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Wednesday, April 09, 2003

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ďJudgment is Part of my JobĒ

ďUnusual ExperiencesĒ

Participants: Mary (Michael) and Lexa (Aidan).

Elias arrives at 11:10 AM. (Arrival time is 22 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good afternoon!

LEXA: Good afternoon, how are you?

ELIAS: As always! And yourself?

LEXA: Fine.

ELIAS: (Chuckles) How shall we proceed?

LEXA: I have several questions, and Iím interested in your general format. If you can guide me or help me with the answers, Iíd appreciate it.

ELIAS: Very well.

LEXA: Before we begin, let me just say I have not read all of your material. I have read quite a bit of it, and thank you for the perspective youíre providing.

ELIAS: You are quite welcome.

LEXA: Iím interested in my essence name and my essence families that Iíve read about, the nine essence families.

ELIAS: Very well. Essence name, Aidan, A-I-D-A-N (AY den), essence family, Sumafi; alignment, Milumet; orientation, common.

LEXA: Can you tell me anything about Aidan, because I donít know anything.

ELIAS: Ah, but you do, for you ARE!

LEXA: Well, a broader picture. I presume Ė and Iíve read your digests Ė that this is my final physical focus, and if not I want it to be. Have I pulled that correctly?


LEXA: Thank you. Aidan and I will celebrate. (Elias laughs)

I had an experience here a week ago. My phone rang in the morning and it awakened me. As I was was running into my office to answer the phone, I know I went through what I perceive to be a force field in my hallway. Since that experience, it appears to me that when I look at colors outside, they appear to be brighter. I can only attribute that change that Iíve noticed to that experience that I had. Iíd like to talk more about how I presented this to myself Ė I think is the way you speak to people.

ELIAS: (Laughs) Very well. What you perceive to be this force field, so to speak, was in actuality a projection of your energy.

Now; in this, as you allowed yourself to move through this expression of your energy, what you actually created was a shifting, which allowed you to alter your perception and therefore also generate a different expression of your reality. Perception is a very powerful instrument.

LEXA: Tell me about it! (Elias laughs) It certainly is.

Iíve also had other experiences. One night I woke up Ė I have pleated shades in my room Ė and I turned to the window and what appeared was a taut canvas with green and blue on it. If it was a painting, I could paint it. I blinked my eyes but it was still there. I should have been seeing those pleated shades because thatís what is in my room. So I blinked my eyes again and slowly it raised up, just like it was an automatic shade and just went away. I donít know what that was, but I know that I saw it.

ELIAS: Yes, you are quite correct. You did express a visual and it was quite real.

Now; what it was was an expression of energy also that was translated into a physical manifestation.

Now; may you offer an impression as to what perhaps this energy expression was? (Laughs slyly)

LEXA: I donít know what it was, but I could paint it, it was so simple.

ELIAS: I may express to you, this was an offering of my energy to you as an introduction.

LEXA: Was it? Well, hello! (Elias laughs)

ELIAS: Welcome!

LEXA: Thatís very interesting! May I ask, was there a reason? Is there a connection?

ELIAS: Merely to be offering you a physical manifestation to introduce my energy, that you may recognize that it is in actuality quite real. Ha ha ha! And also somewhat of a creative expression.

LEXA: It was very nice; it was very interesting. Was there a reason for this? Is there some ultimate reason that this occurred? As an adjunct to that question, does energy manifest in ways... From what Iíve read, obviously I had to translate this energy in order to see this object.

ELIAS: Correct.

LEXA: When I see things and Iím translating energy that is not necessarily third-dimensional, am I creating it or is it occurring for me to translate? Because we do create our own reality.

ELIAS: Correct; both. In this, as to the specific configuration other than the presentment of an introduction, the configuration of energy was translated somewhat accurately by yourself in your creation of the imagery in its simplicity, which was the point Ė to be offering a simplistic expression of energy that you may incorporate and recognize the simplicity of all that you create.

LEXA: I have another question. Iíve been presenting other things to myself. In reading some of your material and some other material, Iíve noticed when I get to certain portions I begin to feel an intensity of energy that Iím translating into heat. Is this something I need to back up and pay attention to? Obviously I do, but do I REALLY need to pay attention to it, like write it down and carve it into my memory?

ELIAS: (Laughs) Let me express to you, this is actually more common of a response than you may realize. For in generating an openness to different information that you are presenting to yourself, you are also generating an openness to the essences that are presenting that information. Therefore, you are generating an openness and vulnerability to those essences, which many times is translated into a physical experience of heat.

LEXA: So that must mean you must use discernment. Is that correct?

ELIAS: Always.

LEXA: Thatís another issue right now, discernment. Itís very confusing right now with much of the information thatís out, with people that have this focus. Itís very confusing. It runs from one end of the gamut to another. You have to say I reject that because itís not the one that I bought into yesterday, although tomorrow I may buy into another one. I find it to be really a challenge to go through and determine... I donít think itís so much determining your beliefs, itís determining what you want to believe.

ELIAS: Or perhaps what you want to be aligning with, for you do incorporate all of the beliefs. This is an aspect of the design of this physical dimension. But you choose which beliefs you express and align with and you may alter your choices in any moment.

You are correct; you may align with one expression and one belief in one time framework and you may change that in another moment and align with a different belief and a different expression. What is significant is to be paying attention to your preferences in any particular time framework, recognizing that preferences also change, but within any particular time framework allowing yourself the freedom to be expressing your preferences but without expressing judgment in association with other individuals and differences.

LEXA: And I want to talk about that, thank you. You must have picked up my vibe! (Elias laughs)

I want to talk about the issue of judgment. I feel like Iím in a situation because of my employment where I must Ė not must Ė but I make judgments based on my perception of someoneís performance, which can lead to many myriad pathways. At the same time, outside of that particular function, I am working on what I call automatic response judgments. Theyíre probably programmed responses, and Iím working on those. But how does one balance an employment situation that requires that they make judgments and still accept and attempt to follow an idea that you should not make judgments? How do I come to terms with that?

ELIAS: I am understanding. You may be allowing yourself to alter your perception. You offer yourself information and you pay attention to yourself and allow yourself to alter your perception.

Now; many times you may be altering your perception merely by incorporating redefinitions of terms. You may be incorporating employment in which it has been presented to you that your function is to be generating judgments in association with performances, but you may also choose to redefine those terms and your action in association with your function. Perhaps rather than viewing yourself to be expressing a judgment concerning individualsí performances, you may move in an expression of evaluation of individualsí performances and incorporate an action of sharing rather than directing.

LEXA: I do attempt, and I think rather successfully, to operate with my staff on a basis of sharing. But even using the term ďevaluation,Ē that and judgment are not that far apart.

ELIAS: Ah, but they may be, for in expressing a judgment you set forth one idea that you express is right. Therefore, you incorporate a rigidity, and if the performance is not expressed in that precise manner, it is judged as wrong.

Now; in evaluation, you allow for greater choices and you do not necessarily incorporate the rigidity of setting one idea to be right. You allow for other expressions as an incorporation of different choices and creativity that may produce the same result, so to speak, but may be accomplished in different manners.

LEXA: What I think Iím hearing you say is that weíre using the idea of flexibility, which moves the action of judgment to evaluation.

ELIAS: Correct.

Now; let me inquire of you: have you incorporated an action within your focus of gardening?

LEXA: I have in the past; I have not recently.

ELIAS: I understand.

Now; let us incorporate this as an example. In your action of gardening, you may be producing a plant that incorporates flowering.

Now; in this, you may express a belief that to produce a greater action of flowering you must be incorporating the action of particular pruning, correct?

LEXA: Yes.

ELIAS: But you may incorporate that action and you may yield what you want in the production of greater flowering. Another individual may incorporate a different belief, and incorporate a different action and not be incorporating pruning of the plant, and may also generate the same yield in production. Their method may be different and it may be contrary to what you believe, but nonetheless, it generates the same production.

LEXA: I understand you.

ELIAS: Many times individuals express differently in their beliefs and their creativity, which those differences are what generate many expressions of conflict. For many individuals express a rigidity in association with their own beliefs and not an allowance to be actually evaluating other individualís expressions which may create the same result but in a very different manner.

LEXA: Thank you very much.

ELIAS: You are quite welcome.

LEXA: Iíd like to talk about two other experiences that I presented to myself that I found somewhat unusual.

There have been occasions when I have looked in front of me and I have seen the color blue, beautiful blue. Now, the periphera is not blue, only where Iím looking. This has also happened with the color yellow. I have looked on white paper when Iím writing and all of a sudden the paper turns yellow. What am I doing?

ELIAS: These are two different expressions.

Now; in association with the blue, that once again is an incorporation of allowance to be connecting with my energy.

LEXA: You again, huh? Next time youíll have to wave at me! (Elias laughs) Itís a beautiful color. Itís the clearest blue Iíve ever seen.

ELIAS: (Laughs) Thank you! In association with the yellow, this is quite different.

Now; you may also notice at times that you may be viewing that color not merely in time frameworks in which you are writing but at times also when you are reading.

LEXA: Iíve seen it before.


Now; this is quite a different expression. This color is associated with your focus color. In association with your visual sense, at times it is being expressed physically and therefore changes the color of what you are viewing.

In actuality, I may express to you, this occurs with many, many, many individuals. In this time framework, it is beginning to be more noticed by individuals, and as is the situation many times within your societies, it is also being viewed as a disability, in a manner of speaking, in which your sciences are attempting to alter the expression. But I may express to you it is not a disability and it is in actuality quite beneficial.

LEXA: I would never let them lock me up! (Elias laughs) I learned my lesson a long time ago on that one. You just canít let everyone know what you see. Theyíll lock you up!

ELIAS: I may express to you, my friend, they may not necessarily lock you up for viewing this color of yellow, but it may be perceived as a disability that needs to be corrected Ė which does not need to be corrected.

LEXA: When I went to have my eyes checked, I was asked if I saw any colors and I told the optometrist that I did and she was quite concerned about it. But I told her it was from my alien friends and she would just have to get... (Elias laughs loudly)

ELIAS: Hear hear!

LEXA: I had read enough to know that that could happen, so I was not alarmed nor did I allow them to take any steps to alter that situation. So do I have any other focus colors? How many focus colors do people have?

ELIAS: Each focus incorporates its own signature color, so to speak. You also incorporate a signature color of essence, which is a color that is associated with all of your focuses, for it is the expression of you as essence. Each manifestation is a focus.

LEXA: It just dawned on me when you talked about essence and focus... Iím sitting here with this beautiful yellow coat that I want to buy. Yellow has always been a color Iíve been very comfortable with. I thought it was because of my sun sign, but itís my focus color.

ELIAS: Correct.

LEXA: So how many other focuses do we have out here in this world, in this particular timeframe?

ELIAS: This varies in association with the essence, but generally speaking in any given time framework each essence presents between four and seven focuses in the same time framework.

Now; how many you incorporate throughout all of the time frameworks is also a variation of each essence. Within this present time framework, you incorporate five focuses of attention.

LEXA: Theyíre all doing what I should be doing! (Laughs)

ELIAS: They are all experiencing their own explorations, as are you also. (Laughs)

LEXA: When you have a final focus, does that allow a consciousness... Iím assuming thatís what I am, an energy essence...


LEXA: ...thatís just focusing now, in this particular physical framework. Does that allow the freedom not to have to come back here?

ELIAS: Let me express to you, my friend, there is no reincarnation. Therefore, all your focuses are simultaneous in all time frameworks. In this, each focus of attention, once disengaging, moves in whatever direction it chooses in association with its own curiosity. Moving into another expression of manifestation within this physical dimension would be redundant and unproductive.

LEXA: Please! I mean really! (Elias laughs) Itís amazing. I guess Iíve always known, all my life... Actually, I never expected to live this long. Any day it was the end of this adventure that I was on.

But Iíve never felt really comfortable. Iíve never been able to figure out what it was all about, why I was here. It never made any sense. I just didnít fit and that has been a feeling I created, I guess, in order to prepare myself for this final focus, right? (Elias laughs)

ELIAS: Not necessarily, although I am aware of the automatic association with beliefs in relation to that expression. Let me express to you, many individuals that are designated as the final focus incorporate quite a different perception and quite an excitement in association with this physical dimension.

Now; I may express to you, your association with this feeling of not quite fitting is not necessarily associated with being a designated final focus; but in this focus, generating an openness within yourself, you also in some manner have allowed yourself to be associating with other dimensional focuses.

Now; you do incorporate more of a fascination with other dimensional focuses than this particular dimension as essence. Therefore, you also generate somewhat of an alien feeling within this particular focus. Ha ha ha!

LEXA: It makes sense. I can imagine that I can be doing so many different things than what Iím doing right now. Iíve always felt that something just wasnít right. I think I figured it when I found out there was no Santa Claus. From that day forward, something just hasnít been right Ė something was wrong! I could never put my finger on what was wrong. Thank you for that enlightenment

ELIAS: I may also express to you, in your terms what was wrong was the discounting of the communication of imagination, for imagination is quite real and it is an avenue of communication. In this, as it is discouraged to be incorporating that particular avenue of communication, this is what you recognize as your turning point, so to speak.

LEXA: I know imagination is real. I love it. Itís great. Imagine all of the things you could be doing!

ELIAS: And are!

LEXA: Thatís some of the things I bring back in my dreams and I really have some very vivid experiences in my dreams. Iíve seen things and I know that Iím talking to myself, but at some point I seem to also go into the dream and become part of it. I canít really explain it. But itís like Iím above at one point and then Iím in it and then Iím out of it. Iíve come to the conclusion from some of the material Iíve read that Iím actually merging with an aspect or a focus, Iím not sure which.

ELIAS: Yes. You incorporate a tremendous allowance of the objective and subjective awarenesses to be in play, so to speak, within your dream state.

LEXA: Well, I have fun, I guess. Iíve never been fearful. Thatís one thing I find encouraging. I have come out of a dream very sad, though, and was extremely upset. Iím positive it wasnít a dream; I know it wasnít a dream. I went to sleep in the middle of the day and I had this experience. In the middle of this experience, all of these geometric snowflakes started flying at me and I woke up and thought something is wrong, Iíve got to go back. And I turned over and I went back to the same scene. Iíve never had that experience in a dream situation, which led me to believe maybe I wasnít really dreaming. Maybe I really had gone somewhere and had retained the memory and consciousness of where I was.

ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.

LEXA: It was such a moving experience. I went to get this person, this energy, and the thought came to me afterwards, suppose I didnít go back? The what-ifs after the fact, and I cried for weeks! It was such a moving experience, it really was.

ELIAS: I am understanding. This is a projection of yourself into other areas of consciousness and allowing yourself to project to other dimensions.

LEXA: But that was not a dream.


LEXA: I didnít think so. I have not actualized before the ability to go back exactly to where I was within the same framework and complete an action. The action was to get this individual, this energy.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

LEXA: And the fear after the action was suppose I didnít recognize that I needed to go back, and then there was this fear of the responsibility, like how am I to know when Iím dreaming what Iím supposed to be doing Ė so I stopped dreaming! (Elias laughs) Iím not gonna deal with it! Or I stopped bringing back the conscious awareness of it, Iíll put it that way.

ELIAS: I may assure you that you have generated no intrusive action, and in this you have allowed yourself also to be objectively aware of your interaction with another focus within another dimension.

LEXA: And it was one of my focuses, right?


LEXA: I just cried! If I hadnít gone back, if I hadnít gotten him... The what-ifs were with me for a long time. I understand that the things that I translate so that I can interpret them are done in a physical framework so I can bring some remnants back...


LEXA: ...but I also understand that itís energy which I canít see. I translate through my brain and it becomes an object.

ELIAS: Yes, I am understanding.

LEXA: But the focus of the eyes of this particular being that I went back to get, I never ever, ever had that kind of... I donít even know how to describe it.

ELIAS: And this, in actuality, was what you describe as being so moving.

Now; let me also express to you that these two small terms of what-if are very dangerous, for they incorporate a propensity to be destructive. It is a very discounting direction.

LEXA: Itís interesting that you say discounting. I didnít interpret it as discounting. I interpreted it as, I guess, a lack of faith...

ELIAS: Correct, for you had accomplished.

LEXA: But I was so frightened!

ELIAS: But in expressing this ďwhat if I had not,Ē is a discounting of yourself and a lack of trust, for you had already accomplished.

LEXA: I understand, but you have to remember I woke up before I accomplished. Something said Iíve gotta go back, something is not right here.

ELIAS: And you did.

LEXA: Yes, I had to go back! I donít know if the messages were in the snowflake geometric shapes when they were flying at me. At first I thought look at the snow Ė I love snow! Then all of a sudden these geometric shapes started coming and I woke up and I thought something is wrong. This is not right; it didnít balance.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

LEXA: Youíre right, I did go back. It was a very moving experience. I think what I translated into the eyes of this being is what I found so moving. Itís a feeling, an experience Iíve never had before. It was a very humbling experience.

ELIAS: Meeting yourself in a different expression.

LEXA: I was speaking in this experience, but nothing was said. I couldnít hear anything. I could not hear a thing, nothing. At the end when we were leaving, after I had gotten that being out of that situation whatever it was, I handed it this paper, then I heard ďthank you.Ē But that whole time, that whole expression, when I was trying to interact I could hear nothing. I didnít say anything, either.

ELIAS: Quite. For in that expression, in that manifestation, language is not incorporated in the same manner as your physical reality.

LEXA: So when I go to these different dimensions, then how do I communicate?

ELIAS: Through energy, as you have.

LEXA: But I couldnít then.

ELIAS: You did. You were not incorporating an understanding of objectively of what was being communicated to you, but you were responding.

LEXA: I gotcha. But I kinda like to know, you know what I mean? (Elias laughs) Itís nice to hear. Sometimes in my dreams I hear beautiful music. Itís kinda nice to hear, and see, too.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

LEXA: The other thing I wanted to ask about is birds. I seem to be presenting myself with a lot of birds. I donít know if it has to do with freedom because birds can fly, but they seem to be around. I donít know if it was material I read from you about pets... I donít have any pets, but they can slow us down sometimes for whatever reason. But I seem to have attracted birds and they fly in front of me a lot when Iím driving, more so than Iíve ever noticed before.

ELIAS: I may express to you, this is partially associated with your alignment in this focus. Being aligned with the Milumet family, you generate more of your imagery in association with what you term to be nature.

LEXA: Thatís interesting Ė I never get out in nature.

ELIAS: It matters not. You present yourself with these expressions, regardless. These expressions of birds are another expression of imagery that you generate not merely in association with freedom, but also in association with flexibility and incorporating the ability to change directions in that flexibility.

LEXA: Thank you very much!

ELIAS: You are very welcome.

LEXA: I donít know if I have anything else. Do you have anything else to surprise me with?

ELIAS: (Laughs) I may express to you, pay attention to that imagery that you are presenting to yourself in relation to flexibility and freedom, for in this you may allow yourself more of an openness of your own playfulness rather than holding to that playfulness and not allowing it to be exposed. It is quite liberating. And you do incorporate a playfulness within yourself, which may be viewed as quite endearing.

LEXA: I guess it depends on whoís on the other end of it, right? (Elias laughs) Thatís interesting Ė and then how do you use that playfulness and use it productively? ďProductively,Ē thatís a loaded word, you know?

ELIAS: I may express to you that you may surprise yourself in allowing yourself the freedom of your expressions in trusting yourself and not concerning yourself with the perceptions of other individuals.

LEXA: Iím pretty much past that one. You have to fit in enough to stay here so that they donít lock you up Ė I do that. But in terms of others judging me, I canít deal with that. Itís too much luggage. Iíve carried that luggage before in my life, but I canít carry that luggage. Itís a little too heavy for me. I judge myself enough.

ELIAS: (Laughs) I am aware! And perhaps in this, you may allow yourself to incorporate more of an expression of your freedom and trusting of yourself.

LEXA: I agree with that. Thatís necessary. And youíre very right.

ELIAS: Your only responsibility, my friend, is to yourself. But it is to yourself.

LEXA: I understand, and thatís a big responsibility.

ELIAS: Quite.

LEXA: Thatís not a little responsibility. Thatís a big one.

ELIAS: You are quite correct.

LEXA: And also working through some of this garbage that youíre trying to discard thatís been beat into you. Youíve been brainwashed. You go out into the world and you still have to somehow move yourself away from this mass consciousness, this mass thinking. Itís not an easy task here.

ELIAS: I am aware.

LEXA: Thatís why Iím glad Iím a final focus!

ELIAS: (Laughs loudly) Very well, my friend! As you incorporate this as your solution, I applaud you!

LEXA: Itís been a wonderful learning experience. I donít know anything about all those other times I came Ė if I came. I do think this is enough, whatever it is.

Iíve also enjoyed talking to you. Weíre approaching the hour. I do appreciate you introducing yourself to me and itís interesting that Iím talking to you now.

ELIAS: I shall be continuing to be expressing my energy in association with you and reminding you of my presence! (Laughs)

LEXA: I will continue to read the digests and talk to you periodically and hopefully expand my awareness even more. I donít know whatís going to happen Ė whateverís going to happen is gonna happen. This acceleration or energy influx or ascension Ė whoeverís calling it, whateverís going on Ė itís been going on for a while.

ELIAS: You are correct.

LEXA: I noticed it but didnít know what it was.

ELIAS: And perhaps now you offer yourself more information as to what is occurring.

LEXA: I donít know how much more information I can offer myself Ė blinking lights and walking through energy fields and things raising up in my bedroom Ė I donít know what else can come, but Iím prepared. (Elias laughs) Thank you so much for coming, and I look forward to talking with you again.

ELIAS: Very well, my friend, and I with you also. To you in tremendous affection and playfulness, au revoir.

LEXA: Au revoir.

Elias departs at 12:03 PM

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