Thursday, February 12, 2004
ďYour Concern Presently Would Be with What YOU WantĒ
ďThe Pushing Is Creating ObstaclesĒ
Participants: Mary (Michael), Letty (Castille) and Stella (Cindel).
(Eliasí arrival time is 15 seconds.)
ELIAS: Good morning!
LETTY & STELLA: (In unison) Good morning, Elias! (Elias laughs)
STELLA: Itís so wonderful to hear your voice, Elias!
ELIAS: Ha ha! And what shall we be discussing?
LETTY:: Many things! Many things!
ELIAS: (Laughs) Many, many things!
LETTY:: Elias, Cindel wants me to start. I wanted to ask you about my hands and my feet. An automatic thought is oh my god, Iím getting old. I investigated a little bit and I find out that the rheumatism that I think I feel Ė which I have no idea what it is Ė is a symptom of my menopause. My feet are interesting because I think itís all related. If Iíve been sitting, not doing anything, and then I get up, my feet hurt, the bottom of my feet hurt for a little while and then it goes away as long as I keep moving. Itís interesting because it has to do with movement, and Iím thinking it has to do with my energy and perhaps even my direction.
LETTY:: I think it also has to do with the fact that Iíve also been feeling my shoulders a little bit tighter. It has to do with maybe not trusting myself in the direction that Iím going, so I kind of hold myself up.
ELIAS: Correct, and experience tension in doubting yourself. What is your assessment of why you are creating this now? For you have been moving in a different direction recently and for a time framework, and you have been expressing much more trust of yourself and much more of an ease and paying attention to yourself much more clearly. Now what are you doing that is in opposition to that, and what is motivating that?
LETTY:: I think the motivation is a little bit of a fear of the unknown. I think part of my doubt is, because Iím such an objective person, that when my subjective works and Iím not quite figuring out objectively the direction Iím going, I think thatís where I put the doubt, because I donít see it physically.
ELIAS: And I am aware that you are incorporating that tension now also.
LETTY:: Yeah, in this moment!
LETTY:: I donít know how to relax it. I work on relaxing for the moment, and I do, but then again Iím automatically not noticing, so obviously I have to do that. I think thatís why the pain got to be so extensive, even last week, because itís trying to get my attention and Iím having a difficult time reading or understanding the communication to myself.
ELIAS: Now; in this, recognize that what you are expressing physically is a constriction of circulation.
Now; consider that imagery, for it is an expression of movement but it is more specific, in allowing a free flow of energy and therefore allowing for the free flow of circulation, which is also associated with your free flow of movement and allowance of yourself.
LETTY:: Am I correct that Iím scared and Iím doubting myself, that I want to go in that direction which I may objectively not know, or am I actually just changing my mind about it?
LETTY:: In thinking about where I want to go objectively for employment or for a job or to do something, part of me still goes back to the mass belief that I need a job or I should get a job to bring income. Yet at the same time, I recognize I have an internal conflict because Iím still enjoying very much my free time and Iím scared that Iím not going to give myself enough time to open up to somebody. So again, it all comes down to the lack of trust that I can create what I genuinely want.
Now; also recognize that you are allowing influences. You are allowing influences of other individualsí experiences to be affecting how you are assessing your own situation. In this, remember, you are all individuals and you may incorporate similarities in some of your movements or you may incorporate commonalities in some directions, but you are each unique.
Now; I may express to you that you are allowing an influence of Marta and Cindel and their concerns of themselves to influence how you view yourself.
LETTY:: I know weíre in the same situation, but each of them has their own individual desires.
ELIAS: Correct, and you do also. What you are generating is moving your attention to each of them and what their direction is, and not paying attention to what you genuinely want. In a manner of speaking, you are allowing the concerns of the other individuals to influence you in your direction and therefore generating frustration within yourself, for you are not listening any longer and you are allowing yourself to be influenced in association with mass beliefs that you are not necessarily entirely aligning with in this time framework.
LETTY:: And therefore I created that lack of circulation in my body to pay attention to it.
LETTY:: I did recognize that the more it hurt the more it was trying to tell me what I wasnít paying attention to.
LETTY:: I had a dream where there was a whole scene with Marta and his wife, and we were trying to kidnap two kids who were in a dangerous place. At the end of the dream, what woke me up and scared me was that I came back into a room and found Marta lying in bed and he had this look on his face. The fear woke me up, because his look, without any words... I really couldnít see anything other than a bottle of chemicals and alcohol. I woke up and said, ďHeís being tortured.Ē
Obviously, with the scare and the focus on him, am I trying to tell myself that I am focusing on him? Is that like a communication? I had actually a different thought earlier, but right now after talking to you... Like him being in the Mafia, for example, with Mafia being a connotation of a bad place.
ELIAS: I am understanding. In this, what are you expressing to yourself with this imagery? You are expressing another communication to yourself concerning where your attention lies, and generating concern for the other individual in relation to what he is creating. But as I have expressed with Marta, it is significant for him to be paying attention to himself also and allowing himself to move in new directions, which may be unfamiliar but it is what you may term to be a new beginning. Your concern presently would be with what YOU want, not incorporating what you assess as expectations of other individuals.
LETTY:: Cindel and I have talked about it would be great to be able to all work together again in the same place, so weíre pushing or trying to push and maybe thatís not where our real energy is going.
ELIAS: Or perhaps it is, but the pushing is creating obstacles.
LETTY:: The pushing?
ELIAS: Correct. This is not the point, to be forcing energy and forcing yourselves in a direction of incorporating an action jointly with each other. But as I expressed to Marta recently, this is a factor also with him, in forcing energy and not generating that ease.
I may express to you, presently all three of you are generating a very similar action in not trusting yourselves, not generating that ease, and doubting your abilities to create. You have already offered yourselves, all three of you, evidence of your own abilities to be generating what you want in ease, not to be doubting your abilities, and to be trusting yourselves that you may create whatever type of action, regardless of whether you are incorporating tremendous structure or not. Now you all three are generating a very similar expression of doubting your abilities, and as I expressed to Marta, what you are incorporating now is work. You are not employed but you are quite definitely working.
Whereas in the recent time framework, relatively speaking, with any of you in association with employment, you generated much more of an ease, even in your mobility within the confines of the structure, so to speak. You allowed yourselves that trust and that confidence, and you were not struggling and you were not generating such work.
The point is not whether you engage employment or not, but that you generate that type of energy and that trust and that type of movement that you were generating with the employment. For if you are generating that type of energy, regardless of whether you engage employment or not, you shall allow yourselves to move together and to generate money and generate the types of movements that you prefer, and you shall generate it easily without work.
What you all three have expressed in common with each other in association with employment has been a trust of yourselves that you shall generate money, and therefore you incorporate little evaluation or thought or concentration concerning it. You merely knew that you incorporated the ability to generate it, and therefore you did. It was not a concern and there was no doubt.
You also all three hold in common your allowance of yourselves to generate movement Ė in different manners, but regardless, movement: Marta, within physical traveling; you, Castille, within allowance of movement within the structure of your establishment but to be generating the type of movement and expressions that YOU wanted, regardless of its structure; and Cindel allowing herself to generate movement in different types of actions, incorporating different positions, which was also an expression of allowance in movement.
Now all three of you are generating in commonality to each other work and a restriction of movement, for you are focused upon outcomes rather than focusing upon processes. Rather than focusing upon an adventure and allowing yourselves to incorporate listening to your communications of imagination to inspire you, you are concerning yourselves with what you think you cannot do. Therefore, you are reinforcing doubt and struggle, and you are generating work.
LETTY:: Do you pick up that we are, besides the... I donít want to call it negative thoughts of work, but within the three of us, weíre still allowing ourselves to a certain degree in genuineness that we want to do something together.
ELIAS: I am understanding. Each of you also, as I have expressed to Marta, view employment with some element of negativity and restrictiveness. But as I have expressed to Marta, the point in this situation is to be allowing yourselves each to recognize the what you would term to be positive aspects of your previous employments and the freedoms that that allowed you.
Now; the reason that this is significant is not necessarily to inspire you to be obtaining other employment, but rather to offer yourselves information concerning what you viewed as the positive aspects, how you respond to that and what type of energy you expressed outwardly in association with those factors, therefore becoming clearer in how to be incorporating that type of energy and expressing that type of energy outwardly in whatever you choose to be doing.
But you are also, as I have stated, not listening to your creativity. You are not listening to your communication of imagination, for you are too busy paying attention to your doubts and you are too busy concentrating your attention in frustration and not hearing your own communications, for you are too preoccupied with outcomes.
STELLA: You know, Elias, everything that youíre saying is whatís going on. I got a job, a temporary job, and then my kids want to be there with counting the minutes and all that kind of stuff, so it was apparent to me that this was not exactly what I wanted to do. It became apparent to me that I donít really want to go to work right now; Iím not ready to go back to work right now. But in a way, it was an ease on my energy, a little bit of an ease knowing that.
STELLA: I struggled, though, within myself because, of course, all the belief systems come up and itís like, ďStella, look at the time that you were laid off. You should be working already. Time keeps going. Whatís going to happen?Ē All that stuff, all the worry and all the doubt and everything comes up. But I canít seem to stop myself and allow myself to just relax, Elias. It is so difficult. I do it and I realize it and I recognize it in the moment, and I take a deep breath or I do something, just sit down and do nothing, whatever, but itís an ongoing fight. Iím fighting with myself, Elias.
ELIAS: Let me express to you, Cindel Ė and you may be listening to this also, Castille, and you may both offer this to Marta also Ė your definition of relaxing is somewhat askew, for you incorporate this absolute definition and association with relaxing that should incorporate doing nothing or incorporating some activity or action that shall be calming or that shall be quiet. That is not necessarily the manner in which all individuals incorporate relaxation.
Now; as I have expressed to you, Cindel, you experience more comfort if you engage some element of structure. I have expressed to Marta he incorporates more comfort if he is engaging some form of routine. I may to express to Castille also, you express this in common with the other two also.
Now; that structure or that routine is not necessarily an expression that must remain the same. It may change and it may be expressed in different manners. But your relaxation may be more easily expressed if you are incorporating some activity, some action.
I have expressed to each of you pastly that distraction may be beneficial. The reason that I have expressed this to each of you is that in your assessment as you hear the word ďdistraction,Ē you automatically generate an association with incorporating some action, some activity that shall be distracting to you. The reason that that is significant with each of you is that you will allow yourself to incorporate an activity, and the activity is relaxing for you are not fighting with your own energy. Are you understanding?
LETTY:: Yes. Like I call it therapy to clean my house or Bradís house.
Now; you are not incorporating a meditation, in a manner of speaking, in its formal form; although, in another manner of speaking, you ARE incorporating a meditation, for you are engaging an activity that allows you to relax.
STELLA: I read a book a day on murder! (Laughs with Elias) All the drama, I read it!
ELIAS: (Laughs) Individuals incorporate the expression of relaxation in many different manners, and not all of those manners are what you would term to be calm or quiet. It is the desired effect that is significant, and however that desired effect is incorporated is acceptable. It may not necessarily be expressed in that quietness.
Some individuals incorporate rigorous, strenuous physical activity to be generating that relaxation within themselves, which allows them to relax their energy. Some individuals may choose to be generating visualizations or meditations and quietness, but that is not necessarily efficient for all individuals. It is significant that you pay attention to yourself and once again allow yourself to be intimately familiar with yourself, with your preferences and with your natural movement.
This is a time framework in which you all incorporate an excellent opportunity to be genuinely paying attention and noticing what different types of energy you are expressing without the imposed structure, what flounderings you are experiencing and doubts you are experiencing without the imposed structure. But it is also an excellent opportunity for you to become familiar with yourselves and understand what you naturally generate in your individual energies to generate your own expression of structure or routine, and actions that allow you to relax and also allow you to be more open to your communication of imagination, which shall be inspiring.
Let me express to you, there are many, many, many actions that the three of you may incorporate together in cooperation with each other in association with each of your preferences of, in a manner of speaking, what you LIKE TO DO and what you are efficient at doing or what you are talented with and what you are interested in. Initially, in pooling your energies and your communications of imagination, it may appear that any of your suggestions or sharings with each other in imaginative expressions may not necessarily serve to generate money; but do not deceive yourself, for that is not true.
LETTY:: I know we talk about it, but again itís what we have in common right now in this moment objectively. I keep going back to my brother Walterís transportation company, where I think the three of us found fun in helping, because weíre helping without any money, any expectation of getting paid. Yet we keep allowing ourselves to make time or spend time in what we think is helping Walter, but I know weíre helping us because we are enjoying it.
ELIAS: I am understanding, but also do not narrow your perspective. Allow yourselves to be listening to your communication of imagination and inspire yourselves. Pay attention to what you prefer and what you enjoy. But also do not limit yourselves to merely this one business venture, so to speak, but allow yourselves to be open to your periphery and expand in a direction that you may prefer.
STELLA: Do you see it as very hopeful? (All laugh)
ELIAS: I may express to you a great encouragement.
LETTY:: Hey, I know you know more than we know!
ELIAS: I may express to you that you incorporate tremendous potential, and in pooling your energies you also express a tremendous strength. Therefore, be encouraged. (Chuckles)
LETTY:: I have a real quick question for Quinian. He has really nasty sinusitis and a cough that he seems to be creating. Iím pretty sure, obviously, in not paying attention to himself, is it because he has a conflict within himself about what he wants to do also as a quote/unquote job?
LETTY:: Thatís what I thought. Is there any word of encouragement? He tells me that Iím helping him, and I told him that you were helping him through me. He was very open to that and accepted it. (Elias chuckles) So is there any word of encouragement? Actually, everything youíve told us would work for him too.
LETTY:: Not paying attention to what he would like or his imagination or what he would enjoy. I know heís looking at that paycheck every week.
LETTY:: It doesnít help him seeing other aspects.
ELIAS: And not allowing himself to express himself, not allowing himself to move in the direction of what he wants and his preferences but rather focusing his attention quite strongly upon expectations and obligations and responsibility.
LETTY:: Thank you.
STELLA: Elias, Iíd like to ask you this. Iíve created some drama from yesterday. (Elias laughs) The interesting thing is I was kind of in a daze; I was not very outwardly open. Sometimes I can ask questions and stuff; yesterday I was like nothing. Anyway, the guy who came here to the house from the attorneyís office, his name is Elias, and I thought that was kind of funny, coincidence.
ELIAS: (Chuckles) Imagery that you have presented to yourself to remind yourself to be paying attention. It was not my energy. It was merely your imagery to be reminding yourself of this information.
STELLA: Elias, one of the things thatís been happening to me recently that Iíve been paying attention to is, for instance, if I think of a person, the person appears. If I think of a person, the person would call me or Iíd call the person.
Yesterday, before the accident happened, I was in my car and I thought of Teresa, and probably it was at the time that this was happening. I thought of her and I thought in this manner: I wished she was 62 years old so that she could get her Medicare, and then I thought, well, sheís only 59. Then I thought maybe she would get disability, and then I thought, Stella, what are you thinking about disability? That was kind of like what I was thinking, and then she had this accident.
Now, I know sheís dissatisfied with the work sheís doing. Sheís trying to look for something different. Sheís also very fearful and all that kind of stuff, so she had this thing that was like here it is.
So, Elias, how is that working? You know what Iím saying? Iím already picking up stuff that is ready to happen!
ELIAS: I am understanding. Generally speaking, individuals view this type of action as being precognitive. In actuality, as all of the actions are simultaneous, it is not necessarily precognitive.
What you are engaging is allowing yourself an openness to other individuals, incorporating your empathic sense and offering yourself information concerning other individuals. You all incorporate this ability; you merely do not necessarily pay attention to it. As you continue to be widening your awareness, this ability becomes more obvious and you engage it more frequently in a natural manner in which you are not forcing energy. You are merely allowing yourself to move, in a manner of speaking, somewhat beyond an impression.
You incorporate an initial impression and you allow yourself to move beyond that impression and offer yourself more specific information. It may be associated with other individuals in which you tap into their energy, regardless of physical location or proximity. In that, you offer yourself a translation of what they are expressing in their energy, and you discover subsequently that some action has occurred in conjunction with what you translated. This is merely an allowance of yourself to be more easily and clearly exercising your empathic sense, and generating an openness to the individuals surrounding you.
STELLA: Any word for Teresa? I told her I was going to ask you, Elias. I know sheís really nervous.
ELIAS: Efficient creating! (Laughs)
STELLA: So whatever it is that sheís been wanting to do as far as the change she wants Ė this was my thinking when I was thinking about that yesterday Ė somehow bringing it to the forefront right now and really kind of changing in a drastic way, quote/unquote, what she could not do otherwise.
ELIAS: Correct, or what she would not allow herself to engage.
STELLA: Oh, Elias. Anyway, I wish you would come inside of me and merge! (Elias laughs)
ELIAS: (Laughs) Very well! I shall be engaging this action with you. In actuality, perhaps I shall engage this action with all three of you.
LETTY:: Youíve got to give us a little boost of recognition of what we really are creating. It does make sense that we are creating it and thatís the reason that weíre at where weíre at. But yet at the same time I think we do put that little block because we get scared, so we start going in our own direction and obviously we come up with conflict or obstacles. Then I feel back for that little sense of it, and then I say no, I cannot depend on it, I have to struggle for myself. (Elias chuckles) That kind of fun thinking, Elias.
ELIAS: Remember, you are playing a game. Play; be playful. Incorporate that fun in the game, and allow yourself to stop working and struggling in such seriousness! (Chuckles) It is merely a game. The fun of the game is in its playing not in its outcome, for once it achieves an outcome it is over. Therefore, appreciate the playing of the game.
LETTY:: Yes, okay. Thank you so very much!
STELLA: Thank you, Elias!
ELIAS: You are very welcome. And remember, relax in the manner that allows you to relax, rather than forcing yourself to relax in manners that donít allow you to relax! Ha ha ha!
STELLA: From reading all the books Iím reading, I think Iím going to become an investigator or some sort of detective!
ELIAS: Ha ha ha! That would be interesting!
STELLA: Thank you, Elias.
LETTY:: Thank you.
ELIAS: You are very, very welcome, my dear friends. I express my tremendous love and affection for both of you, Holmes and Watson! (Laughs) I shall be anticipating our next meeting, and in the interim time framework I shall be offering my energy to you and shall offer the mergence.
STELLA: Thank you!
LETTY:: Thank you. Weíll look forward to that!
ELIAS: Ha ha! To you both, my dear friends, in fondness, au revoir.
STELLA: Au revoir.
LETTY:: Au revoir, dear friend.
Elias departs after 50 minutes.
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