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Thursday, September 04, 2003

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ďChecking ImpressionsĒ

Participants: Mary (Michael) and Jim (Bevan).

Elias arrives at 9:03 AM. (Arrival time is 19 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good afternoon!

JIM: Well, good afternoon, Elias! (Elias chuckles) The first thing Iíd like to do is thank you for being so patient with me the last session. I was pretty upset.

ELIAS: Ha ha! It is quite acceptable. (Chuckles)

JIM: My first question is why am I pronouncing my essence name BEE-van and not BEH-van as you pronounce it? Any reason for that?

ELIAS: It is an association with another focus that you are merely confusing in association, or what may be termed as somewhat of a memory of another focus that you incorporate, in which you do hold that name with that pronunciation.

JIM: Ah! Is that other focus the one in California, the contemporary?


JIM: Okay, I just wondered. (Elias laughs) Letís go on, because I have a different reason for that.

Answers to questions that I had ready to ask you today have been answered recently in the session transcripts. Is this a result of my widening of my own awareness or is it something more general, like a wave?

ELIAS: It is your widening of your awareness and becoming more familiar with yourself and listening to yourself, which generates more of a noticing in relation to your own movement, paying attention to information that you are offering to yourself and allowing yourself to translate that more clearly in relation to your own movement and your own questions.

JIM: Thank you. Iíd like to ask some questions about my wife. Essence name?

ELIAS: Very well. Essence name, Liam, L-I-A-M.

JIM: Good Irish name! (Elias laughs) Now, does she belong to Borledim?


JIM: And is she aligned Ilda?

ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.

JIM: Is the orientation common?

ELIAS: Correct.

JIM: And emotional focus?

ELIAS: Correct.

JIM: And she is not in transition.

ELIAS: Correct.

JIM: How many focuses do we share?

ELIAS: Fifty-nine.

JIM: Very good, thank you. A question on Randy D.ís wife I forgot to ask last time: is she of common orientation?


JIM: Iím gonna move on to questions about my focus in California. Was my impression correct that she lives in Calwa?


JIM: When I woke up one morning with an email address in my mind, was that her email address?

ELIAS: Was, yes.

JIM: Did she use her focus name in that identity, that email address identity? (Pause)

ELIAS: Partially.

JIM: Leaving out the middle name?


JIM: Did she read the email letters that I sent to that address? (Pause)


JIM: I wonder which one that was. Iím trying to understand why I led myself to this focus. Did I intend to help me trust my impulses and intuition? Because they certainly helped get me there.

ELIAS: Correct.

JIM: I experienced a kind of an emotional roller coaster ride with regard to her. I donít really understand the signals Iíve received on that. Can you help me with that?

ELIAS: Offer your experience. Offer a description of your experience and we shall explore it.

JIM: Ah. Well, first was this tremendous feeling of love, and I got all sorts of things about that. I guess I scared myself with it, because I backed off a lot. I donít know how to explain it beyond that.

ELIAS: It is an allowance that you have generated with yourself in appreciation. Which is significant, for it allows you to generate this experience of appreciation for another aspect of yourself as essence, therefore thinning the veils of separation and also allowing you in that experience to explore your appreciation of yourself in this focus.

JIM: That makes sense. Well, Iím not gonna go beyond that. Iíll have to think about that.

ELIAS: Very well. Remember, the identification of love is a knowing and an appreciation. In this, as you allow yourself to explore another focus and you recognize that that is also you as essence and you generate this expression of love, which is the appreciation, it also is coupled with the knowing that this is also you as essence.

JIM: I see. Iím finding Iím realigning my beliefs as I learn more about her. Is this part of my intent also?

ELIAS: It is an exploration into addressing to truths, and that is allowing you to be expressing more acceptance.

JIM: Ah. I sometimes have this feeling of sadness; I think itís in relation to her. And youíve named sadness as a signal of loss, but I donít quite figure how that applies.

ELIAS: In this, there is an underlying association that you are generating which is also related to addressing to truths in association with different choices that are in opposition to your preferences. Therefore, the sense, so to speak, of loss is associated with the lack of information and the creation of choices that are quite opposed to your beliefs.

JIM: Yes, that makes very good sense. I think Iíve managed to kind of distance myself from that intense emotional connection I felt at first. Do I continue to interact with her in my dreams?


JIM: Yes, I thought probably. My dreams are getting quite vivid lately. Iíve suddenly added sound to them, but I donít bring much back to my waking state. (Elias laughs) Has the energy exchange that Iíve had with her resulted in any lasting changes in her beliefs?

ELIAS: Not necessarily changes in her beliefs, but have incorporated some influence in somewhat more of an acceptance of herself.

JIM: Ah, good! Yes, because I think thatís a major factor with her, that she is not accepting herself.

ELIAS: Correct.

JIM: Itís in defiance. Sheís defying what she thinks is wrong with society. Thatís what I feel about her.

ELIAS: Correct.

JIM: I think sheís going to outlive me by considerable length of physical time, and yet in terms of simultaneous time, I think our disengagements are going to occur simultaneously as Bevan withdraws his attention. Is that correct?

ELIAS: Correct. Now; this is also a choice, you recognize, for any focus may choose to be fragmenting and continuing.

JIM: Right, I understand. Yes.

ELIAS: Very well.

JIM: I was thinking in terms of simultaneous there.

ELIAS: Correct.

JIM: In my previous session, I asked about music that constantly runs in the background in my head. I feel I have a strong connection to at least one of the personalities involved in a particular cello concert recording. Is perhaps Marina Tarasova a focus of Bevan?


JIM: She is! Oh, boy! (Elias laughs) Is Bevan observing of Veronika Dudarova or composer Aram Khachaturian?

ELIAS: Both.

JIM: So thatís why Iím so strongly drawn to that particular recording, I guess. (Elias laughs)

Letís move on to the owl questions. I recently woke up from a dream remembering somebody showing me a symbol that I understood to be ďlittle owl.Ē I have a feeling that this tells me that an owl somehow is a psychic trigger for me. Am I correct?

ELIAS: Yes, you are.

JIM: How do I go about using it?

ELIAS: You may incorporate this within your dream state or within visualizations to allow you to move in different directions, as associated with a dream trigger Ė quite similar.

JIM: I have a memory of my father taking me at age four to see a huge snowy owl that was perched on a stump. I think this memory may be chimerical. I donít think it really happened. Did that event actually occur as I remember, or did... My father denies it.

ELIAS: What you have offered yourself in remembrance is a time period in which you generated a probable self.

JIM: Ah! Why would I do that? That wasnít anything... I donít remember any major branch there.

ELIAS: At times, individuals generate probable selves in a time framework in which they may not be, as you yourself also, generating any particular extreme change in direction, but there is a recognition of a desire to be generating certain experiences that are in a different direction. Therefore, the alteration is in the probable reality, not in this reality. Are you understanding?

JIM: Yes.

ELIAS: Now; in this, you also generated that experience as a type of symbol to yourself. In a manner of speaking, it was generated as a type of marker.

Now; this marker was created in association with that particular creature to be expressed as a remembrance to reinforce your subsequent understanding of this trigger, which you are discussing with myself now. That reinforces the significance of your association with this particular type of creature as your trigger.

JIM: Iíve had some other experiences with owls that kind of stood out, but that would be objective.

ELIAS: Yes. But the objective and the subjective are in harmony, and your association with that marker reinforces your symbolism with that particular type of creature.

JIM: Very good. I like owls. I enjoy owls. (Elias laughs)

Once in awhile I have this tremendous feeling of rage just below the surface. It doesnít feel directed at anyone or anything, but thereís a strong sense of tension that accompanies it. Whatís going on there?

ELIAS: I may express an identification in association with you individually. At times, you are tapping into mass expressions within your world, mass energies, so to speak, and in relation to your individual beliefs, this sparks this intensity of anger, so to speak.

JIM: Thatís peculiar, because my next question was about my Gramada focus being an influence and my tendency to be very much a loner. My tapping into mass emotions, that doesnít sound as though Iím being very much of a loner.

ELIAS: Ah, but that is not to say that there is an inconsistency in that expression. For you choose not to be interactive en masse, but this is not to say that you do not allow yourself at times to tap into a mass energy.

Now; this is also significant, for it offers you the opportunity to examine your beliefs as not being absolute, and therefore, to allow you to recognize that the beliefs that you express may be preferences that you incorporate; but it does not mean that they are right, or that other expressions are wrong.

JIM: These are my preferences and not necessarily anybody elseís.

ELIAS: Correct.

JIM: I pretty well understand that, I think.

ELIAS: You may hold to your preferences and you may express your opinions, but recognizing also that you shall not incorporate a judgment concerning other individualsí choices and their expressions and behaviors.

JIM: Well, I donít do much expressing of my opinions. I keep them pretty much to myself. (Elias chuckles) Recently that thing is kind of out in the open between my wife and I, and weíre kind of getting along very well, doing our own thing. I think Iím fairly accepting that way.

ELIAS: And I am acknowledging of you!

JIM: Hereís another one. I spend quite a few hours playing computer games, solitaire games on the computer. Now Iím realizing Iím creating both the computer and the games. It seems to me that Iím engaging play between my subjective and objective self. Is that correct?

ELIAS: This is what the imagery is, yes.

JIM: So the intuitive nudges I kind of feel while Iím playing, thatís a good practice for recognizing that sort of thing, isnít it?


JIM: Very good. That was my thinking on that. (Elias chuckles)

Going to colors, colors donít mean much to me. I hear people asking for their colors. When I try to look inward, I see an area of blue. Is that Elias or is that something to do with Bevan or myself?

ELIAS: That is my energy with you.

JIM: Very good! Youíre around quite consistently, sir!

ELIAS: Yes, I am! (Laughs)

JIM: Whatís the name of that color? Youíve probably identified that in another session, havenít you?

ELIAS: Yes. (1)

JIM: Iíll ask Mary about that. (Elias chuckles) Is there a sound equivalent to that?

ELIAS: In association with my energy?

JIM: Yes, a tone, I was thinking of.

ELIAS: You may associate a tone in relation to my energy which would be an E chord.

JIM: This is one Iíve been thinking about, trying to figure out. Why do we as essence find it necessary to create physical matter for focus personalities to experience? I see no reason why the experience of that couldnít be passed as energy to the focus without the need for actual creation of matter. Thatís what Iíve been trying to figure out.

ELIAS: It is merely another form of exploration of consciousness, generating a different action and experimenting with creating of actual things from no thing, which is challenging.

JIM: Yes, I can see that! In other words, we create matter just to create matter, for the experience of creating matter. Is that the idea?

ELIAS: Yes. In curiosity.

JIM: Because we could accomplish the same thing without it.

ELIAS: Not necessarily, for the experience is quite different in the incorporation of actual physical manifestations.

JIM: I can see what youíre saying there, yes. (Elias laughs)

There was a description that Seth gave to Rob Butts about what Seth saw when he looked at Butts. He said, ďWhen I look at you, I see a multidimensional form in motion, a geometrical collection of highly intensified energy, with a nucleus that is your whole self. The self that you know is only a small portion of that self, boxed in, so to speak, by itís limited perception.Ē Is that a fairly good description? (2) (Pause)

ELIAS: For the most part, but I would be expressing differently as to the ending element of that statement.

JIM: The boxed in part?

ELIAS: Correct. For perception is a tremendous tool and is extremely flexible, and in that, it is quite vast and allows for tremendous abilities in relation to generating physical form and physical manifestations of any type.

I do not view the individual as less significant than the entirety of essence, for the entirety of essence is embodied in each individual. Therefore, they are tremendously more vast than you recognize yourselves to be. In this, my agreement in relation to that previous statement and identification would be that you each limit your perceptions, but that you are not bound or boxed by your perceptions.

JIM: Right. That would be the binding... How do I state this? The focus could limit itself. Thatís what Iím trying to say.


JIM: I feel that Iíve more or less managed to do that to myself as a focus. And Iím quite content that way, really.

ELIAS: Ha ha ha! I am understanding. In this, it is another expression of choices and preferences. Some individuals choose to be moving in a direction of expanding their awareness to a point in which they allow themselves to recognize themselves as essence and experience in a vastness. Other individuals choose to be limiting their perception, for it is a preference. In that, they move themselves in a direction of genuinely exploring their creations of their world in its limitation or smallness, but generating a genuine appreciation of that smallness. Are you understanding?

JIM: I think so. In other words, Iíve done this in order to see things in more detail. Is that the idea?

ELIAS: Yes. In this, it may be likened to an individual that chooses to be physically moving throughout the entirety of your world, exploring different countries and different cultures and experiencing many, many interactions in many places, and another individual that chooses to be experiencing all of the intricacies of one small town.

JIM: That sounds like me, all right! (Elias laughs)

Iíve kind of run out of questions. I thought this list was gonna hold out, but apparently weíre running out of questions before time. I think at this point Iíll close out, and if I have more questions Iíll have to have another session.

ELIAS: Very well, my friend! And I shall continue to play with you!

JIM: Good! And thank you very, very much.

ELIAS: You are very welcome, my dear friend. Look for my energy and recognize that blue. Ha ha!

JIM: Right! Thank you, sir.

ELIAS: To you in tremendous affection, my friend, as always, au revoir.

JIM: Au revoir.

Elias departs at 9:37 AM.


(1) From Session 639, June 13, 2000:

ELIAS: I may express to you that the color that I incorporate which translates into your identifiable hues in this physical dimension may be identified (pause) as horizon blue. This color of blue you may visualize as the blue between your sea and your expanse of sky, and that is the identifying blue that I associate as my expression of signature color.

(2) Jimís note: I regret that I cannot pinpoint book and page for this quotation from Seth. I believe that I found it in ďThe Personal Sessions, Book One of the Deleted Seth Material,Ē but I am not sure.

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