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: Well, no wonder Iíve never been able to feel it the way other people talk about it! Iím just so damn unique! (Both laugh) I havenít had any wine, either! (Elias laughs loudly)

Now, the life in Germany that Daryl and Debi and I share Ė Iíve got other lives there too, right? (Elias nods in agreement) Yeah, I thought so. Debiís the son, Darylís the husband, and Iím the wife, but I donít have a sense of it all. Debi has some sense of it; Daryl has a lot of sense of it. I just have a sense of it to tease them about it! (Laughs)

ELIAS: But this is not in the direction that you engage with your attention.

SHERI: But even when people talk about it, youíd think that I would...

ELIAS: Not necessarily. Individuals that are focusing their attention in this focus do not necessarily generate an association with other focuses, even if another individual is offering details. It may not trigger a familiarity with you. It may, but it may not.

SHERI: I get the feeling... Like with the Nazi stuff Ė I think I was one of those people that was involved in experimenting on other people. I donít have a big thing one way or the other about it, except I remember as a teenager reading that stuff, being grossed out by it but fascinated by it. There are times where I still think, ďWhat would it be like if somebody did this to this person?Ē and I go, ďOh, donít do that! Donít do that!Ē (Elias laughs) So I think I have that.

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: Thatís correct?

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: Was I well known or was I just a helper?

ELIAS: Not necessarily.

SHERI: I was just an assistant, like now! Doing my Ilda thing, even then! (Both laugh, and a slight pause) Sorry for the pauses, but I gotta...

ELIAS: It matters not.

SHERI: I know! (Laugh) It gives the transcribers a chance to catch up, doesnít it?

ELIAS: Ah!

SHERI: Iím doing it on purpose, just to be helpful! Youíre not buying that, are you? (Elias laughs)

I have a question for Daryl, and she wanted me to read it to you.

ELIAS: Very well.

SHERI: She says, ďIn my recent session you gave me the names of four essences I am fragmented from. When I listened to the tape, I realized that you started to express something further about this but stopped when I moved to the next topic. Can you tell me what you were going to add?Ē (Pause)

ELIAS: It matters not.

SHERI: I will tell her that. (Laughs) I can remember that!

ELIAS: What holds significance is what Ashrah chose to be engaging in conversation in the moment, and what she chose not to be engaging is unimportant.

SHERI: A friend of mine, Donna, would like to know the name, family, and alignment for Betsy, Amy and Martha. (Pause)

ELIAS: First individual, essence name, Tami, T-A-M-I (TAM mee). Essence family, Sumari; alignment, Borledim; orientation, common.

SHERI: And Amy? (Pause)

ELIAS: Essence name, Hamil, H-A-M-I-L (HAM ill). Essence family, Tumold; alignment, Vold; orientation, common.

SHERI: And Martha?

ELIAS: Essence name, Wren, W-R-E-N (REN). Essence family, Gramada; alignment, Zuli; orientation, common.

SHERI: She wants to know if she has another focus with Amy and if theyíre adversarial.

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: And yes to adversarial?

ELIAS: Yes.

SHERI: She wanted to know if you would confirm or deny her hunch that she knew Benjamin Franklin in another focus.

ELIAS: Yes Ė friend.

SHERI: I have a question about Ramona, whom you said was a focus of mine or is a focus of mine in Spain. I thought she was in France, and the last time I did automatic writing with her she had an Irish brogue. Whatís going on? (Laughs) I could hear her as Iím writing, and sheís got this real definite accent.

ELIAS: Be remembering, all of these focuses are you. Therefore each focus also incorporates all of you as focuses, and may tap into any aspect within any moment, as so may you.

SHERI: Yeah, but I donít do that stuff! (Laughs)

ELIAS: You merely write!

SHERI: Yes! (Laughs and Elias chuckles) That would be too freaky to have a real person there.

ELIAS: Or to speak within a different accent.

SHERI: Yes, or to be one essence and come into the body of another!

ELIAS: Ah, yes!

SHERI: Oh, creepy! (Laughs)

ELIAS: Quite! You may discuss this with Michael! (Chuckles)

SHERI: (Laughs) How creepy this is?

Is there anything you would like to share with me to help me widen?

ELIAS: Continue to be noticing, my friend. Pay attention, not in black and white.

SHERI: I try not to do those absolutes.

ELIAS: Pay attention to what you offer to yourself, and allow for the gray.

SHERI: You know, I used to feel like I did that, because I always felt like people were so absolute in their views, and I was so wishy-washy. I envied them because they knew what they wanted and what they didnít want. But Iím just black-and-white too, huh?

ELIAS: Individuals that appear to know what they want do not always know what they want.

SHERI: But in the moment theyíre real absolute.

ELIAS: Quite.

SHERI: But youíre right, they do change...

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: ...and they think nothing of going, ďOh, yeah, I was wrong!Ē (Laughs)

ELIAS: It is not a question of wrong; it is different.

SHERI: There is one consistent message I give myself, imagery, signal, and I donít have a clue. Itís been going on for so long. The burning right in here, indigestion-type thing; I donít know what it is but Rolaids help, even though a lot of times itís on the side, not in the middle. I donít know what Iím telling me. (Pause)

ELIAS: To stop pushing.

SHERI: Oh, god! Iím a pusher?

ELIAS: Yourself.

SHERI: In what way?

ELIAS: In many different types of expressions. Think of this time framework presently, within your recent days.

SHERI: Pushing...?

ELIAS: ...yourself in relation to scenarios, situations, other individuals, generating expectations of yourself to do more.

SHERI: To be more.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: Instead of just being.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERI: Oh boy, this is a big one, huh? (Both laugh) I have to say, I do have fun! (Laughs) Oh, gosh! My goodness!

ELIAS: Very well, my friend.

SHERI: You got nothing else? I got nothing else.

ELIAS: (Chuckles) I express as always my great affection to you.

SHERI: And mine to you.

ELIAS: I anticipate our next meeting, and offer you my encouragement and my support.

SHERI: Thank you.

ELIAS: To you as always, my dear friend, in lovingness, au revoir.

SHERI: Au revoir.

Elias departs at 5:33 PM.


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