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Wednesday, July 11, 2001

<  Session 862 (Private/Phone)  >

ďImpatienceĒ

ďReflectionsĒ


Participants: Mary (Michael) and Sherry (Seale).

Elias arrives at 12:34 PM. (Arrival time is 27 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning!

SHERRY: Good morning!

ELIAS: How shall we proceed?

SHERRY: First, can I talk to you about something that Mary and I have going on between us?

ELIAS: Very well.

SHERRY: Iíve noticed that we set up times to talk and then it doesnít happen, and I need to understand whatís going on. Her computer went down yesterday, and we were scheduled to talk yesterday. Can you share with us what we are doing individually or together? I mean, I think thereís something together, but I donít know if this is what you call a bleed-through of other focuses, that we have something going on. For me, I didnít feel like I had choices when she told me that the session was going to be later, and then said ďNo, not at all.Ē

ELIAS: I am understanding. Very well. I may express to you that you are correct in your individual expression, identifying that you have offered to yourself imagery concerning your association with the lack of choices and how you create your reality; and in the moments that you are expressing within yourself that you do not hold choices, you also create frustration.

I may express to you in relation to Michael individually, he is already offering himself the identification of what information he is presenting himself with in relation to interactions with other individuals and limitations that he creates at times in his trust of his own ability in the expression of communication.

Now; as to what you are creating in relation to each other, this is not in actuality an expression of bleed-through but a common expression that you both create in impatience. In your individual expressions of imagery, you each are presenting to yourselves in certain time frameworks your own expressions of impatience with situations and with self. And you are correct, you have created this expression and this type of imagery in relation to each other more than merely this once.

SHERRY: (Sigh) I donít know why we are doing that. I mean, whatís the point?

ELIAS: To offer yourselves the opportunity to view this expression and examine your automatic response in relation to what motivates this expression of impatience. (Pause)

SHERRY: Not trusting self.

ELIAS: Correct. There is also an element which is expressed in refocusing your attention in the direction of recognizing what you are creating, what you want, what choices you hold as opposed to the lack of choices, or the association with other individuals dictating to you what your choices may be, or circumstances dictating to you what your choices may be, or that a situation or another individual is creating an aspect of your reality for you.

SHERRY: Yes. Okay, I got that loud and clear! (Laughing, and Elias laughs) Iím seeing this and Iím doing this on lots of levels with different people. So if I get back into self and start looking at what it is I want to be creating, then thatís how to do that, get out of that mode?

ELIAS: By paying attention to you and examining your motivation, listening to self, and recognizing that a situation, a circumstance, or another individual Ė or even an object Ė is not creating your reality for you.

SHERRY: I know I need more work on that, because thatís coming up big time.

ELIAS: This also interplays with the belief that you are co-creating with other elements of consciousness or other individuals, and as I have expressed previously, this is incorrect, for the terminology of ďco-creatingĒ implies that you are creating your reality merely in part [and] that some other force is creating some parts of your reality.

SHERRY: See, thatís the part I donít ... I mean, I understood that and I recognized that after a minute. The first minute, the frustration hit when I couldnít talk to you and it was like I donít have any choice, and I apologized to Mary because I recognized that right after. But I still donít know how I created that part of not being able to talk to you, because what it looked like to me is that I called up, set up the time and was really excited about talking to you. Or was it because I was so excited about talking to you that I blew that right out?

ELIAS: But you ARE speaking with myself NOW. (Smiling)

SHERRY: Well, right, but I wasnít then.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERRY: So how did I create that? Thatís the part ... Mary said her computer didnít work, so itís like okay, thatís Mary and her computer, but then I must have created that because I wasnít talking to you yesterday.

ELIAS: To be illustrating to yourself your automatic expression of impatience. And be remembering what the definition of patience is: for patience is not waiting, patience is allowance. Therefore, if you are creating impatience, you are creating a lack of allowance; and to illustrate that expression to yourself, you created what occurred yesterday.

SHERRY: Oh brother!

ELIAS: This, in actuality, was quite efficient, for you did not eliminate your opportunity or your choice to be interactive with myself. You merely altered the time framework.

SHERRY: Oh my. (Sigh) Thank you very much. Iím sure Mary will be thrilled, too. We can look at this, how we interact together. (Elias laughs)

Can I get some focus orientations and families on some family members?

ELIAS: Very well.

SHERRY: Okay, my daughter Niki? (Pause)

ELIAS: Essence name, family, orientation and focus type you are inquiring of?

SHERRY: Yes.

ELIAS: Very well. Essence name, Wrenn, W-R-E-N-N (REN). Offer to myself your impression concerning essence families.

SHERRY: Oh no! I know my granddaughterís, I think, but I donít know my daughterís. I was trying to figure that out. I donít know.

ELIAS: Essence family, Sumari; alignment, Vold.

SHERRY: Oh, Sumari because she keeps repeating. (Elias laughs) Well, no, I mean I got that part, but Vold! Oh well, I knew she wasnít like me; I mean, she wasnít Tumold or Borledim. I knew that that part was true, so that was good. At least I got part.

ELIAS: Orientation, common.

SHERRY: Good, that I got.

ELIAS: Emotionally focused.

SHERRY: Oh, too bad, poor girl. (Elias laughs loudly) Because thatís me, thatís like oh no!

Then Mikayla, my granddaughter, I think sheís Tumold, either aligned or ... well, my thing is that her family is Tumold. So now you can hit me with it. (Laughs)

ELIAS: (Chuckling) You are correct, belonging to.

SHERRY: Oh cool!

ELIAS: Alignment in this focus, Ilda; orientation, common; emotionally focused.

SHERRY: I figured that, too. But whatís her essence name, now?

ELIAS: Essence name, Fraun, F-R-A-U-N (FRAHN).

SHERRY: Oh, thatís pretty, Fraun. And then my son, Bill? (Pause)

ELIAS: Essence name, Peter. I shall designate in this identification of essence, this is another focus of the same essence which has participated in this forum previously.

SHERRY: Previously?

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERRY: Do I know this person?

ELIAS: No. Designate this information to Michael.

SHERRY: Talk to her and sheíll be able to tell me? Okay.

ELIAS: Essence family, Zuli; alignment, Gramada; orientation, common; political focus.

SHERRY: Can I go back to my granddaughter? I feel really connected to her. Is it just because of being in the Tumold family?

ELIAS: Partially, and also partially that you have expressed other focuses in relationship with this individual.

SHERRY: A number of them? My daughter, we donít have other focuses together?

ELIAS: You do.

SHERRY: Okay, but not as many as my granddaughter?

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERRY: Okay, thatís why. Because I know that this is really familiar, I really feel connected to her. Then my grandson, Mason?

ELIAS: Essence name, Alexi, A-L-E-X-I (ah LEKS eye). Essence family, Sumafi; alignment, Ilda; orientation, common; emotional focus.

SHERRY: Then I would like my dadís. (Pause)

ELIAS: Essence name, Hawll, H-A-W-L-L (HOWL).

SHERRY: Can you say it one more time?

ELIAS: Hawll. Essence family, Milumet; alignment, Sumari; orientation, common; thought focus.

SHERRY: And my mom, then thatís all of my family. (Pause)

ELIAS: Essence name, Pilea, P-I-L-E-A (PEEL yeah). Essence family, Sumafi; alignment, Borledim; orientation, common; emotional focus.

SHERRY: Then the other, thereís three, Tom, Rick and Bill. Iím trying to look at why theyíre in my life. Am I getting connections from their families or ... Ďcause I think theyíre Zulis. (Pause)

ELIAS: Two individuals belonging to, one aligning with.

SHERRY: Which ones are which? Should I just do individuals, Tom first and then Rick and then Bill?

ELIAS: First two individuals belonging to, third individual aligning with.

SHERRY: Is Billís family Tumold? (Pause)

ELIAS: No. This individual is belonging to Sumafi.

SHERRY: Is that the repeating thing again, Ďcause Tom does that a lot, too. (Pause)

ELIAS: This individual [is] aligning with Sumari.

SHERRY: How come Iím getting all these Zuli men in my life? Iím creating this thing, but I donít understand how Iím creating it. For the longest time I didnít feel like I was attractive, or I didnít even want to be attractive. Iím sick and tired of men looking at me like Iím dissected, like itís just sex. Iím going to have a relationship that involves everything ... you know, do things on different focuses with them, play with them, just everything.

So how am I getting this, with these men that want to just ... you know? I mean, Iím creating it on some level, but I donít get it, and I want to change it. Believe me, I want to change it! ĎCause they get freaked!

ELIAS: (Gently) Be remembering, YOU are creating this.

SHERRY: I know, and thatís what Iím saying. I donít want them to be freaked, so itís like ... I mean, in one sense I guess I am creating that ... I mean, I donít guess. I should just be who I am. Iím tired of putting on a front of who I am, do you know what I mean? That part I get. Theyíre not realizing this quite yet, the same way as Iím realizing it. So weíre talking different languages again?

ELIAS: Express to myself, my friend, what are you realizing?

SHERRY: Oh no! (Laughing) Are you going to tell me thatís not what Iím doing objectively? Iím realizing that for some reason Iím creating separation, otherwise they wouldnít be just looking at me as ... right? They wouldnít be dissecting me. They would see me as a total person. So Iím creating that separation, and the way I think Iím doing that is by talking about things that theyíre not understanding.

ELIAS: (Chuckles) And what have I expressed to you previously?

SHERRY: That weíre not co-creating this.

ELIAS: That all that you present to yourself is a reflection of yourself.

SHERRY: Oh, Iím dissecting myself! Oh, yuck. (Elias chuckles) Well, how am I doing that? I donít even understand why Iím doing it. See, thatís the point, Ďcause itís like I donít even want to be doing that. Iím doing these things that I donít even want, and itís like, okay, why?

ELIAS: Let me offer to you, my friend, in actuality these actions and these presentments that you are creating in these reflections are beneficial and are purposeful, for all of these expressions are your push, so to speak, within yourself to be paying attention to self.

To this point, you and I have discussed and spoken of this action and this concept many times, and in this you have partially allowed yourself to assimilate that information intellectually, and in the intellectual assimilation, the information remains a concept; it continues as words. But you have not moved the concept into an expression of reality. Therefore, what you are creating is, in a manner of speaking, an action of pushing yourself through the creation of objective imagery, and the manner in which YOU create objective imagery that shall provide you with this push is manifest in relation to other individuals, for you shall pay attention to the interactions which occur between yourself and other individuals.

Now; as you are aware, I have expressed the terminology of ďpushingĒ energy in relation to other individuals many times as an action that creates hindrance. In this creation, what you are expressing in this action of pushing within yourself is a motivating force, and the manner in which you build, so to speak, the momentum of your motivation to begin actualizing within your reality this concept is to be creating less comfortable situations and interactions with other individuals.

Your beginning movement into opening genuinely to self and recognizing genuinely that you are creating every moment of your experience is to be presenting to yourself a motivation to change, in your terms, what you are creating. In actuality, it is not a situation of changing what you are creating but allowing yourself an intimate objective awareness of self and what you are creating, and in this you create your beginning steps in uncomfortableness, for this gains your attention. What you are attempting to be moving into is an objective recognition of your attention in each moment and the action of steering your ship in the direction that you want.

But prior to this movement, you are presenting to yourself the opportunity to examine what you are creating in each moment Ė be it comfortable or not comfortable Ė and allowing yourself to realize you are not merely creating these expressions, you are choosing them, and all that you choose is purposeful.

SHERRY: So how come I canít choose objectively what I would really like, and by-pass that part? (Laughing)

ELIAS: And I may present to you, how may you objectively choose to create what you want or what you like if you are unfamiliar with you, and have not entirely identified what you want?

SHERRY: So itís like Iím figuring out what I donít want and then Iíll get what I want? It seems like Iím going in the back door.

ELIAS: (Chuckles) I may express to you, many individuals create this type of process, or method Ė your elimination process. Many times you may identify what you do not want, and you express more challenge in attempting to identify what you do want, and this is expressed in relation to your lack of familiarity with self.

SHERRY: Can I get clear about this? I am understanding myself better or getting more familiar with myself because I am seeing how certain things are connecting, like I am choosing ... not really that I am choosing, but I do understand I am creating it. I got that part.

ELIAS: Correct, yes.

SHERRY: So I am getting there.

ELIAS: Yes, and I am not discounting of your movement. I am merely offering you information that you may allow yourself further movement in recognition of other layers of yourself.

SHERRY: And I get that. I didnít think you were discounting me Ė I was discounting me. (Laughing, and Elias laughs) I recognize that, too! This is truly amazing! Iíll have to sit with this, because I donít think I get this. It takes me a while to process it.

ELIAS: Let me express to you, my friend, an encouragement, for I hold the awareness that within your physical dimension this action of genuine acceptance of self, this action of creating a genuine intimate relationship with self and allowing yourself an objective awareness of not merely your beliefs Ė which may be expressed in challenge in itself Ė but also of your communications that you offer to yourself and a genuine recognition of your inner motivations for your creations, is so very unfamiliar to you all that there is expressed great difficulty in the process of accomplishing this action.

This is not to say that you are not creating movement and that you are not accomplishing, for you are. But you have expressed, each of you, many focuses. You have incorporated many experiences within essence throughout all time frameworks in this physical dimension that do not move in the expression of this action.

SHERRY: So is there like a little short cut? You know what I mean, is there something or anything that will make it a little more smooth?

ELIAS: I may express to you, my friend, as I have previously, the most direct route to accomplishment in this expression is to allow yourself to relax, to hold your attention in the now, and to continue to focus your attention upon you. (Pause)

SHERRY: Thank you, because I am beginning to recognize that, too. I even have that objective realization that things are easier or something, thereís a flow when Iím in the now.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERRY: I can see that or sense that or feel it, or whatever, so thatís a good thing.

ELIAS: This is a tremendously affecting expression. Allowing yourself to hold your attention within the now creates much more of an ease. It also creates much more clarity. (Pause)

SHERRY: I didnít want Emmy to come because I didnít have enough room in this place. I didnít want her to be crowded any more, because this focus is supposed to be ... I mean, this time around sheís supposed to have more fun and playfulness. But sheís still not here. So, do you have any words about that? (1)

ELIAS: And I shall express to you once again, this also is your presentment to yourself concerning patience. (Pause) Continue to remind yourself of the definition of patience.

SHERRY: Allowance.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERRY: Well, it was like you said, you should be able to create in a second!

ELIAS: And you may.

SHERRY: Well, Iím not! (Laughing)

ELIAS: And this is the influence of your beliefs. As I have stated previously, you do create what you concentrate upon, and your concentration is not expressed in thought. Your concentration is your attention to beliefs.

SHERRY: Iím telling myself itís possible.

ELIAS: And these are your thoughts.

SHERRY: So itís not the emotional thing yet? How do I get it down there?

ELIAS: The acceptance of the belief is the expression that shall be quite influencing Ė not the elimination of the belief, but the recognition of it and the acceptance of it.

SHERRY: It feels like I must not be that good at that part, because ... Iíll work on that.

ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha! For the...

SHERRY: Iíll be an old lady before she gets back here! (Laughing) Oh, but I donít have control over that, so she can come! Thatís another thing Ė maybe I can call or ask her to just do her thing, right?

ELIAS: It is not an expression of control, my friend.

SHERRY: Well no, but Iím just desiring her to come, and she does her own thing, right?

ELIAS: You may create this. (Deliberately) YOU create ALL of your reality and all that is within it.

SHERRY: Oh yeah, well, so then forget that. Okay, I get it. Iím still ... Ďcause then that other part would have been co-creating if she just shows up.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERRY: Oh my. Iím still working on that co-creating thing, I guess, on a different level, like with George saying that he didnít want to talk to me anymore because Iím too unstable. So I must feel like Iím unstable to myself.

ELIAS: Correct! One point! (Very deliberately) This is the point Ė to allow yourself to recognize that the imagery which you present to yourself is your reflection of yourself. (Pause)

SHERRY: So when I get stable then heíll appreciate me more! (Elias chuckles)

Iíve got to think, now, with the time I have ... well, I think Iím going to talk to you on Friday anyway, if this gives me enough time to process. Iíve been working on trying to pay attention when I feel that vibration, but thereís been something else going on with me. So I wanted to ask you about that, like with Twylah, like the Tumold, can I access that entity or no? Like you?

ELIAS: You may.

SHERRY: How do I know if Iím doing it? Oh no Ė pay attention to self. Well, I mean, is there something ... like with you, I felt the vibration and the color.

ELIAS: You are correct, and you shall experience a different vibrational quality.

SHERRY: A different vibrational quality?

ELIAS: Correct, for this is an expression of a different essence.

SHERRY: Because I thought there should be ... so that will be with Rose, too?

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERRY: When you say a different vibrational quality, are you talking about a difference in the shaking or totally something different, like different color, different ... you know what I mean? Whatís the definition of ďvibrational qualityĒ?

ELIAS: Vibrational quality may be translated within your physical experience in many manners.

SHERRY: Thatís what I meant. So itís not just the shaking Ė Iíve got to be open to whatever starts happening when I ask for them.

ELIAS: Correct.

SHERRY: Oh, cool. Iíd better ask for them when itís time, so I donít confuse myself. (Elias laughs) All right, Iíll work on that. Oh, so thatís cool! For some reason Ė you know that itís not against you Ė but for some reason with Twylah, there must be something Iím trying to connect with that essence.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

SHERRY: But I donít understand why.

ELIAS: And you shall present to yourself your response, and allow yourself to create an understanding objectively.

SHERRY: I think thatís true. What Iím really excited about, though, is court, that I got my hearing. I was able to create that even with everybody saying no no no, leave it alone, donít do it, you canít do it all by yourself. So thatís a good thing, objectively, to me.

ELIAS: And I am acknowledging of you, that you have provided yourself evidence that you do hold the ability to be creating regardless of the expressions of other individuals.

SHERRY: But it is still frustrating. I donít get it. I mean, how could I do that even though itís quite a while ... well, I went back and forth, I know that. But the story that I wrote about Emmy, thatís still not materialized and Emmyís not here either, and itís like ... but Iíll work and Iíll go back and read that part about holding it in the now and the patience part, allowance.

ELIAS: Yes. (Chuckles)

SHERRY: I started that, so Iíll be able to do that.

Right now, I feel like Iím creating this crossroads again, trying to go to South or Central America Ė oh yeah, and I sold the trailer, too! Thatís really cool, because now I am going to have more abundance finally, and especially with the state, too, so Iím hoping I can create enough abundance to go there. Originally I was feeling like driving, and now if that court date ... I might have to fly and then come back. Thatís the part that Iím not understanding, how I do that exactly, but forget that for the moment. Iíll ask you that on Friday while I think about it.

This is a funny thing, so I would like to share this with you. Maybe youíll get the humor out of it, or youíll be able to explain this kind of quickly in the short version. Sunday night I wasnít feeling very well, so I didnít go wash my clothes at the laundromat; I just went to bed. Early the next morning I went, there was Tomís underwear, one pair. I picked it up Ė I knew it was his Ė and I washed my clothes, and then going out I went and put it under his windshield wiper. (Laughs) Iím trying to figure out, is that my clue about the intimacy thing? (Elias chuckles) I mean, itís like underwear Ė Sherry, arenít you pretty bizarre? (Laughing) Do I have to get really graphic?

ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha! Let me express to you, my friend, that in this presentment with these individuals and with these creations that you are expressing, you are also allowing yourself the opportunity to move your attention in the direction of appreciation of self physically in sexuality.

SHERRY: I know that part, but I just want the rest of it. I donít want to create all of these men wanting to appreciate me, Ďcause I donít even have that belief about doing that with just everybody who comes along. I mean, theyíre asking me ... like I have my part and I feel like a horse, you know, like look in my mouth, how old am I? Like this vaginal examination to see if I have all of my parts Ė you know what I mean?

ELIAS: You are presenting yourself with interesting imagery to be addressing to these beliefs.

SHERRY: Am I just supposed to go out and do it with everybody, thatís the belief Iím supposed to let go of?

ELIAS: It is not a matter of letting go. What you are attempting to be creating is changing your beliefs, which is inefficient and is not the point. The point is to be recognizing the beliefs that you hold and to be accepting of them, and therefore offering yourself choice and freedom.

As you continue to express to yourself a distaste for certain beliefs, you shall also continue to create the expressions of them.

SHERRY: Oh no! No, I donít want to do that! Oh no! Iíll be a hermit. (Both laugh) Okay, Iíll work on that part.

A real quick question is about when you said that Iím a powerful vibration a while back. (2) What does that mean, because isnít everybody a powerful vibration?

ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, yes. What I am expressing to you is that you allow this to be expressed objectively quite efficiently. You project outwardly a strong vibrational quality which is recognized not merely by other individuals but also creatures, and all that you identify in your physical dimension as living.

SHERRY: Okay, but theyíre not afraid of me.

ELIAS: No.

SHERRY: Well, we better go Ďcause itís time. Oh, Iím so excited to talk to you! I think this was kind of boring for you, going through all of the names, essences, but on Friday itíll be more exciting! (Elias laughs) I really thank you so much! Iím so grateful, Ďcause I remember now that I was asking and asking for help to understand this reality, and Iím so glad that you responded!

ELIAS: (Chuckles) And so shall I always, my friend. Ha ha ha ha!

SHERRY: Itís just going to keep getting better! (Elias chuckles)

ELIAS: Very well. I shall be anticipating our meeting in what you term to be short time framework.

SHERRY: Okay, me too.

ELIAS: To you I offer an encouraging energy and express to you lovingly, au revoir.

SHERRY: Au revoir.

Elias departs at 1:34 PM.


Endnotes:

(1) Emmy is Sherryís dog that disengaged. See session 836, May 11, 2001.

(2) Refer to session 805, March 25, 2001.


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