Tuesday, February 08, 2000
ďFear/The Aspect of ControlĒ
ďPhysical Elements Matter NotĒ
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Lynda (Ruther).
Elias arrives at 12:51 PM. (Arrival time is 20 seconds.)
ELIAS: Good morning!
LYNDA: Wow. Good morning! Boy, this has been the most intense two-and-a-half weeks Iíve maybe ever spent. Can I talk to you about it?
ELIAS: You may.
LYNDA: Okay. Okie dokie. The last time we spoke, you talked to me a lot about experiences and being wary of moving in the direction of making them absolute, especially in regard to past experiences I have had, and I have been doing a lot of assimilating of that information, I feel, in ways I donít even know I can objectively express to you. But I feel that I am wanting to tell you about a couple of things I spontaneously did, and some interaction I had with a future focus of mine, Jasper, and how I reacted to that, and you can tell me if Iím on the identifying trail, okay?
ELIAS: Very well.
LYNDA: Okay. Every time I talk to you, Elias, you talk to me about the choices I have and how I have limited my choices, and it has, as Iíve told you, amazed me, because whenever something like a feeling, like when I connected with Jasper in this dialog, it was so fun, it was so free, it was so much in the feeling that I call acceptance of myself, and also, of course, the peripheral information I was getting from that other dimension. But what I did was, I immediately turned around and reached out to a couple of people, and they sort of bit my hand off, because what I think I did with that is, first of all, I didnít trust what happened with Jasper in the same way I didnít trust what happened in my lucid dream with you. I went from the safety of that feeling, and I moved to my past experiences with other people, where I wanted their approval and I wanted them to know, ďNow I am safe, and I can interact with you and prove to you that I am not an insecure, nephilim spirit from hell.Ē Thatís sort of a dramatic way of saying what I did. The really good thing and the really fun thing about it is that I am detached from the automatic condemnation thing, and I want you to tell me what the hell happened this last two-and-a-half weeks in that regard, because I feel like Iím touching something that Iíve never allowed myself to touch before, especially in trying to prove myself to other people specifically.
Also, I honestly do feel Jasper is trying to get ahold of me, and I am wanting to be open to that communication because it is opening up a world of understanding that is very special to me, in bridging my subjective and right now objective reality. (Breathing deeply)
Okie dokie, dad! (Laughing) Is that okay?
ELIAS: Identify to myself wherein lies your confusion, in singularity and in clarity.
LYNDA: Thatís what I just did, youíre saying?
ELIAS: I am expressing to you presently that you identify now, in clarity, your direction of confusion, for what you have offered in this explanation is a scattering of energy in many directions.
Therefore, I am expressing to you to be focusing your attention in this now and expressing to me an identification of what you hold in your perception as the most affecting element of confusion that you are requesting clarity for.
LYNDA: Well said. I think itís lack of trust of me, which is duplicity. I think itís a strong element of control, and I think, bottom line, itís fear of this intimacy which is so wondrous, and being able to hold that.
ELIAS: Now; allow yourself to view how you yourself have offered the response to yourself, and you have accomplished this by focusing your attention in a particular direction, allowing yourself an element of clarity rather than moving randomly through your energy and expressing in a scattered manner, focusing briefly upon many different experiences and not upon what ties these experiences together. Are you understanding?
LYNDA: Yeah, I think Iím understanding that.
ELIAS: In this, you are correct in your assessment of what is occurring in your energy, and why you are presenting yourself with certain elements of imagery objectively, and why you are blocking some other elements of imagery and interaction.
Now; let me also contribute to your focusing upon this direction within your attention, and let me express to you to view this one element that you have identified as control, for allow yourself to recognize that as you express that one term, you also immediately and automatically associate this quite strongly in negativity.
ELIAS: You may look to the element of fear, and you may not necessarily identify this in a thrust of negativity, for there is an element within you that you allow to be nurturing of self in your identification of fear.
But in your identification of control, you automatically create a thrust of energy which is an expression in association with judgment and negativity.
As to this element of control, recognize that you express what YOU perceive to be control in response to fear and unfamiliarity. This is an element of protection, and although it may be Ė theoretically or conceptually, within your reality presently Ė unnecessary, it is expressed as an expression of self in response to the recognition of fear or hurtfulness. Therefore, in part, it is a turning of your attention to self.
The reason that I am expressing this to you is that you may allow yourself to turn your perception and allow yourself to view that this term of control may be perceived in a different manner. It is not an absolute either, and therefore, as not being an absolute, it is an expression that you create and may be perceived in different manners, not necessarily only in the identification of negative.
I am not encouraging you to move into an expression of perpetuating what you identify as control, for this is merely reinforcing an aspect of belief systems.
What I AM expressing to you is that this expression, as with any expression, may be perceived differently, and this allows you a greater expression of freedom.
Within your movement, at times it may be beneficial to you to be approaching subject matters in sections rather than the entirety of the subject matter. This would be an element of process, but as I have stated previously, process is merely an action that you create within physical focus. It is in itself neutral. It is not good or bad. It may be unnecessary, but it also is what you create, and it is a reality within your physical focus in how you accomplish your movements in many situations.
Therefore, in not placing a judgment upon the creation of process, you may look to your action in your process or your method of addressing to certain creations, certain actions, certain interactions, certain elements of your reality Ė as such, that of fear Ė and rather than overwhelm yourself with your attempt to be tackling, in a manner of speaking, this immense giant, it may be more efficient, within your reality, to be dismembering the giant in sections, to the point that it is no longer.
One of the elements of the giant is the aspect of control, and how you may begin approaching the aspect of control is that you allow yourself to recognize that it is not an absolute in association with negativity, and that in this, it is a construct of your perception, and that your perception is mobile.
Therefore, you may move your perception, and you may approach this particular aspect in a different angle of your perception, and you may allow yourself to view this aspect in a different manner.
In this, you may allow yourself to view the beneficial element of this aspect. This offers you the opportunity to view that there are more than one avenue of approaching each aspect of your beliefs, and each avenue that you approach through offers a difference in perception.
LYNDA: Would the term ďgetting a red flagĒ and allowing myself to look at the red flag before I take action have anything to do with what you just said?
ELIAS: Partially. Let me express to you also, this particular expression of what you identify asďred flagsĒ is quite common within your physical expressions in this particular dimension, and in this, many individuals identify what they perceive to be a warning as they allow themselves to be expressing this type of element of red flags.
You present this to yourself to offer yourself a stop point. This is not necessarily a warning. It is not necessarily an expression of your intuition, or of yourself speaking to yourself in the capacity of warning yourself against danger or wrong or harmfulness.
In actuality, what you are presenting to yourself in these types of expressions is merely a communication that you offer to yourself as a stop point, that you may allow yourself the freedom to evaluate and to recognize that you have approached an intersection, and that at that intersection, there are many different avenues that you may view from that point, and you need not be focusing upon merely one. But you are presenting yourself in that moment with the opportunity to view many different avenues, many different choices.
LYNDA: Can I interject something right here?
ELIAS: You may.
LYNDA: The feeling I experience that is familiar to me of essence is simply a place that I automatically reach in specific directions, and what Iím feeling youíre saying is, when I experience that and I get my point of experiencing that, the direction I go in that feeling is, there are more choices there.
LYNDA: Okay. Thatís what youíre saying, right?
ELIAS: Correct, and in this, that the familiar and automatic movement is being expressed to you.
You are offering yourself a stop point to be recognizing that you are moving in the direction of the familiar and automatic expressions, but that this is not absolute. You are not locked to this action.
LYNDA: Right. Okay, I get it, and that pretty much explains a lot of the activity that went on for me in this time since we last spoke. Can I, along these lines, look at those power surge type experiences that Iíve had within this time framework with you?
ELIAS: You may.
LYNDA: Okay. Because I have locked myself into a familiar pattern of fear for so long, I genuinely, Elias, donít ... okay, Iíll just say this. I donít feel like I have a frame of reference objectively, except Iím starting to feel it more in what I just discussed with you, in terms of feeling this acceptance.
I have taken that and had a power surge experience, and created a probability or an imagination in my mind of what I want to do with this feeling, and it is so far beyond and so extreme of what I am experiencing objectively now that I tweak myself out, and thatís what Iíve done a lot, and even more intensely during this time.
So what Iím hearing you say is, and youíve said this before and Iím hitting it from another angle, I think, is to be looking at what I do in creating these power surges as not making a comparison to the life Iím living now objectively, and the life objectively that I think I should or I want to be living. Do you understand what Iím saying?
LYNDA: Okay. So I think the power surges, in and of themselves, standing alone, are quite valid feelings that I am wanting to understand more so that I can channel them in a way that is not so extreme to me.
ELIAS: I am understanding.
Now; let me also offer this to you, that may allow you another element of clarity.
ELIAS: As you present yourself with these moments, as I have stated, you are not presenting yourself with an expression of warning. You are presenting to yourself an opportunity to be altering perception. This is a key point.
We speak many times of the direction of movement in the now, and the turning of perception and the turning of attention, and not looking futurely to be creating better.
Now; in this, let me offer to you that in the presentment of what you identify as a red flag or a power surge or an energy surge or however you choose to be expressing of your communications in their intensity with yourself, what you are offering to yourself is the opportunity in that moment to be altering your perception, not necessarily the physical actions.
LYNDA: Oh! Right. I get that.
ELIAS: Not the altering or the changing of the physical actions or the physical responses or the physical interactions or the physical situations or circumstances or objective imagery. These are physical elements, and these are NOT the elements of mattering. These are the elements that matter not.
In this, we return to the identification of the now and the turning of your perception Ė the acceptance of self Ė and how this action IS affecting of your reality and IS altering of your reality.
(Intently) For the objective, physical action matters not. The perception is the element of mattering, for the perception is that element that IS your reality. The physical aspects are NOT the reality. The PERCEPTION is the reality.
LYNDA: Wow. Thatís the elusive pimpernel of the point! (Laughing) That IS the point.
Therefore, in this, in the moment of the power surge, the energy surge, the red flags, remind yourself, you are not offering yourself a warning and you are not offering yourself the presentment of another avenue in physical action.
You may create that also, but this is not the point, for it matters not that you create a different action. You may create a difference in your reality regardless that the action remains the same, and the entirety of your reality shall alter regardless that the objective expression or imagery be the same, for your reality shall be different as your perception is altered.
LYNDA: Whew! You know, you have said that in many, many different ways to me, and each time you say it, I receive it and receive it and receive it, and this time the way youíre saying it makes a lot of sense to me, and that explains to me why Iíve had such a hell of a time staying in my now.
ELIAS: And this is, I shall express to you, quite common within physical focus, for your identification and your thought process moves in the direction of altering ...
ELIAS: ... your physical reality. You are attempting to be altering the imagery Ė yes, the circumstances, the situation, the physical elements of your reality Ė but you are not altering your perception.
LYNDA: Okay, and then I automatically think, well, that means my physical circumstances will not ever change, and because I perceive them as being bad, I distract myself and go off in that direction. Do you understand what I mean?
LYNDA: Okay, and so this ties back into what it always ties back into, which is leaning back into me and trusting myself.
LYNDA: And thank you for saying that to me a million different ways, and I am hearing it again in this way.
ELIAS: I shall express to you, many times an individual within your reality shall alter the physical imagery and expressions of their reality in the action of altering the perception. But as I have stated, this element matters not, for the reality itself shall be altered, regardless of the physical imagery, once the perception is altered.
LYNDA: Whew. Itís putting the cart before the horse, right?
ELIAS: In a manner of speaking....
LYNDA: Those are my terms for what youíre saying. Itís putting the cart before the horse, because location, location, location. Well, itís a very strong mass belief that physical location is everything, including San Francisco. I know Iím not going to San Francisco ... not that Iím not going to San Francisco. I donít WANT to go to San Francisco. I donít want to do nothing! What I want to do is lean into my perception and rest in that, and allow me to trust me.
ELIAS: And THIS shall be profoundly affecting and altering of your reality.
LYNDA: God, youíre so concise and deep. I just love talking to you when I finally relax and listen! (Elias chuckles)
That whole Jasper thing is funny. That Jasper thing was real, right?
LYNDA: And my whole dialog touched on bridging the gap between time zones in a very real way, right?
ELIAS: There is no gap.
LYNDA: Yeah, right, because there is no gap. I knew that! (Elias chuckles) Yeah, you couldíve fooled me! (Laughing) But the point is, I guess Iím coming into the knowing that there is no gap. Itís really a fun trip to me, Elias. Do you know what I mean?
ELIAS: Quite. In this, allow yourself the recognition that these are not separate entities. There is no gap within what you identify as time. It Ė once again Ė is a construct of perception.
LYNDA: Wow. Well, to be honest with you, Iíd rather hang with Jasper than a lot of guys I know! (Laughing, and Elias chuckles) Youíre understanding what I mean, right?
LYNDA: Can I ask, is he Zuli aligned? (Pause)
LYNDA: Oh. You understand why I say that, because of the Zuli aligned guys I have drawn myself to that I have consistently allowed to mirror my own belief system thing with image and liking myself, and I guess what I confuse that with is, this guy is physically very ... heís beautiful-looking physically. I kept thinking, maybe this is how Zulis are supposed to be, and I just havenít bumped into any.
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha!
LYNDA: I mean, do you understand why I went in that direction?
LYNDA: I donít think itís bad. I just think itís very much affected by the mass belief of sexuality, right?
ELIAS: Quite, and also, within what you perceive to be your time framework and your reality en masse, you place much more of an emphasis upon judgment of physical expression than do the focuses which are manifest in what you perceive to be futurely.
LYNDA: Because of where the shift has shifted, right?
ELIAS: Correct. There is not an expression of attention in the direction of physical form, and therefore, there is an allowance for the natural choice and manifestation, in the expression of its purity.
LYNDA: Whew. Big word Ė purity Ė in the religious world. Big, big, misunderstood word. (Elias chuckles) Huge. Whew. Do you understand what I mean about that?
LYNDA: God, I love talking to you! Okay. Well, this certainly validates a lot of me to me today, and I will continue on ... and will you say hi to Jasper for me? (Cracking up)
ELIAS: I shall leave this action to you! (Chuckling)
LYNDA: This is so fascinating. I love this! I know why I love this Ė I was born for this! This is my intent; not my destiny, although I may just create it as such physically. (Elias chuckles) Do you know what I mean by that?
ELIAS: Quite, and you are quite correct! (Chuckling)
LYNDA: Yeah, and I love it! May I ask you a couple more questions Ė then I have to go back to my chores and my job Ė which are questions youíve already answered, but can I ask you a couple of questions?
ELIAS: You may.
LYNDA: Is Millie intermediate? (Brief pause)
LYNDA: Whatís Millie? (Brief pause)
LYNDA: So, it is her intense alignment with fear and her beliefs, and because she also doesnít give a shit what anybody thinks of her because sheís transitioning into leaving physical focus, that she is like she is?
ELIAS: There are many....
LYNDA: Contributing things there?
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct, but this is not the expression of orientation.
LYNDA: Okay. You know, frankly I kept thinking underneath that she was intermediate because everything is so immediate in her life, like worrying about when sheís going to go to the bathroom, what her next meal is going to be, and the fear of ... you know, all the fears that she goes through. I understand why I thought she was intermediate, but I honestly didnít feel like she was, so that validates what I was thinking about her.
And the whole thing Ė you know, sheís in diapers, and I change her bedpan, and sheís very much like a baby, only itís not fun to see Millie as a baby because sheís 90 years old, and it is dehumanizing, in her eyes, and yet I conceptualize that sheís chosen this, Elias, but itís very hard to observe it because I feel ... hereís what it is: I feel helpless to change it. Which Iím saying that to you as an identification of the whole wave of my generation thatís facing this thing, and I am just going to continue on and observe it. Do you understand what Iím saying? Itís very sad to me, and I donít want to make those choices. The whole dynamic between ... are Lee and Susan also common?
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.
LYNDA: Okay, so Iím understanding that too. Will you comment or do you want to comment on what I just said?
ELIAS: I shall comment in relation to your assessment of this situation in its entirety of its expressions, and how they interplay with each other, and all of the players that involve themselves.
In this, there is a tremendous expression of alignment with mass belief systems which is very influencing of all of your perceptions, and this be the reason that you all move quite similarly in the expression of judgment of sadness and unfortunate, and that you wish to be creating helpfulness to yourselves and to each other.
But I shall express to you once again, this offers you the opportunity to be altering your perception and widening your awareness.
I am not expressing to you that you shall not be expressing what you term to be caring or even compassion in this situation, but not the judgment that is being expressed presently by any of the players.
ELIAS: You, as the player that you are, may be choosing to be viewing this situation and altering your perception, recognizing that there is no dehumanization, for how shall you be dehumanizing yourself or any other individual? This is to be creating the action of making yourself less human. How may you be less human?
LYNDA: Talk about mirror, mirror, on the wall! Iím saying that, and I donít even feel that condemned! (Laughing) Wow. Whew!
Itís true, Elias, what youíre saying. I have drawn this to myself, and that would explain the rage and frustration I went through in wanting to run out of here and not having the knowing or the way to do it, and this ties back into what you were saying before, right?
LYNDA: Well, back to the now! (Elias chuckles) On to the now and back to the now! Wow. Another thing it shows me is how I observe my own interaction with them, and delude myself into thinking I am the more spiritually evolved, and judging them, and then automatically placing a good judgment on myself, and Iím just saying that because thatís what Iím doing, and yet Iím also aware at the same time that I am choosing to widen, and Iím quite aware of the extreme differences even in the four of usí perception, which is definitely valid. Do you know what I mean?
ELIAS: Quite. Now; I shall offer you one final statement that you may ponder.
ELIAS: Widening of awareness is not the creation of comparison.
LYNDA: Right. (Laughing) Well, Iíll just be pondering that puppy until we speak again!
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha!
LYNDA: Busted, busted, busted! What a world. Onward and sideways!
ELIAS: Very good! (Chuckling)
LYNDA: I love you very much, and we will speak again.
ELIAS: Very well, and we shall! I shall continue to be expressing energy in encouragement to you, and we shall continue in this sojourn of discovery.
LYNDA: Thank you. I look forward to it, as always.
ELIAS: As always! (Chuckling) To you....
LYNDA: Alright, my friend. I love you and Iíll let you go, although I donít intend to ever let you go, in a manner of speaking.
ELIAS: In acknowledgment and in affection to you, au revoir.
LYNDA: Au revoir, my friend.
Elias departs at 1:41 PM.
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