Thursday, February 05, 1998
ďAlba gu bra!Ē
Participants: Mary (Michael), Vicki (Lawrence), Helen (Jsenne), and David (Mylo).
Vicís note: This was an unusual session. It was initiated by Mary, who had an impression that Elias had a message for Helen. This has happened before, although infrequently. What seemed unusual to me was Eliasí delivery, which I perceived to be quite dramatic.
Elias arrives at 12:20 PM. (Arrival time was fifteen seconds.)
ELIAS: Good afternoon. (Smiling)
HELEN: Good afternoon.
ELIAS: So, you choose to appease me!
HELEN: Yes, I do.
ELIAS: Then I shall make a request of you. Shall you enter into an exercise with me?
ELIAS: Very well. Allow yourself to relax. Now, engage this exercise with me this day. Close your eyes and listen to my voice. Listen to what I express to you. Allow yourself to visualize, and REMEMBER.
See green hills before you, tall trees. See yourself; a slight woman with very long black hair, soft white skin. View alongside of yourself in this place another individual, a young man with also long hair, but of red color. Allow yourself to feel yourself within this scene. Your name is Emare. (Not sure of spelling; similar to Emir, with the accent on the second syllable) You are in Scotland. The year is 1314. Feel this time. The air is wet and cold, but you feel pleasant. The young man next to you is named Brian. You are quite connected. There is a feeling of calmness and acceptance in this place. You are within a small village outside of Edinburgh. Take a moment to savor this moment. (Thirty-second pause)
Now straighten yourself and look to me. This be a focus of yours shared with whom you now know as Elias. This, within your present time period, is past. Identify to yourself within THIS now that this is yours, but it is also past. It may be reflected upon in joyfulness as a remembrance.
Now, within the second element of our exercise, as you gaze at me, identify to yourself the present now; your thoughts and your feelings within this very moment, no other moment, for no other moment exists. I have offered you this remembrance, that you may identify the difference between another moment and this moment. Much of your conflict is created by projecting yourself into other moments, future moments, and in this projection into future moments, you create anxiety within you. Therefore, I express to you within THIS moment NOW, this is all that exists. Express to me, what is your thought within this very moment? What is your feeling?
HELEN: That the present moment is too painful to be in.
ELIAS: Why? (Pause)
HELEN: I donít know. Iíve always wanted to go somewhere else.
ELIAS: What is affecting you right this moment? (Pause) No thing.
HELEN: (Whispering) Nothing.
ELIAS: What is your experience within this very moment? No thing outside of you affects you. There is no future looming. There is only now; and now, within this moment, you are safe.
HELEN: My whole life, Iíve never been in the present moment. Iíve always escaped, whether it be past ...
ELIAS: Or futurely.
HELEN: ... or future. I always think my happiness is in the future.
ELIAS: I am aware. This be why I do not offer you a future focus, but a past focus, that you may view they are the same. They are not now; and within the present now you are safe, you are warm, and you are fine, and no thing affects you. And you hold the opportunity and the choice within the present now, within the moment, to appreciate all that you hold THIS now.
I also shall express to you once again, with consideration to your anxiety, that my suggestion stands that you walk, and when you are walking, remember this focus. Allow yourself the warmth of what you feel within this focus of such happiness, and turn your attention to the present now, the moment of each step that you take, and allow yourself the appreciation that within each of those steps, within each of those moments upon your walk, you are safe, you are fine, and no thing is affecting of you. Allow yourself YOURSELF. You look too much to outside of yourself, and you create great conflict.
HELEN: Iím good at that!
ELIAS: You are whole within yourself. It was important for this message and this exercise to be delivered to you, for if you are allowing yourself, you may find a great lessening in your own anxiety.
HELEN: How so?
ELIAS: If you are practicing this exercise that I have offered you, your anxiety shall dissipate. I have given you a ďmethod.Ē (Pause) I am aware of the emotion of desperation that you feel within you, but it need not be so.
HELEN: Why do I create that for myself?
ELIAS: You are creating the intensity of these emotions in a quest to be discovering passion; a recapturing of that which you know within you, but feel that you have lost.
HELEN: Yes, I do feel Iíve lost that.
ELIAS: But you have not. You are merely forgetful of where to be looking.
HELEN: And I need to be looking within the moment.
ELIAS: Yes, to yourself; not to your career, not to other individuals, not futurely, that the future holds some element that you must seek. It is already, but it is within you.
HELEN: I want to ask you a question.
ELIAS: You may.
HELEN: Am I pregnant? (Pause)
ELIAS: It is a probability. It is also your choice to be continuing or not within this creation.
HELEN: I had a mental fantasy last night that I was pregnant and that I needed to have the baby. (Sighing) I donít even know what thatís about. I thought maybe that was going to be what you were going to tell me.
ELIAS: Another avenue that you seek that passion outside of yourself. You look to a small one as a gift that shall provide you with an unconditional giving. Be remembering, the only choice you agree to within these situations is to give birth. The entering focus chooses all else.
HELEN: I want to ask you ... Iím so aware of what youíre saying to me logically, and Iím glad that youíve given me a method. (Sighing) Thereís a man that I have been involved with for the past few weeks and itís caused me a great deal of pain, because I knew what I was doing. I knew that I was seeking outside of myself and it caused me great duress, because I know thatís not going to work any more. It doesnít work for me any more, but ... (whispering) I donít know what I want to ask.
ELIAS: Attempt the experiment with this exercise and your method. (Affectionately) If you may not allow yourself to believe yourself, then temporarily believe me until you learn to believe yourself.
HELEN: Believe you when you say that I am whole, and that I have not lost my passion?
ELIAS: And that your method may be very affecting.
HELEN: The walk method.
ELIAS: Remembering your exercise.
HELEN: But that to me seems like Iíd be in the past. I mean, I wouldnít be in the moment. But youíre asking me to bring that serenity into my present moment, and realize that I can experience it in each step that I take.
HELEN: That I am safe.
HELEN: Because what is causing me duress is that I feel unsafe. Iím full of fear, obviously.
ELIAS: It may be temporarily helpful for you to allow yourself the remembrance of this focus and the feeling of love and joy that is experienced in this focus, and in this remind yourself that you hold this now also.
HELEN: You had asked us to be aware of what we draw to us in our lives, and this man that I drew to me is very kind and loving and compassionate and wonderful. You know of whom I speak. And yet, I didnít connect with him, and Iím wondering if somehow thatís because I donít feel that I deserve all of that or if itís just a personality thing, ícause I had a problem with his personality being not what I quote/unquote think that I seek. But I guess this all doesnít matter ícause itís all outside of myself anyway, right?
ELIAS: Of course it shall not be measuring to what you seek and you shall be finding fault within this type of relationship, for your need is to be remembering this within yourself, not to be seeking this outside of yourself. At the moment that you rediscover this within yourself, you may enter into a relationship with another individual and you shall not find fault with it. But as you do not trust yourself and you hold such great duplicity, you also may not find this happiness, so to speak, in seeking out these experiences.
HELEN: It was the most painful itís ever been this time. It sent me into a very bad depression. I felt as though I was betraying myself. Every step of the way, I was betraying. There was a voice inside me screaming that this was not what I needed, this was not what I wanted, this is not going to do it. Yet, I continued on.
ELIAS: And this be what I have expressed to you previously. Be noticing what you draw to yourself, and what you express to yourself in this drawing.
HELEN: But heís a kind, loving person!
ELIAS: (Softly) It matters not.
HELEN: It doesnít matter because itís outside of myself, is what youíre saying?
ELIAS: You are not listening to your OWN voice, to your OWN intuition, which as you have stated is shrieking at you, and you are NOT listening. And then you hold wonderment of why you are creating of such conflict!
HELEN: I know!
ELIAS: I am aware that you know.
HELEN: I ended this thing yesterday, and I felt a complete freedom.
ELIAS: So, what have you told yourself?
HELEN: In regards to that situation? That thatís not what I need! That that is not what I am quote/unquote looking for.
ELIAS: Correct. LISTEN to this.
HELEN: And neither is the job. (Pause)
So, you obviously felt the depression and the desperation and you were worried about me ... not that you worry! (To David and Vic) He doesnít worry! (Elias chuckles) Iím deeply touched.
ELIAS: I hold a great affection for this essence that you possess, as I hold a great affection for Michael, and at times have intervened to offer helpfulness; although it is your choice, as it is his choice, as to whether you are accepting of this helpfulness or not, and I am accepting of this. But within your present binding of yourself, I extend to you what you may not extend to yourself, in the anticipation that you may accept this temporarily until you find the moment that you may offer this to yourself. Therefore, be not only accepting of what I have offered already until you may find yourself, but also, until you can be accepting of the passion and the joyfulness that you hold within yourself, allow me to offer mine to you. (Staring at Helen)
HELEN: In this other focus that we have together?
ELIAS: In this present now. (Pause) And this may be, if you are allowing, helpful to you. My energy surrounds you always.
HELEN: And I can count on that?
HELEN: Then I will.
ELIAS: You shall accept?
HELEN: I accept. (Elias dramatically drops his head to his chest)
HELEN: David, did you want to ask anything?
ELIAS: This is offered to you, and Mylo may inquire at another time. The energy is presented to you.
HELEN: Thank you.
ELIAS: You are very welcome. Do you require else from me this day?
HELEN: I would say that youíve given me everything that I need.
ELIAS: REMEMBER, and I shall be with you. Allow yourself to feel this energy as a blanket around you, and it shall hold you until you may hold yourself.
HELEN: Thank you.
ELIAS: You are very welcome. I extend great affection to you. (Smiling) I remember! (Pause)
Then I shall bid you Alba gu bra -- Scotland forever!
HELEN: Thatís what that means? Alba gu bra means Scotland forever?
ELIAS: Alba gu bra. (Correcting pronunciation) (1)
HELEN: Alba gu bra.
HELEN: What language is that?
HELEN: Thank you, Elias.
ELIAS: You are very welcome. I extend my lovingness to you this day.
HELEN: I love you.
ELIAS: Au revoir!
Elias departs at 12:50 PM.
(1) Eliasí pronunciation of ďAlba gu braĒ sounded like ďarma copra.Ē Ron and I did a lot of research in an attempt to find the correct spelling. Ron spent hours on the web, and I called various libraries. I also contacted the United Scottish Society of Southern California, but the man I spoke to wasnít aware of this phrase. His final comment to me was, ďMaybe you should watch Brave Heart.Ē So, we did. This phrase is used once in this movie, but we still didnít know the spelling. David finally suggested that we read the script of Brave Heart, which we did, and voila! Once we knew the correct spelling, we were able to find the words in a Scottish/Gaelic dictionary. Following is the paragraph in which this phrase is used:
William: Aye, fight and you may die, run and youíll live. At least a while. And dying in your beds many years from now, would you be willing to trade all the days from this day to that for one chance, just one chance, to come back here and tell our enemies that they may take our lives, but theyíll never take our freedom? Alba gu bra! (Scotland forever!) (The Scots cheer ďAlba gu braĒ repeatedly)
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