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Sunday, August 21, 2005

<  Session 1826 (Private/Phone)  >

ďExploring Your PowerĒ


Participants: Mary (Michael) and Yinka (Adrianna).

(Eliasí arrival time is 17 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good afternoon!

YINKA: Hello, Elias!

ELIAS: Ha ha! Welcome!

YINKA: How are you?

ELIAS: As always, and yourself?

YINKA: I finally got to talk to you! (Elias laughs) Cool, isnít it?

ELIAS: And what shall we discuss?

YINKA: Yes, Iíve got some questions written down, and Iíll just read them and you can respond or react to them as you think.

ELIAS: Very well. Continue.

YINKA: I would like to start with my intent.

ELIAS: Yes?

YINKA: I think that my intent has to do with the phrase that I recognize my power and so I will not be limited by circumstances, or the work is my mission. Is this correct?

ELIAS: Somewhat, yes. They are associated with each other in the exploration of your own determination and how that can be expressed in a powerful manner, and what that allows you to generate in association with power.

YINKA: This intent, it seems to me, I think it goes with trust and acceptance. Is it to recognize the definition and power of myself?

ELIAS: Yes, but...

YINKA: I go through a lot of challenges in which I have to actualize my power eventually and then I will get a break. Why am I going through this way?

ELIAS: But this is all an element of that intent and how you explore it, by presenting to yourself different challenges that create different avenues or directions in which you can thusly discover your own power and how to be manipulating your energy in the most efficient manners for yourself.

YINKA: Now let me go to another one. Iíve discovered that from childhood Iíve lived with core beliefs like I will be left and not being able to create my reality. Now, if this is contrary to this intent, how does this work?

ELIAS: In what capacity?

YINKA: My intent, that weíve just spoken about.

ELIAS: Yes, I am understanding.

YINKA: As I explore my life from childhood, being not worthy and with all the different aspects that are in conflict constantly.

ELIAS: Yes.

YINKA: I think this is contrary to the fact that I explore my own power and definition.

ELIAS: But it is not contrary.

YINKA: It is not?

ELIAS: For if you are presenting yourself with challenges that appear surfacely to be contrary to a powerful expression, that motives you to discover the avenue in which you can express that power. In actually, it is not actually contrary; it is the complement. If you are experiencing some expression that may be viewed as expressing powerlessness, that creates within you a motivation to seek out a manner in which you can express your own power. Therefore, those types of experiences, for you, are quite natural.

YINKA: Thank you. Can I go for another question, then?

ELIAS: Yes.

YINKA: My relationship with my mother from childhood is filled with conflict. This also extends to my siblings. My siblingsí attitude to me especially in relation to my (inaudible) and all the other aspects of this belief, like being a victim, being treated unfairly, being ashamed of myself and not being able to relate to people or having a lasting relationship. Why did I choose to have this kind of conflict with people that are very close to me, and how can I improve things for myself?

ELIAS: First of all, express to myself what is your assessment and your perception of what creates this expression within you of being unworthy or different?

YINKA: Well, I felt my mom didnít like me. I thought she hated me, and she really acted like that and beat me up. She put me down and so did my siblings, and I even got that from other people. Iím wondering why, what can I do about this? Why have I chosen this?

ELIAS: First of all, it is another aspect of your intent, but in this also it is important for you to recognize that what you encounter with other individuals is a reflection of what you are projecting in energy. If you view yourself as unworthy, that is the type of energy that you project, and thusly, you reflect that to yourself through the expressions of other individuals.

Now; if you are exploring your power and avenues in which it can be expressed, it is understandable that you would choose to engage a family that challenges you in that expression, which shall encourage you to genuinely discover your power. But what is a confusing factor in that exploration is the automatic tendency to match energy, which is not an actual or a genuine discovery of power. It is merely an automatic expression of matching energy with another individual, which in actuality perpetuates what you do not want, and it perpetuates discounting of yourself.

Now; in this, if you are becoming more clearly aware of yourself and your automatic responses and recognizing that other individuals are reflecting what you are projecting in energy, you can thusly address to your own energy and generate, or begin to generate, a genuine appreciation of yourself and a trust of yourself. In that, you alter the energy that you are projecting outwardly, and that alters how other individuals interact with you. For they shall continue to reflect to you, but if you are projecting an energy of appreciation, that is also what they shall reflect.

YINKA: Thank you very much for that.

ELIAS: You are welcome.

YINKA: I chose to move alone to a foreign country. I am African, Nigerian, and I thought I was moving away from the cultural mass beliefs of my people. Then I realized that things are not much different here. How do I escape from beliefs that I feel limit me, especially cultural beliefs and mass beliefs and all that?

ELIAS: First of all, it is not a matter of escaping. I may express to you, my friend, you may place yourself in any physical location in any country, and you are what exists there. Therefore, attempting to alter your reality by altering your environment is not generally an expression that shall create much success. It is a matter of you being aware of different beliefs and what the influences are of those beliefs and allowing yourself to choose which influences are more in keeping with your preferences. Each of you incorporates beliefs that you have generated into absolutes. Those are what we term to be your individual truths.

Now; your individual truths are not bad. They are your guidelines for how you shall proceed within your focus and what directions you engage. They are your guidelines in association with your behavior and your choices. The significance of recognizing your truths is also to recognize that they are your own guidelines and are not necessarily applicable to other individuals or even to societies.

In that, as you become more familiar with your preferences and your truths, you may begin to become more familiar with the different influences of them and choose those influences that are more suited to your own preferences. In this, also, it is significant to be aware of differences and recognizing that differences are merely that, they are differences. They are not expressions of right or wrong or good or bad. What you view as bad, another individual may not. What you view as good, another individual may view as very wrong. Therefore, they are your guidelines and not applicable to other individuals.

Now; express to myself, what perceived mass beliefs were you recognizing within your country that you were attempting to escape and subsequently recognized that the mass beliefs in the new country are quite similar? Which mass beliefs were...

YINKA: For example, talking to someone on the street when I really donít feel like talking sometimes. You know, thatís our culture. They expect me to talk when I donít want to talk, to be sociable when I really donít feel like it.

ELIAS: Yes.

YINKA: So, I choose not to want to interact with people. People see me as so different, and why am I so different and why donít I behave like everybody else.

ELIAS: Yes. In this, allowing yourself an acceptance of YOU and your natural flow of energy, you may more easily move within these societies without generating those expectations Ė for you are generating these expectations and opposing yourself. You express these expectations of yourself, for this, in your perception, is what you are supposed to do or what you should do and what you perceive to be as normal.

Therefore, you are generating this opposition within yourself, which, I may express to you now, you express that in a strength, which is also another exploration of power and how power in some manners can be expressed in some means that are actually restricting. For if you are not aware of what you are actually doing, you can be expressing in strength and expressing that energy in power to an extent in which you are actually restricting yourself and discounting yourself.

Now; in this, as you become familiar with your natural flow of energy and your preferences and allow yourself to express an acceptance and comfort with that within yourself and not generating this strength of opposition with yourself, continually opposing yourself and expressing the expectation of yourself that you should be different, that shall allow you to express your own freedom. In not generating expectations of yourself, you shall not present those expectations in reflection from other individuals.

YINKA: Thank you, Elias. Can I ask another question?

ELIAS: Yes.

YINKA: How do I accept core beliefs which Iíve been living all my life, like not creating my reality? How do I accept this core belief?

ELIAS: That you do not create your reality?

YINKA: Yes.

ELIAS: The manner is which you begin to accept this belief that you do not create your reality or that you create your reality merely in part is to begin paying attention and noticing and acknowledging yourself in what you accomplish, to turn your attention from what you lack or from what you do not have or from what you think you cannot accomplish, turning your attention from those expressions to the acknowledgment of what you do have, what you have accomplished, expressing an appreciation of yourself. In that, you may begin in each of your days acknowledging what you accomplish in that day.

Subsequently, you may move into experimentations. Experiment with your energy in what you may term to be small experiments initially. Experiment with how you manipulate your energy. If you are expressing a genuine appreciation of yourself Ė which I would suggest an exercise in that Ė if you are generating that in each day, the other step is to be noticing how that affects your reality outwardly, for it shall.

Now; as you continue to generate this type of action, you begin to evidence to yourself more and more that you actually do affect what occurs in your reality, which shall be helpful to you in accepting this belief.

Now; recognize that there are many different influences of each belief. If you are expressing the belief that you do not create your reality or that you create your reality merely in part, you may be expressing the influence of that belief that is ďif you are not creating all of your reality, you are continuously subject to the potential of being a victim.Ē But you may be choosing a different influence, which may express ďI may not be creating all of my reality, but those elements of my reality that I do create, I may create in a manner that I prefer, and even if I am not creating all of my reality, I may choose to move in directions in which I do not present situations to myself that I may be a victim.Ē

That is the action of paying attention to what YOU are actually doing and what you are choosing. Remember, whatever you are doing you have chosen, and it is futile to be engaging the question with yourself why would I choose this. That question is moot, for it is not a matter of why, and generally speaking, you shall not offer yourself an answer to that question. What is more significant is to be aware of what you are actually doing and to inquire of yourself what is motivating this choice, what is motivating me to engage this action. The motivation is not what other individuals are doing. Whatever other individuals are doing is irrelevant, for that is not what creates what YOU are doing. It is the reverse. What you are doing first creates what other individuals are doing.

YINKA: Shall we move on, then?

ELIAS: Very well.

YINKA: I have no desire to be in a two-way relationship, as I ended up in one and itís been one of the most traumatic periods Iíve had in my life. Is monogamy a belief? Iíve tried polygamy, and I prefer polygamy because things are less complicated then. Am I going to be adopting another belief by accepting to know that I prefer polygamy?

ELIAS: No. It is merely becoming aware of what your preference is.

YINKA: Iíll go on with these questions. This relationship I had with this person, it was so filled with non-acceptance, even when I felt there was something very strong between myself and this guy. Why was telepathy so strong between the two of us? I was in Nigeria and he was in England, and we really communicated in strange ways.

ELIAS: I am understanding. Many individuals may generate strong connections and familiarities with each other, and that is not necessarily to say that you would create a successful relationship with each other in physical proximity. You may draw a particular individual to yourself to be exploring different expressions within yourself or to be discovering different strengths within yourself. But that is not to be confused with the direction of a relationship with the individual.

This is a common pitfall with many individuals, for the automatic association in interacting with another individual that you recognize the familiarity or an attraction to is to translate that into an indication of romantic relationship. Attraction does not necessarily denote the beginning element of a romantic relationship. You may be attracted to another individual for many different reasons, but the automatic association with any type of attraction is that it is to be translated into romantic relationship. That...

YINKA: This guy, I wish we had focuses before. I often dreamt he was my father or my brother.

ELIAS: Yes, you have.

YINKA: Was he like my father in a different focus?

ELIAS: Yes.

YINKA: And was he brother a to me in another focus?

ELIAS: Yes, and you have also engaged romantic relationships in other focuses and have had other family connections in other focuses also.

YINKA: No wonder! Anyway, let me go through more questions. Is this okay?

ELIAS: Yes.

YINKA: Why do my experiences seem so hard or (inaudible)? Is it to do with my being emotionally focused? Thatís one.

ELIAS: Partially, that is a factor in some of your challenges.

YINKA: I enjoy and seek solitude, but sometimes I feel so alone in the universe, and I bemoan the fact that I am so different from other people and that I find it so hard to interact with people. Why do I generate feeling so alone?

ELIAS: That would also be a factor associated with your orientation.

YINKA: My orientation is common, isnít it?

ELIAS: In association with your orientation, you generate tremendous expectations of yourself, and comparisons. This is an action that this orientation of common generates quite commonly. This expression of comparison is quite frequently expressed, and it is very discounting.

Let me express to you also that as I have expressed in relation to this orientation previously, there are time frameworks in which individuals of the common orientation quite naturally seek solitude. Not necessarily isolation, but individuals can be quite comfortable in generating time frameworks in which they are not interactive and in which they are expressing a time framework of being alone. That is an element of the common orientation. If you are exploring the common orientation, I may express...

YINKA: I really want to be able to interact with people more. I want to be able to do so.

ELIAS: That is associated with what we have been discussing Ė you becoming more comfortable with you, more accepting of you, more appreciating of you, and that shall allow you to express a free flow of energy in which you shall enable yourself to interact with other individuals in a much more relaxed manner.

Be aware of this factor of comparing. If you are not comparing, you shall also generate much more of a relaxed ease in interacting with other individuals. If you are comparing yourself with other individuals, that generates a thickness in your energy. It creates much more difficulty and obstacles, for it creates an energy within you of shielding, which does not allow you to expose and receive.

YINKA: You said my family is Sumafi and alignment Milumet. How do I use my Milumet alignment to an advantage?

ELIAS: I may express to you, you may incorporate the qualities of this family in becoming more aware of your interconnectedness Ė not merely with other individuals, although that is a factor, but also allowing yourself to genuinely generate an awareness of your interconnectedness with all of your environment.

YINKA: My essence name you said is Adrianna. Is it?

ELIAS: Yes.

YINKA: How come this is in English? You know, Iím African. I also wanted to ask you what my tone is and how many focuses I have had.

ELIAS: Very well. First of all, let me express to you, it matters not what nationality you express in one focus. The essence name is not necessarily associated with any cultural or ethnic expression. It is a translation of a tone which translates into a word.

YINKA: Can you say it, so I can hear you say it?

ELIAS: Adrianna.

YINKA: What is my essence tone?

ELIAS: In what capacity? As to a musical note?

YINKA: Yes.

ELIAS: Musical note translation, third octave treble, E.

YINKA: How many focuses have I had?

ELIAS: Numbering of focuses in this dimension, 722.

YINKA: I feel like I am an old soul. That is correct?

ELIAS: More so would be associated with average. An old soul would be one that would incorporate more than 2000.

YINKA: I was pregnant some time ago, and I went to see a psychic who doused me with a pendulum. What she did, the pendulum swung, and I felt the strength of the baby move out, and then after that I had a miscarriage. Why did the baby leave?

ELIAS: First of all, what is your impression, and what were you genuinely expressing in that time framework?

YINKA: To be honest with you, I wasnít ready to have that baby then. (Inaudible)

ELIAS: I may express to you that it was an agreement, that there was an initial allowance with you to engage the facilitation of another essence emerging, but subsequently your choice was not to participate, that this was not actually what you wanted to engage. That essence was in agreement and therefore complied.

YINKA: Shortly after this pregnancy, I had two bedfellows Ė I call them bedfellows Ė who came to me when I was sleeping. There was one in front of me and one in the back of me; I was in the middle of them. I knew we interacted quite a lot, and in the morning one of them said, ďYinka, feel this, this is real.Ē So I pulled my hands back and I said, ďNo, this is not real.Ē Even though I could feel them, they were not physical. I feel like I felt their souls. It was very (inaudible). The one in the back was very faint. Who were these guys? What were they?

ELIAS: And your impression?

YINKA: I know they were not physical.

ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.

YINKA: I just know that they were there. What did they want?

ELIAS: (Laughs) It was quite real, and can you not even venture a guess?

YINKA: I canít guess!

ELIAS: But you are speaking to one now.

YINKA: What? Were you one of those two people?

ELIAS: Yes.

YINKA: Oh my god! Who was the second person?

ELIAS: (Laughs) Patel. That would be my dear one.

YINKA: What did we talk about?

ELIAS: It was not a matter of speaking, actually. It was a matter of introduction and expressing the reality of energy and how it can manifest and how it can be manipulated, and that although you may not necessarily visually see, that does not diminish the realness of what is.

YINKA: Actually, it was very friendly, and I enjoyed it. (Elias laughs) Now, can I also ask another question?

ELIAS: Yes.

YINKA: You said essence is not intrusive.

ELIAS: Correct.

YINKA: I had an experience when I was sleeping again. I was asleep, and then a man came to me. He touched my left foot, and I woke up and then I saw him. When I saw him in my house, I tried to attack him and nothing happened. Briefly we looked at each other, and he was big, black, very handsome, and he had stubble on his face. I looked at him and we didnít say a word. The next minute, he touched my back and there was this explosive energy that made me scream so loud I thought I woke up my neighbor. Who was this person, and what did he want?

ELIAS: (Chuckles) This is another focus of you. You drew that energy to yourself as an expression and an example of strength, to actually reinforce you in recognizing your own strength.

YINKA: Wow, okay! Now, let me ask you frankly, are you the pendulum? One day I got so annoyed with my pendulum, and it then changed directions and became more (inaudible) with me. Why did it change directions?

ELIAS: That is your energy, which let me express to you, my friend, that is another type of expression that you may be noticing and acknowledging that YOU created that. Your energy manipulated that. This is another type of expression that I am expressing to you to be noticing within your day in mundane actions that you incorporate, and acknowledge that you created that.

YINKA: I think we have about 12 minutes left, so Iíll just ask you this one. Now, Iíd like to use my intent to generate what I want, to generate experiences where I feel worthy. How do I do this? Am I generating a direction in my career right now on what I want, or is my energy scattered or is my direction not clear? Please offer me advice generally.

ELIAS: Your energy is somewhat scattered, and I may express to you once again, as we have been discussing, the manner in which you shall generate more of an expression of value with yourself is to be engaging this exercise that I have suggested to you in paying attention and acknowledging your accomplishment within each day and also to be generating some expression of appreciation. That shall familiarize you with you and shall also allow you to become familiar with your preferences. That shall be helpful to you in directing your energy intentionally to be creating what you want.

YINKA: With my career right now, I just feel like I donít know what Iím going to do. I enjoy singing, I write stories, and I work in a school that I do not like. What can you advise with my career, please?

ELIAS: I express to you to allow yourself the freedom to generate what you want. Allow yourself to create in a manner of fun rather than work.

YINKA: Can I ask you my friendís essence name and orientation, please? Peter, what is his essence name?

ELIAS: One moment. Essence name Vlad, V-L-A-D.

YINKA: What is his orientation?

ELIAS: And what is your impression?

YINKA: I think itís common.

ELIAS: Correct.

YINKA: And what is his alignment?

ELIAS: And what is your impression?

YINKA: I think itís Sumafi aligned with Sumari.

ELIAS: Correct.

YINKA: Elias, thank you very much, unless you want to add something.

ELIAS: I may merely express to you, my friend, to remember your fun; remember your playfulness. All about you is not so very serious. Perhaps engage the suggestion that in whatever you do, create a game, regardless of whether it be your employment or whether it be other interactions. Remember YOU, express a gentleness with you and create a game; be playful. Any action can be generated into a game, my friend, and that alters your perception of whatever you are doing. I am greatly encouraging of you.

YINKA: Thank you, Elias.

ELIAS: I shall be anticipating our next meeting, and I shall...

YINKA: I shall be anticipating as well!

ELIAS: (Laughs) And I shall be offering my energy to you in encouragement and supportiveness.

YINKA: Thank you, Elias, thank you very much.

ELIAS: To you, my friend, in great affection and lovingness, au revoir.

YINKA: Au revoir.

Elias departs after 52 minutes.


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