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Sunday, July 09, 2000

<  Session 658 (Private/Phone)  >

ďBipolar/Manic-DepressiveĒ

ďLunatics Within The NowĒ


Participants: Mary (Michael) and a new participant, Ariel (Taniel).

Elias arrives at 11:17 AM. (Arrival time is 16 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning!

ARIEL: Good morning! (Elias chuckles) Iím so glad to get to talk to you! This is Ariel, or Taniel, and I was gifted this session by my friend Steve, and Iím really excited to finally be able to do this!

ELIAS: (Chuckling) And you have questions?

ARIEL: Yes, I do. May I begin with questions now?

ELIAS: You may proceed.

ARIEL: What vibrational quality of color do I hold? (Pause)

ELIAS: This would be translated into your physical identification as violet.

ARIEL: Oh, really! Thatís very interesting Ė very interesting! Thank you!

ELIAS: You are quite welcome.

ARIEL: I would also like to know the essence name, family and alignment, orientation, and the vibrational quality of color of two friends of mine, Jim and [name omitted], if we could start with Jim first?

ELIAS: Very well. (Pause) Essence name, Waylen; W-A-Y-L-E-N.

ARIEL: Waylen?

ELIAS: Correct.

ARIEL: Ah, thank you!

ELIAS: Essence family, Sumafi; alignment, Ilda; orientation, common.

ARIEL: Common Ė I thought that!

ELIAS: (Chuckling) One point! (They both laugh) Vibrational tone of color, (pause) lemon.

ARIEL: Lemon?

ELIAS: Correct.

ARIEL: Alright! And now [name omitted]?

ELIAS: Essence name, (pause) Crystaal; C-R-Y-S-T-A-A-L. (kris-tallí) Essence family, Sumari.

ARIEL: Sumari?

ELIAS: Correct. Alignment....

ARIEL: Thatís what I had Ė two points!

ELIAS: Ha ha ha! Alignment in this focus, Tumold.

ARIEL: Tumold Ė interesting!

ELIAS: Orientation, common.

ARIEL: Common, and I thought he was soft! (Elias chuckles) Okay, heís common.

ELIAS: Vibrational quality of color (pause) may be identified as a wine red.

ARIEL: Wine red! And you know, I felt that too!

ELIAS: Ha ha! I may acknowledge to you your successfulness in connecting with your impressions!

ARIEL: Why, thank you! Has Jim or my daughter or I shared a focus or some other connection with a Vivienne de Watteville or her family in the early 1900s? (Pause)

ELIAS: You, yes.

ARIEL: Yes! Can you tell me which family member or whatever I was, or Jim or my daughter?

ELIAS: I shall express to you, not family members, but what you may identify as holding the relationship of friendship.

ARIEL: Friendship?

ELIAS: Correct.

ARIEL: And that would be between all three of us?

ELIAS: Yes.

ARIEL: Yes. Well, Iíll be darned! Do I share a focus or other connection with a black woman of some power, like a healer or a shaman or something like that? (Pause)

ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, yes, within a tribal association and identification of a particular role which this individual creates in that focus, [which] would be identified in your terms as a type of medicine woman, so to speak. This would be within the physical location of central Africa.

ARIEL: Central Africa, and about what time frame?

ELIAS: Within a time framework of early 1700s.

ARIEL: Do I share a focus or other connection with a very religious Jewish man? (Pause)

ELIAS: Yes, and also occupy this type of role yourself.

ARIEL: I see, and also on that one, what was the time frame there?

ELIAS: Second century....

ARIEL: Second century. Very interesting Ė very interesting! Do I share a focus or other connection with a Celtic woman? Thatís really the only information I have. (Pause)

ELIAS: Yes, in physical location identified presently as Scotland.

ARIEL: As what?

ELIAS: Scotland.

ARIEL: In Scotland!

ELIAS: Correct.

ARIEL: Thank you!

ELIAS: You are quite welcome.

ARIEL: And what time frame would that be?

ELIAS: Time framework, 1400s.

ARIEL: 1400s. Thank you. Do I share focuses or other connections with any friends or family that I could easily connect with?

ELIAS: Yes. You do occupy other focuses with all of the individuals that you participate with in interaction in this focus.

ARIEL: Really! That is very interesting because I do feel so close to them. I donít have that many friends, but the ones I do have, I feel a connection to, and thatís wonderful!

ELIAS: I may express to you that you may quite easily be accessing information in relation to the focuses that you share with these other individuals if you are allowing yourself merely the activity of quiet meditation. You may also be accessing information concerning these other focuses through dream interaction.

ARIEL: Thatís how I came up with the two I did share with you, Jim and [name omitted]. They were through meditations or my dreams, especially the Vivienne de Watteville one.

ELIAS: This is quite easily accomplished within your focus and in the type of movement that you create individually in association with this society that you participate within.

ARIEL: So, Iím doing okay on my discovering of focuses, but I could do much better with some that I have right now in my own life.

ELIAS: I may express to you an acknowledgment that you are allowing yourself to be viewing other focuses that you participate within, and if you are so choosing, you may continue to be investigating of different focuses that you hold, and you may offer yourself information which may be valuable to you within this focus.

As you allow yourself to view the movements of interaction of other focuses, you may relate these actions to yourself and what you create within THIS focus.

ARIEL: Right, right!

I have had a very special connection with wolves since I was 12 years old. I believe that I am drawn to them because of their close family community and their telepathic communication. Now, is this true? Is this the main reason for my connection with wolves?

ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, yes, for you associate these creatures with specific behaviors that you value within....

ARIEL: Yes, definitely Ė what Iím actually lacking in my life.

ELIAS: Not necessarily! (Laughing)

ARIEL: Oh, really?

ELIAS: I may express to you that you engage some of these qualities within yourself also, and this affords you the expression of what you term to be closeness with certain individuals in this particular focus.

ARIEL: Okay. Now, another thing is, I have been diagnosed as being bipolar or manic-depressive. Are you aware of those?

ELIAS: I am understanding of the identification within your physical terms.

ARIEL: When Iím manic, Iím very psychic and spontaneous, and I love it! However, sometimes when Iím very manic, I hallucinate and I see auras, and all my inner senses seem to be in full gear, and at those times, I find it hard to cope with. I feel very overwhelmed with too much psychic information. Can you tell me why I go through this?

ELIAS: Very well.

First of all, let me express to you that this is a choice of a particular type of manifestation within this physical dimension.

Now; in creating this choice to be manifest in this manner, you also choose not to be participating within the guidelines of the officially accepted reality, in allowing yourself your individual natural flow of energy. This is not to say that objectively you do not choose to participate within the guidelines of the officially accepted reality which is set forth through mass beliefs, for you do align with those belief systems also, and this be the reason that you move your expressions into more of an acceptable alignment with what you term to be the norm of behavior.

Now; the reason that conflict is experienced and confusion is experienced, within yourself and within other individuals that create a similar type of choice of expression within this dimension, is that you also align with the beliefs which govern the expressions of what you define as normal behavior.

Now; this is an important key, for in aligning with these belief systems and attempting to be fitting your expressions of behaviors into the officially accepted expressions, your attention becomes occupied with the action of fitting the behaviors into the official guidelines, but the behaviors do not fit within the official guidelines or rules, so to speak, of the mass expression within this particular physical dimension.

Now; in this, at times you are allowing yourself a free flow of your expression of energy, which creates certain types of experiences. These experiences are quite real!

ARIEL: Really!

ELIAS: These experiences, in actuality, are the same type of experiences that the individuals participating in the officially accepted rules and guidelines of your societies WISH to be creating, as what they deem to be spiritual experiences!

ARIEL: I know it! Yes!

ELIAS: Ha ha ha! But your experiences are labeled lunacy or dysfunctions! (Chuckling) Quite ironic, is it not?

ARIEL: It is Ė it is!

ELIAS: Now....

ARIEL: Sometimes I swing really far in the other direction, and I get suicidal also. So I do swing the other way too, besides just swinging more towards the manic.

ELIAS: Now; let me also offer you a brief explanation of this action.

Within the time frameworks that you are allowing your natural flow of energy, you create experiences that become conflicting and confusing to you, for you also are aligning with the mass belief systems which express that these types of experiences are not normal.

ARIEL: I see. I see this so much clearer.

ELIAS: In this, you create conflict within yourself, for one aspect of yourself views your individual experiences, and in a manner of speaking, understands objectively what you are creating, appreciates what you are creating, and wishes to continue in that creation.

Another aspect of you within your reality is aligning with the mass belief systems and creating powerful judgments concerning your own creations Ė discounting of yourself, expressing to yourself that what you are creating is not real, but is the manifestation of hallucinations or imagination Ė and in this, you do not afford yourself the action of turning your attention to self to allow yourself a time framework physically in which you may familiarize yourself with self without judgment.

Now; in not allowing yourself the freedom of your expression, and in creating the judgment in lack of acceptability of self and a lack of trust of self in association with your experiences, you may move for a time framework, continuing to be creating an openness to the free flow of your individual energy.

But in a manner of speaking, the pressure, so to speak, which is exerted through the judgment of self and the judgment which is expressed outside of self by other individuals and by your society Ė which you align with and which you allow to penetrate your energy field and influence and reinforce your own beliefs Ė creates the action that you identify as the depression, so to speak.

Now; this depression is the objective manifestation of victim and hopelessness, an expression of powerlessness. This is matched in intensity to the expression and experiences of free flow of energy that you allow at times.

Now; the times of free flow of energy may be physically identified as less or fewer than the times of depression, so to speak, for the energy which is expressed within your beliefs and within societal beliefs are very powerful, and this expression of energy overrides your allowance for the moments in which you shall allow yourself a free flow of energy.

For even within the time frameworks of your allowance of free flow, as you are not allowing yourself the expression of familiarizing yourself with your natural flow of energy, and you are not expressing an acceptance of your choice to be experiencing in this manner, there is an underlying judgment that is continuously being expressed, even within the experience of elation.

ARIEL: Yes. Yes, I can see that now.

ELIAS: Now....

ARIEL: Maybe these beliefs that Iím holding when Iím depressed can affect me being comfortable with the free flow of my feelings when Iím more elated and happy.

ELIAS: Quite.

ARIEL: Quite, yes.

ELIAS: Now; let me express to you, let us identify what occupies your attention objectively as you move within the free flow.

You allow yourself an expression of recognition of inner senses. You allow yourself a heightened awareness of your reality. You allow yourself more of an intensity in your expression and exploration of emotional and thought qualities.

ARIEL: And I donít find any of those to be negative, in my viewing.

ELIAS: And they are not!

ARIEL: And they are not, are they?

ELIAS: No.

ARIEL: And I could somehow keep working with my beliefs, and attain that state of mind more frequently and more freely with the free flow of energy.

ELIAS: Yes, you may be creating of this.

Let me also express to you that another quality that you exhibit as you allow this experience is a concentration in your expression of attention within the now.

(Intently) Let me express to you also, one of the expressions that is presenting difficulty in the interaction with other individuals, in association with yourself in these time frameworks, is that other individuals hold great difficulty in the expression of holding their attention within the now.

As other individuals experience difficulty in holding their attention within the now, they also recognize that the general expression of individuals, in a manner of speaking, is quite similar, and in this, individuals validate themselves in the recognition of sameness.

As they identify and interact with you in your experience, they view difference in an action that they themselves are not creating, and therefore, there is an automatic projection of judgment, for the action and the experience that they view is unfamiliar and is threatening.

I have been expressing to individuals the importance and significance of holding your attention within the now from the onset of this forum.

Individuals BELIEVE that they are creating this action of holding their attention within the now, but I may express that in actuality, their attention is held, for the most part, NOT within the now, and that these continue to be mere words and concepts that are not yet actualized, with the exception of random moments, so to speak.

Therefore, as you create this action of holding your attention within the now Ė in BOTH expressions, of elation AND depression Ė you also look outside of yourself in comparison to be offering yourself validation, but you are viewing the expressions of other individuals that are NOT holding their attention within the now. Therefore, in your perception also, the other individuals appear different, and this threatens YOUR ability to be creating validation within yourself.

I express to you, you have created a type of movement within your focus which expresses already a natural movement in holding your attention within the now. Therefore, you need not be concentrating your attention in this expression, which is a challenge for many other individuals! But as you allow yourself to be focusing your attention within the now, also allow yourself the acceptance of self, that what you are creating is not wrong.

ARIEL: Is not what?

ELIAS: Wrong.

ARIEL: Oh, wrong. Yes.

ELIAS: It is merely different. Difference is not wrong. Difference is perceived as threatening to many individuals, but in actuality, the reason it is viewed as threatening is that it is not validating of the individual in the outside expression. (16-second pause)

ARIEL: Well, do you have any other gems of wisdom (Elias grins) for this ... like I say, itís been diagnosed as a dis-ease!

ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha ha!

ARIEL: At times, it can be what I feel is a blessing, a wonderful ability that I have, with the psychic ability and the spontaneity I feel, and all of that.

ELIAS: I express to you, allow yourself the acknowledgment that you are expressing now, and allow yourself the freedom of your free flow of energy without judgment. (Chuckling)

ARIEL: Yes, I can see that, and I think sometimes, when I get ... from what Iím getting from you right now, Iím beginning to see that when I get too manic and feel overwhelmed with my inner senses and all that, Iím just not allowing a free flow of energy, and it gets backed up and condensed into what we have as a time frame, and can feel overwhelming, whereas if I just let myself have a free flow of that energy, it will unstop some of the blockages and some of the abilities that I have to be psychic.

ELIAS: Quite. In this, also be remembering, allow yourself a familiarization with self. Allow yourself to become familiar with yourself and your expressions without judgment.

ARIEL: Exactly. Oh, youíve been so helpful! I feel like Iíve been lifted up by this conversation. You know, you can get very caught up in what doctors diagnose and what society says, and buy into that at times, and it can really foul you up when you do that! (Laughing)

ELIAS: Ha ha ha! I may express to you that your physical science of psychology expresses many narrowing guidelines within your societies, and perpetuates the expression of limitedness.

ARIEL: Yes. Their idea of normal is very, very narrow, (Elias chuckles) and not allowing for a lot of what I experience.

ELIAS: Or of what many other individuals experience either!

ARIEL: Thatís true. Iím not alone in this! (Elias chuckles) Thatís very true, and thatís another thought that will help me Ė to remember that Iím not the only other person doing this.

ELIAS: Quite.

ARIEL: Well, I do have some other questions that I would like to ask you, if I could.

ELIAS: You may.

ARIEL: I would like to know what the vibrational quality of color for my grandson David is. (Pause)

ELIAS: Color identification, mauve.

ARIEL: Mauve Ė thatís like me! I like that! (Elias chuckles)

Then I would also like to know the essence name, family, alignment, orientation, and vibrational quality of color of my daughter Andrea, her husband Quentin, and my granddaughter Micaiah, if we could start with Andrea, my daughter. (Pause)

ELIAS: Very well.

ARIEL: Thank you.

ELIAS: Essence name, (pause) Monphar; M-O-N-P-H-A-R. (mon-farí) Essence family, Ilda; alignment, Milumet; orientation, common; vibrational quality of color, lime.

ARIEL: Lime, okay. And then Quentin? (Pause)

ELIAS: Essence name, (pause) Cloadis; C-L-O-A-D-I-S. (kloídis) Essence family, Sumari; alignment, Zuli; orientation, common; vibrational quality of color, silver.

ARIEL: Silver Ė Iíll be! And then Micaiah?

ELIAS: Essence name, (pause) Lisette; L-I-S-E-T-T-E. (lee-setí)

ARIEL: Thatís very pretty! Sheís a very pretty little girl too! (Laughing, and Elias chuckles)

ELIAS: Essence family, Borledim; alignment, Zuli; orientation, common; vibrational quality of color, lavender.

ARIEL: Lavender?

ELIAS: Correct.

ARIEL: Thank you. Well, this has all been very interesting!

Now, from one of the sessions I was reading, and my memory is not real great, but it appeared, to me at least, in reading about it, that my essence and alignment and the fact that Iím soft can in itself kind of manifest into some of the ... what the doctors are diagnosing as my manic-depression. Do you find that to be true? (Pause)

ELIAS: I may express to you that the expression of your orientation may enhance the clarity of your experiences.

ARIEL: Really! Thatís wonderful! I need to take advantage of that.

ELIAS: (Chuckling) But I may also express to you that this be the reason that I am suggesting to you that you allow yourself to become familiar with self and all of the aspects of your expressions within this manifestation, all of the elements that are contributants to your natural flow of energy.

For in holding this orientation of soft, you DO allow for an enhancement or a type of clarity in your experiences that you create. You also enhance those expressions that you deem to be negative.

ARIEL: I see.

ELIAS: This orientation of soft may also contribute to your confusion in your experiences, for what you allow, in a manner of speaking, are louder voices of your objective and subjective awarenesses. In a manner of speaking, you may create, within yourself, the analogy of a radio, so to speak.

In this, you may view yourself as the radio, in a manner of speaking, and in the manifestation physically of an individual holding the orientation of soft, they may be creating this radio also, but within YOUR choice of manifestation in this physical dimension, you have chosen to be turning up the volume, so to speak, with this radio.

ARIEL: And that, youíre expressing, could be a problem for me then?

ELIAS: I am expressing that it has already created what YOU identify or assess as a problem. It is NOT a problem if you are allowing yourself to become familiar with yourself and your natural flow of energy and your natural expressions.

In this, you may also allow yourself to be accepting of those natural expressions. It becomes what you identify as a problem as you are not accepting your natural expressions, for you are not familiar with your own expressions objectively.

ARIEL: Objectively, yeah. Yeah, Iím very often inside of myself subjectively. I can see that now. Thatís one of the things Iíve kind of been able to pick up on.

ELIAS: In this, as you familiarize yourself with your natural expressions, you may also allow yourself movement into a balance, through the acceptance of self and the allowance of trust within yourself. But as you rail against your own natural flow of energy, you also create confusion and ...

ARIEL: Confusion and sickness.

ELIAS: ... conflict and frustration.

ARIEL: Yes, yes. Well, youíve been very helpful, and I think weíre coming close to the time of Maryís hour, and my friend Steve will be speaking with you next.

ELIAS: Very well.

ARIEL: So, I guess weíll go back to Mary for a while, and Iíll let Steve talk to her, and I really thank you for your time.

ELIAS: You are quite welcome, my friend. I offer to you great encouragement. Continue in your movement in familiarizing yourself with yourself, for you are a wondrous creature!

ARIEL: Thank you!

ELIAS: (Chuckling) To you this day, in great affection and anticipation of our next meeting, au revoir.

ARIEL: Goodbye, Elias.

Elias departs at 12:13 PM.


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