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Wednesday, February 19, 2003

<  Session 1276 (Private/Phone)  >

ďA Huge Desire to Shift NOWĒ

ďTrust of Yourself in the NowĒ


Participants: Mary (Michael), Dale (Jene) and Mary (Karla).

Elias arrives at 8:48 AM. (Arrival time is 22 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning!

DALE/MARY: Good morning!

ELIAS: And how is your adventure proceeding? (Dale and Mary crack up)

DALE: Isnít that ďadventuresĒ?

ELIAS: Very well!

DALE: I think first I would like to try to identify my most familiar automatic response.

ELIAS: Very well!

DALE: I had a ďtop tenĒ list! Iím not really sure if this is what it is, but I think itís disappointment and frustration in that Iím not allowing myself my freedom and the use of all of my abilities NOW.

ELIAS: And how does this manifest in automatic response?

DALE: I feel like Iím not getting it all now...

ELIAS: Correct.

DALE: ...connecting to all of me now, and so I feel like Iím separated.

ELIAS: And your automatic response is to be associating that you are not good enough yet and that you must continue to strive to be better.

DALE: Yep.

ELIAS: Correct.

DALE: Thereís a confusion, in that part of me gets the connection to my thrifty method and halting it now, and the confusing part is... Itís not confusing. (Elias and Dale laugh) Itís not confusing, but it is frustrating. (1)

ELIAS: And your frustration...

DALE: I mean, Iím just very... Why wonít I? Thatís the frustrating part, because I do recognize that it is me and that Iím preventing myself, but I also am not identifying, other than fear, that I donít allow myself.

ELIAS: Your frustration is expressed in the lack of appreciation in the moment. You understand the concepts, you actualize the reality, but what you do not engage is acknowledging an appreciation in the now for what you ARE doing.

You appreciate the past Ė what you HAVE done Ė and you acknowledge yourself in what you HAVE accomplished pastly, but in the now you are not acknowledging and appreciating what you are generating now. This is what creates your frustration, for this is what motivates your automatic response in expressing to yourself that you could be accomplishing better, which is an expression of the future in anticipation.

DALE: Iím sure you saw at least the three different ways I went there. I do recognize that, because I notice that somebody will say something that they accomplished and theyíll be very appreciative of themselves. And I notice that when I accomplished it, my thought was, ďItís about time!Ē

ELIAS: Correct.

DALE: I mean, to myself. I donít acknowledge that it was anything to be feeling appreciative of, because I feel like I... You know, oh well.

ELIAS: Correct, for your automatic association is that you should have accomplished that action sooner.

DALE: I do get the discounting in that, but then thereís also the part of how do I, not accomplish better... Itís not all related to discounting, though. You know what I mean?

ELIAS: Yes.

DALE: And so thereís the other part of a huge desire to shift NOW.

ELIAS: Correct, but you accomplish that action not merely in paying attention to the now but paying attention to you.

What is meant in this statement of ďpaying attention to youĒ is not merely being aware of yourself, your preferences, your influences, your beliefs, your perception, but also acknowledging and appreciating what you are generating now, regardless of what direction you are moving within. This is the one expression that you continue to not incorporate, the appreciation of yourself in what you are generating now.

You do, as I have stated, incorporate a considerable appreciation, Jene, of what you have offered to yourself in information and accomplishments with regard to the past, but each of those past accomplishments have been expressed in a moment of the now. What you seek to shift is to be appreciating of those accomplishments in the now, not in the future.

DALE: Yes! I feel like another aspect of this is in my explorations of the trying to feel self worth or feeling accomplished. In the trying of it, I also noticed that the whole idea of accomplishing or getting worth also creates the duplicity of that; that within just being, there is no accomplishing. Not to say that thereís no value to existence, but that I see through duplicity that those terms can be used to justify...

ELIAS: Correct.

DALE: ...what is, rather than it just being.

ELIAS: Correct. Although, in association with the term ďaccomplishment,Ē you may associate this term with manifestation. It is not an acquisition, it is not an action of aspiring to, but rather the manifestation. And manifestation is not always a creation of a thing. It may be a realization of a concept, or it may be a realization of a belief or an aspect of yourself. It may be an expression. Not necessarily a physical thing, so to speak, but regardless, accomplishment is the expression of the manifestation.

DALE: I get that! Thatís like a bridge.

ELIAS: Yes.

DALE: I mean, in my objective thinking. I would say outside of my objective thinking, too, but I am trying to do this in objective reality, so...

ELIAS: Correct.

DALE: Oh, that just lets go of the conflict that I can create about it. (Elias laughs) I sure like to make things difficult!

I would like to talk to you about an experience that I know happened twice, possibly three times, in the last couple of days. Last night I really paid attention to it. The whole room Ė I really wouldnít like to say my room Ė my physical vision completely fogged, and then you started blinking the light on and off in the living room and then in the kitchen, and then I danced. What exactly was that? Or does it even matter? (2)

ELIAS: And what is your impression?

DALE: My impression is that it was an allowance of connection and that the details really donít matter.

ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, you are correct. In this, the exchange of energy was expressed to offer you information concerning the action of flexibility and the allowance of yourself to relax the rigidity of your focus. (Pause)

Many times, let me express to you, Jene, you incorporate a rigidness, which contributes to your frustration. Allowing yourself to incorporate more of a flexibility in relaxing your focus in any direction may generate more of an ease.

Now; I shall express to you, although you are quite correct that you do incorporate a preference associated with difficulty Ė and therefore this also is to be recognized and acknowledged that in some situations that you generate you do create difficulties, for this creates an emphasis within you in which you concentrate your attention in what you are manifesting Ė but at other times, you may be generating much less frustration if you are allowing yourself to incorporate more flexibility and allowing yourself to relax your attention in the direction of what you may be focusing upon in the moment. Are you understanding?

DALE: I believe so. Iíve been exploring this for quite awhile and at times I do get the difference between not the trying to do anything but allowing it, and how trying to do it actually is creating the obstacles.

ELIAS: Correct.

DALE: Itís quite challenging!

ELIAS: I am aware!

DALE: But I have done it!

ELIAS: I am aware of this also! Now perhaps you may begin acknowledging and appreciating this doing in the now rather than merely expressing your acknowledgment of what you HAVE done.

DALE: Yes! (Elias and Dale laugh) Yes, yes.

Well. Letís talk about ďWhatever It Is.Ē I donít know what it is. I havenít actually been feeling this recently in the last couple of days, except for this morning. Possibly it began around the beginning of the year, but I feel like thereís something and the only term I can use is maybe an agreement or... Although I donít want to make it seem like itís something in stone at all, because I know itís a choice and itís a choice in the now. But Iím allowing a connection to some very strong aspect of my intent, I guess, only I donít know what it is yet. I sure would like you to tell me what it is, but I know youíre not going to!

The other part of it is I keep moving from an allowance of me allowing it, to automatically moving into expectations of how I should get it done. I donít know really what to say about that, because that kind of says it and I do notice it.

ELIAS: I am aware of what you are expressing. What you are generating is a movement in which you are, figuratively speaking, upon your threshold and have not quite taken the step across the threshold yet, but are standing upon it.

This is not one specific individual direction or expression, and this is the reason that you are aware and feel within you what you express to be something significant Ė a movement, significant, which is associated with your intent. You have not quite identified what ďitĒ is in your terms, for ďitĒ is not one singular expression, which is the familiar association Ė to be aware that you are generating movement, attempting to isolate that, and identifying one particular expression or manifestation that shall spring forth from that movement.

What you are experiencing, in your terms, is much larger, for this is a movement into precisely what you have been discussing with myself this day.

DALE: Even if I try to put it into two or three or four or five different things, Iím still doing the familiar of trying to put it into a thing or whatever.

ELIAS: Correct, for this is a movement into yourself. This is a movement into a realization and a recognition and acknowledgment of self, which shall be a significant accomplishment, for this movement is a genuine movement into a trust of yourself in the now.

You do incorporate a trust of yourself, but for the most part that trust is also associated with past experiences. You somewhat trust yourself in association with the future in relation to evidence that you have offered to yourself in the past. What is missing, so to speak, is that movement into the present, and...

DALE: But I am presently moving into that!

ELIAS: Yes! (Mary laughs)

DALE: Donít laugh! Itís huge! (All laugh)

MARY: I know! I know.

DALE: I know exactly what youíre saying. And I do it, I AM doing it more and more often, even though that sounds like Iím talking about the past and the future. I do know that!

It almost seems strange talking to you, because I talk to you all the time, as Iím sure youíre aware.

ELIAS: Ha ha ha! I am aware.

DALE: And youíre stealing my analogies! (Elias laughs loudly) I came up with the brushing the teeth as a protection belief thing.

That is something that has quite amused me. Between reading the transcripts and getting the transcripts and the group sessions and stuff, I seem to be allowing a much clearer connection without the objective imagery.

ELIAS: Correct, for you are allowing yourself to generate the information in association with these sessions subjectively, and you are expressing them objectively.

DALE: I really like doing that!

ELIAS: (Humorously) Therefore, I shall be correcting of you that I have not stolen your analogies, but rather you are allowing yourself to tap into the information that I am offering Ė regardless of whether you engage the actual transcriptions or the sessions, so to speak, and you are offering yourself that information through your own communications and therefore translating them objectively!

DALE: Well, okay, but I thought the stolen part was a little more fun! (Elias laughs loudly)

ELIAS: Very well, I quite enjoyed in some manifestations the experience of a thief! (Laughter)

DALE: Well, Iím trying to come up with questions, but I donít really have any because it doesnít matter whether Iím talking to you on the phone or not. (Dale and Elias laugh) I mean, I feel like I could go through a whole bunch of things that you could acknowledge, but they donít really matter to me. Or itís not that they donít matter, but it matters not. (Elias laughs)

Oh, I would like to actually talk about other focuses things, just in general. I tend to not really be drawn to that, in the sense that I donít feel like exploring once I make the connection, and I donít really care about designating a name to it. If I make a connection, it doesnít matter to me whether it could be an observing essence, it could be another focus of mine, it could be a focus of a friend of mine, it could be an other dimensional focus. Those things donít seem to matter to me at all. The only thing that seems to matter is the connection in the moment in relevance to what Iím experiencing right then.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

DALE: But! (Laughs) Youíve also said in a recent transcript that exploring other essences or other focuses was beneficial to becoming familiar with oneís own energy, and...

ELIAS: Let me...

DALE: I guess Iím just trying to discount myself actually, right now. Yeah?

ELIAS: Let me express to you, Jene, what I express to any individual is not an absolute. Therefore, it may or may not apply to different individuals.

Now; generally speaking, all that I express to any individual may be applicable to all individuals; but it may not necessarily be significant to all individuals, for it is dependant upon the individualís awareness and their direction and their preferences.

Now; I may express to you, in association with this subject matter, yes, it is an action that may be beneficial to all individuals in identifying your own individual energy expression Ė in a manner of speaking, your own individual energy signature, so to speak Ė and allowing yourselves to differentiate your energy from another focus or another essence, and therefore more clearly recognize what you are generating yourself and what you are receiving in energy projections of other individuals. Many individuals incorporate confusion in association with that differentiation, but this is not the only manner in which you may accomplish that recognition of your energy signature. It is one method that may be expressed to familiarize yourself with your individual energy, but this is not to say that some individuals may not choose other methods to be accomplishing the same action.

Therefore, as you engage reading these transcriptions, pay attention to you and allow yourself to recognize and acknowledge your individual preferences, which generate your interests or the lack of. Therefore, you may be recognizing the information which is offered but also not discounting yourself that you may choose not to incorporate a particular method of movement.

DALE: One of the times that I did do this, that I guess would be one of my methods, was in the car on Christmas Eve. I got a very clear realization of the energy that I was projecting, which was quite different than what I was thinking, of course. But it felt amazing, in that it was a recognition of me, like a much wider perception. It actually almost seemed outside of perception, in the sense of I felt like I was viewing my perception as generated.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

DALE: Is there anything you can tell me about how I could personally do that more? Because I really loved that clarity.

ELIAS: Once again, this has been generated in a moment of allowance and incorporating what you may term to be a de-focusing of your attention.

DALE: It incorporated a hell of a lot more than just thinking.

ELIAS: Correct.

DALE: Or even just feeling.

ELIAS: Correct. It is experiencing.

DALE: Oh, I like that! (Elias laughs) That was like a shift in the now!

ELIAS: Yes.

DALE: Although Iím also quite aware that as soon as I thought of that, I felt, ooo, I donít know if I can handle doing that every now. (Both laugh) But I would like to do it many more nows! So Iíll practice this now. I have felt glimmers of it, and I shall allow it.

ELIAS: Very well. (Chuckles) This is a matter of flexibility.

DALE: And itís kind of all a matter of allowance it seems.

ELIAS: Yes. And in this, let me express to you, although there are many, many individuals that incorporate a preference of investigating other focuses and offering themselves detailed information concerning other focuses, there are also many individuals that do not incorporate an interest or a preference in that particular action, but engage similar information in a different manner such as you have offered to yourself Ė an experience of yourself as expanded, in which you are experiencing yourself as many focuses of attention but not necessarily isolating any particular one.

DALE: Oh, I like that! I like that a lot! (Elias laughs)

Well, letís objectively talk about my musing. I think Iíve been a little disappointed in myself for the last little while...

ELIAS: Ah! This is so VERY unusual! (Both laugh)

DALE: Yes, but I am acknowledging it and not eliminating it! (Elias laughs) Because I have noticed recently Ė well, past, present, blah, blah, blah Ė I notice when I am not keeping my focus on myself. But when I keep it on myself, then I get the most pleasure out of it and others get the most benefit from it.

ELIAS: Correct.

DALE: It just seems almost a little too simple just to do what I want and have that be enough. I mean, I just want to fight that one! Itís just too simple! I need to create some difficulty around it! (Both laugh) So I do on occasion. But I would say that since weíve objectively met again, Iíve relaxed my energy an amazing amount Ė although Iíve tightened it a lot for a while, too. Thatís my extreme thing, too. (Elias laughs) I do like the extremities! They motivate me.

Were you in my closet when I was a kid?

ELIAS: Yes!

DALE: I thought so. Well, Iím very glad that you didnít tell me Iíd be thankful I was so different, but not until I was over 40! (3) (Elias laughs loudly) Because, you know, I would have probably wanted to give up then. So Iíve probably had physical focuses with you.

ELIAS: Yes.

DALE: Any during the Oscar Wilde time?

ELIAS: Yes, but as an acquaintance.

DALE: Did I like you?

ELIAS: At times. (Both laugh)

DALE: I get quite a lot of enjoyment out of your Oscar Wilde stuff. Itís an amazing allowance of freedom of expression. Well, thereís lots of things I get from it.

ELIAS: I may express to you many individuals in this time framework are much more appreciative of that focus than they had been in the actual time framework. Ha ha ha!

DALE: Ah! But you knew that then too, didnít you?

ELIAS: Yes. (Chuckling)

DALE: Thatís another interesting aspect of it for me, is watching the choices you made and how you chose to experience it. Which is also what I do when I connect to one of my focuses, is notice the choices of how to experience and noticing them as choices and not as victims.

ELIAS: (Humorously) Yes, and how very unusual it is of you to be expressing an interest in that particular focus and the choices of that focus, for there are NO similarities at all between that focus and your own in the creation of extremes and conflict!

DALE: None whatsoever! Well, you know, I do have my own wild thing, the Big Bad Wolf that Iím constantly trying to outrun. (Both laugh) Although also noticing that it is not a Big Bad, that itís a choice that itís a Big Bad Wolf. Sometimes itís enjoyable and I use it beneficially. Even when Iím not enjoying it, itís still beneficial. Itís amazing how it is a choice.

ELIAS: Yes.

DALE: And I can also choose ease. Although that doesnít seem to be my familiar!

ELIAS: Now; let me also express to you to be remembering your natural flow of energy, for individuals place strong judgments and values upon certain terms and strongly discount other terms.

In this, ďeaseĒ is a term which individuals strongly associate with in value, and strongly de-value extremes and drama. But not all individuals within your reality incorporate intents in their focuses that naturally generate ease. Therefore, it is not necessarily better, for it is dependant upon what the individualís natural movement is. As I have stated, some individuals incorporate an intent to be exploring dis-ease.

DALE: Like Allard! Oh, I would like one confirmation, although the connection is the connection regardless. Was he, or is he, the guy in the basement?

ELIAS: In projection?

DALE: Is it a projection? I thought it was a memory of me, of a focus of mine in the Ď50s. It feels like the Ď50s.

ELIAS: I am understanding, but the energy was a projection.

DALE: Iím not understanding.

ELIAS: What you experienced and offered to yourself in information through impressions was spurred, in a manner of speaking, or encouraged by a projection of energy of that essence. (Pause)

DALE: So it really wasnít a focus connection...

ELIAS: Yes, but as I have expressed, it has been facilitated, in a manner of speaking, by a projection of energy of Allard in connection with yourself.

DALE: I guess that makes sense, considering that weíve been connecting fairly continuously on and off for our present lives.

ELIAS: Yes.

DALE: Okay. Iím still not sure Iím getting that, but it happened! (Laughing)

ELIAS: Your experience was what?

DALE: My experience was that at first I thought it was just a fantasy and one I judged ďbad,Ē at that. Then it felt more like a memory of a focus, and then I connected that it was him.

ELIAS: Correct.

Now; that experience and that information that you offered to yourself...

DALE: About it being him?

ELIAS: Yes, and concerning another focus of which you share. That experience was prompted, in a manner of speaking, by a projection of energy of Allard in connection with you.

DALE: Okay, I get that. A simple question Ė what were the families of my brother Scott?

ELIAS: And your impression? (Pause)

DALE: I feel Borledim and Milumet in there. But I really havenít thought about it or impressed about it.

ELIAS: Your impression is correct.

DALE: So heís Borledim/Milumet?

ELIAS: Yes.

DALE: I shall acknowledge that in the now.

ELIAS: HA HA! Very well!

DALE: I am amazing! (Elias and Dale laugh; pause)

Oh, what are the families of John Lennon? Or actually, what is my connection to John Lennon?

ELIAS: And your impression?

DALE: Well, I thought he might be another focus of my son or of my brother.

ELIAS: In actuality, you engaged counterpart action with this individual.

DALE: Oh! Which is another connection to Lawrence.

ELIAS: Yes.

DALE: Lawrence is pushy. (Elias laughs) Youíre more prodding. Lawrence feels pushy to me Ė in a nice way, a little pushy. Because she knows I like the extremes!

When Iíve been connecting to the bright yellow, is that a combination of Jene and Ayla, or is Ayla helping facilitate my direct connection to Jene, my objective direct connection?

ELIAS: You ARE Jene.

DALE: Well, I know, but I donít always know it. (Both laugh) I mean, I know intellectually but I donít always allow myself the realization of it.

ELIAS: Your impression is correct. Ha ha ha!

DALE: So Aylaís also helping facilitate this ďwhatever it isĒ also. ďWhatever it isĒ is, I should say.

ELIAS: Offering an expression of energy in supportiveness, yes.

DALE: I feel like Iíve been connecting with lots of essences. One of my preferred methods of acknowledging it is through all of my physical senses. I quite like the physical senses of seeing the energy, feeling the energy, hearing the energy Ė although I havenít quite tasted or smelled it yet, I donít think. I donít think I use taste or smell to connect energy too much.

ELIAS: Yes, you are correct. You are also correct in your recognition of connecting with other essences, but not all of those are nonphysically focused. Many of them incorporate focuses in your physical reality.

DALE: Was that Allard in my dream last night? I donít quite remember the dream, but I remember the feeling of the person.

ELIAS: (Nodding) Yes.

DALE: And the Joe Millionaire type dream I had, where I actually allowed myself to manifest my Jaguar in the moment, what essence was that, that man that was showing me...? That was an amazing dream of focusing on self! (4)

ELIAS: And this was not another essence.

DALE: Was that me?

ELIAS: Yes.

DALE: In my blackness, too! (Laughing) Which Iíve grown quite fond of! (5)

Well, anything else?

ELIAS: I may express the same question to yourself!

DALE: All-ways! (Elias laughs) Always all-ways! And I shall already acknowledge that I am creating my difficulty of thinking I may have a question that I wished Iíd asked you, after Iíd hung up. But Iíll let that go.

ELIAS: Very well, and perhaps in our next objective meeting you shall express more of a comfort and merely engage conversation with a friend, rather than expecting yourself to be expressing questions that you deem to be significant.

MARY: I like that. (All laugh)

DALE: Oh, I was just doing that for you!

ELIAS: Ah! Very well. I am appreciating of it!

DALE: Correct! (Elias laughs) I think Mary has a few questions, so I will let her.

MARY: Hi, Elias.

ELIAS: Good afternoon.

MARY: I just actually have one quick one, I hope.

DALE: I hope itís significant! (Laughing)

MARY: Well, yeah, Iíve got them checked off here.

DALE: Iím teasing you.

MARY: I know, I know! I was wondering if you would be willing to share any info of Quitheís choice of disengagement.

ELIAS: What is your curiosity?

MARY: Thatís what it is; itís just curiosity. His choice of disengagement was, well, it was rather violent. I know it was a choice, and nobody objectively saw it coming. I guess Iím curious.

ELIAS: What is the nature of your curiosity?

MARY: I guess Iím wondering did it have anything to do with our relationship?

ELIAS: No.

MARY: I didnít think so. So it was just a choice?

ELIAS: A choice of a particular type of disengagement to be expressed, in a manner of speaking, dramatically. (Pause) A flamboyant expression.

MARY: Definitely.

DALE: I like focuses close to me using guns, apparently. (Laughs) I think I prefer the head thing, actually Ė not this time. Or only figuratively.

Any more?

MARY: No, actually. Not today. Iím feeling a little disjointed.

ELIAS: Very well. I shall offer my expression of energy to you in comforting.

MARY: Thank you.

ELIAS: You are very welcome.

Very well, my friends. I shall be anticipating our next interaction, and perhaps there shall be an expression of acknowledgment and appreciation in one, and less disjointedness in the other. (Laughs) And perhaps we shall engage an Oscar festivity!

DALE: Soon!

ELIAS: In great Irish tradition! Ha ha ha!

DALE: Sounds fun to me! Thank you, Elias.

ELIAS: You are quite welcome.

DALE: Youíve been quite trustworthy.

ELIAS: I offer to you both my deep affection and continue my encouragement and my appreciation. To you each, my friends, in fondness, au revoir.

DALE: Au revoir.

Elias departs at 9:50 AM.


Endnotes:

(1) Daleís Note:

DALE: ďOkay. I created a thrifty method for myself. Itís, ĎI halt my attempts to create an acceptable me, and accept me as I am.í I feel like this is a key to especially my own self-acceptance.Ē [session 601, April 11, 2000]

(2) Daleís note: A few days prior and the evening before my session I experienced my entire surroundings dissolve. The evening prior as I stood in my kitchen I observed my son watching TV in the living room, totally oblivious to the living room light flicking on and off. (I knew this was in connection with Elias.) Then my kitchen light began flicking on and off and I stopped and simply observed what I was experiencing. I watched as the dissolving began with my immediate surroundings and then spread to my entire surroundings until I was surrounded only by ďair,Ē so to speak. There was a classical waltz playing on the radio and I began to dance from a place of remembrance. I felt in three places at once; in my kitchen listening to the radio, perhaps in Victorian England dancing a waltz with a focus of Elias at a grand party and from a place of observing both simultaneously. One aspect I was quite delighted by was my allowance of my remembrance of how to do this particular waltz, for I definitely donít know how to do it in my present focus. It certainly did relax the rigidity of my focus!

(3) Daleís note: I generated an unpleasant childhood and quite a lot of conflict in association with how I perceived my ďVoldyĒ expressions as unacceptable. I perceived myself as very different and that difference as being very unacceptable. I spent a lot of time alone in small contained spaces; closets, cupboards, tree stumps, anywhere I could find to get away from what I perceived as otherís unacceptance of me. But in these spaces I talked to my friends, what at that time I assumed were angels or dead people or something. I would cry and cry about how I did not want to be different and wanted to fit in. They would reassure me, endlessly, that some day I would be thankful I was different. They were correct.

(4) Daleís Note: 2/11/03, 6:25 AM, Dreamt I was in a situation like the women in ďJoe Millionaire.Ē I donít think it was a competition though, more like a practicing situation with the Joe identity being a facilitator. It seemed the practice was on being in the now, focusing on self in the now, being the undiluted potential of now. This seemed very difficult as it was quite automatic to begin to compare myself to the others, thereby projecting my focus outside myself onto others and also moving myself out of the now in the sense that to compare I was also creating a past (memory) and a future (anticipation) to compare to. The being present in the now was extremely difficult to do as my attention felt very slippery and would just slide into a past or a future almost without my knowing it. It was so automatic; my logic beliefs in planning, strategizing, figuring out moves, being the most affecting, etc. But I also noticed a ďqualityĒ difference. The now felt expansive. Outside of the now felt limited to the direction in which I was thinking, for I was not experiencing those pasts or futures, but ďthinkingĒ about them. And there was a difference between the qualities of being outside the now in this type of thinking and being within the now within the undiluted potential of imagination. Imagination did not have a goal to be reached, like a future, but was the temporary allowance of it be-ing.

Then the facilitator (who was always dressed completely in black) was pulling in my driveway and I noticed he was driving a black Jag. And I knew it was MY black Jag, that I had finally allowed myself to manifest it in the moment. Yesterday I had seen six Jags in 2 hours. I remember thinking how I was creating them all over, but not yet in my driveway, and the remembrance that whatever I create is created in the moment. That I simply was not allowing that moment to be yet and noticing how my attention projected out to the ďprocessesĒ I could use to experience an ďattainingĒ of it. And how that thinking automatically moved duplitically; some processes being better/worse than others and they also were limited directions. Within these processes here was no allowance of undiluted potential for it was potential limited within directions.

(5) Daleís Note:

ELIAS: ďWhat is so very awful of yourself?Ē

DALE: ďGod knows!Ē (Everybody cracks up)

ELIAS: ďThis be YOU! Therefore, answer MY question! (Grinning) I express to you, God, how are you such a terrible little devil? For obviously, God is creating of the devil also! And as you are God, where be your devil that you are so displeased with? And what may you possibly create that is so very black Ė I am quite fond of black! Ė that may not be viewed?Ē [session 332, October 17, 1998]


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