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Sunday, January 18, 2004

<  Session 1497 (Private)  >


Participants: Mary (Michael) and Keith (Allistar).

(Eliasí arrival time is 25 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning.

KEITH: Morning.

ELIAS: (Chuckles) And what shall we be discussing this morning?

KEITH: I wondered if you could tell me how many focuses I have, my essence?

ELIAS: In this physical dimension?

KEITH: Well, anything I would have access to.

ELIAS: In this physical dimension, I may offer you a number. But in clarification as we are participating in this particular discussion, I shall express to you that the number fluctuates; it is not an absolute. But I may express to you in this time framework presently, within this physical dimension, past and future focuses included, you incorporate 627 focuses of physical manifestations. In this present time framework, you incorporate five.

KEITH: Now that just confused me. I kind of understand how they might fluctuate, but first you said six hundred and something. What did that refer to, if itís not this present time framework? Oh, you mean past and future Ė I see what youíre saying. Like right now, in the year 2004, thereís four others Ė or five others?

ELIAS: Yes, four others.

KEITH: Okay, I got it. And talking about other focuses, like ďdo I have a focus as the Queen of ShebaĒ and then you might say ďcorrect,Ē is it sometimes that at the moment that we ask weíve actually generated it, or the moment we think it weíve generated it? Or is it really a remembering of something that has been there for, I donít know, a long time? I donít know how to put that because I donít understand time.

ELIAS: I am understanding what you are expressing. It is dependent upon the individual and what action they are incorporating in the moment. The individual may be tapping into another focus that is a focus of their essence and has continued to be a focus of their essence. The individual may be tapping into what we term to be an observing essence action, which is in actuality not different from a directing essence focus. Or the individual may be incorporating another focus, adding or subtracting in your terms, to their focuses.

Now; in that action, an essence may be moving into a position of observing essence of any focus in any time framework in any moment, which would increase the numbering of focuses and would be a valid impression that the individual incorporates that manifestation as a focus of themselves, for what occurs is a mergence of essences. Therefore, in that mergence, each essence chooses which physical manifestations they wish to be observing of and incorporating that experience to themselves as essence in that physical exploration of that particular manifestation.

The key in all of these actions is the focus itself, for the focus directs itself. It incorporates its own free will, its own choices. Neither essence, whether observing or directing, is controlling or directing of the choices or the direction of the focus.

KEITH: So the focus could jump to another essence if it wanted to?


KEITH: Don wondered if Steve Richmond, Bukowskiís friend Steve Richmond, is Allistarís focus?


KEITH: I donít believe it. Iím skeptical. I donít know why Iím so skeptical about so many things, while at the core I believe all of this stuff. Itís something to do with my focus wanting to be really isolated from any remembering, to explore things isolated or something.

ELIAS: Perhaps.

KEITH: I have this question about that I find that Iím antisocial Ė just to put a label on it, the judgment that I have of myself Ė and that I always want to get something out of a relationship. It seems like I want a woman to be attractive and I want the people that Iím with to be generous or to be intelligent. Iím always afraid people are judging me and I judge the heck out of other people. I think a lot of thatís defensive, but Iím not sure. Maybe I judge them before they judge me.

My questionís kind of about that maybe Iím asking for some coaching from you, if you know what that means. Itís like Iím just spinning my wheels over here in America. Iíve talked to you before about when I go to Indonesia that I feel a lot more freedom, but when Iím here Iím so kind of confined by all this judgment that I have and the way I configure peopleís energy.

Last night I went to the Elias gathering in one of the hotel rooms, and the way I showed up was I was listening to everybody else as if they just hated me or something. Either that or they were boring me. I left feeling really lonely and angry and rejected, and wanting to make them wrong for not appreciating me.

Iím pretty clear that Iím the one thatís creating this, and yet why do I keep choosing to do that? Why is it so hard for me to be generous and loving with people and accept people the way they are, without expecting the beautiful women to come after me? I canít be satisfied being in a room with beautiful women that donít pay any attention to me. But when I try to talk to them, I configure their energy as upset or irritated that I am hitting on them, like sexually trying to get them into bed or something. Then again, that is my agenda; but is there anything wrong with that?

So Iím just one confused puppy when it comes to living in America. (Elias chuckles) Iíve been doing it for 46 years, so Iíd like some coaching. So, Iím gonna shut up now.

ELIAS: Very well. (Chuckles) Incorporating some strongly expressed beliefs! One quite strongly expressed belief that you incorporate is an assessment of yourself in comparison to other individuals, and in that assessment, your belief is that you are a particular type of individual. You incorporate a persona of yourself and you expect other individuals to be the same.

In this, what you incorporate as a strongly expressed belief is that other individuals are less than yourself in many different capacities: that they are less intelligent, that they are less enlightened, that they are less aware, that they are less attentive, less observant, and that you incorporate more of an intelligence than most individuals. Therefore, they do not meet your standards.

Now; if they do not meet your standards, they are inadequate. Even if they may be beautiful, they are not adequate in other expressions than attractiveness physically, for they do not meet your standards. These are the standards that you hold with yourself. Therefore, that becomes generated into an expectation of other individuals.

As we incorporated discussion yesterday, this is a tremendous challenge in many different capacities for many, many, many individuals throughout your world within this time framework especially, but not confined to this time framework. It may merely be more emphasized or more obvious in this time framework, but it has not merely begun now. It has been occurring for centuries, in which individuals compare themselves with other individuals.

Now; it is a natural action to seek out like kind, so to speak. But the snare is that the attraction to like becomes an absolute, a truth, and thusly differences become unacceptable and you narrow your allowance of your interactions, and that grows. It continues to perpetuate. For the more that you express these expectations of other individuals, the more you reinforce your truth and the stronger it becomes, and the more you narrow your allowance for your interactions.

That may become confusing also, for the automatic response in conjunction with this information is to turn in the reverse manner of what previously may have been familiar. Rather than blaming other individuals for what you lack, you blame yourself, you discount yourself, and you express that you are incorporating wrong action.

What is significant in these type of expressions is not merely to be precisely identifying the belief that is expressing these influences in relation to your behavior and your perception, but to recognize what type of energy you are expressing outwardly. Remember, you create what you concentrate upon, and concentration is not thought. It can be, but generally it is not. It is your attention to expressed beliefs.

Now; in an expressed belief that other individuals do not incorporate the same awareness as you or the same intelligence as you or the same passion as you, you generate this automatic expectation. The energy that you are projecting outward in that expectation is an automatic assumption that you cannot connect with another individual. You turn the expectation outward to the other individuals and you perceive that they are expecting of you. In actuality, you are generating the expectation and they are responding. Energy is a much more efficient avenue of communication than any other language, and in this, it is immediately perceived.

You may express to myself or to another individual that you enter a room, as in your scenario of your experience yesterday, and that your action is that you are merely observing and listening. Therefore, you may justify yourself that you are not engaging any obtrusive action; you are merely observing and listening. But the energy that you are projecting is not the same. That is the camouflage; that is the excuse.

The energy that you are projecting is a shield, for there is a fear of exposure. If you actually engage other individuals, you must expose. Let me express to you, exposure is almost a prerequisite for receiving. For if you do not expose, you shield. And if you shield, you cannot receive, for you block your own reception.

Now; in your expression of entering the room and placing yourself physically amongst other individuals but not actually genuinely participating, you are camouflaging with your shield and justifying yourself, but you are not allowing the receiving. Individuals immediately recognize. They may not necessarily translate into thought what they are doing or what they are receiving, but they know and they may feel. They may offer themselves enough awareness to feel the energy that is being projected, and they automatically respond also.

You all generate automatic responses to energy expressions, and many, many, many times you do not incorporate any thought concerning what you are doing; you merely automatically respond. And you respond in a more genuine and accurate manner, for you are responding to the individualís energy, not other languages, not what they do physically, not what they express in words, but what they are projecting in energy, and you all receive that and recognize it.

As you project an energy of shielding and isolate and refuse to express that openness of exposure and allow the receiving, the other individuals respond in reflection of that. Therefore, you assess their behavior is that they do not like you or they are unconcerned with you, or that they move in other circles of conversation and ignore you, or that they do not appreciate you. What shall they appreciate? They are being offered nothing.

KEITH: My shield. They could say, ďWhat a nice shield you have.Ē

ELIAS: And perhaps if an individual is aware enough and is paying attention enough to your energy, they may express that to you. Generally speaking, most individuals, unless they offer themselves a reason, do not necessarily incorporate the effort to be paying attention to your expression of energy if it is shielded.

Now; this is dependent upon the situation, the interaction, and also it is quite dependent upon you. For you may be shielding, and if what you are creating is that shield and that reluctance to be offering any exposure, what you are creating is a reflection of that. Therefore, why would an individual approach you and express, ďNice shieldingĒ?

KEITH: Oh, you know Iím kidding about that.

ELIAS: I am quite aware. I am offering a point. (Chuckles)

Now; in certain situations you may encounter an individual that may express some recognition of that. Whether they actually offer a verbal confirmation to you or not is dependent upon whether you allow that or not. For even if another individual in your terms sees or recognizes your shield and your holding to your energy, they may express verbally to you a recognition of it, and in your perception, you may not hear it.

As to your want of relationship or interaction with a female individual, what you want is not wrong. If you want to be coupling with another individual merely to engage sexual activity, this is not wrong and it is not bad. But there are many beliefs concerning that, and you project expectation that other individuals automatically incorporate an expressed belief that that is bad.

KEITH: So they configure my energy, my expectation? They see that as bad and...

ELIAS: They configure your energy almost precisely in the manner that you project it. For...

KEITH: ...then they have belief systems that thatís bad.

ELIAS: They are responding to your expression. YOU incorporate the belief that that is bad, for it is shallow. It is not; it is merely a choice and an action. But that, once again, does not meet your expectations and your standards of yourself and therefore also of other individuals, that if you are incorporating sexual activity without the committed relationship, which are all tangles of beliefs, that this is a shallow expression and not to your standards. Therefore, that is what you reflect to yourself.

As you begin to recognize these beliefs that you have generated into absolutes, these truths, and evaluate them and offer yourself the recognition that they are not actually true, you may offer yourself choices and that your value does not lie in whether you are what you term to be a deep or a shallow individual. Every individual incorporates choices and actions that you assess as deep or shallow, and what is that? They are judgments of your standards.

KEITH: I have two quick questions for Sandy/Allesander, then Iíll leave it at that. I think Melody gave him two focus impressions. Is Harry Houdini a focus of his?

ELIAS: Observing.

KEITH: How about Gustav Holtz, the composer of ďThe PlanetsĒ?


KEITH: I definitely got a lot from what you said. Thank you. (Elias chuckles) Iím done. I feel that the analysis that you gave me is something I already know, but on the other hand it felt really good having you sort of sum it all up. The advice about how I hold my energy is something that I want to try to work on, but Iím not sure how to work on that other than try to expose my energy, expose my shield.

ELIAS: I am aware that that may be quite challenging and even difficult. In this, I offer the suggestion that you not overwhelm yourself, but in increments allow yourself to incorporate steps, so to speak, in which you may allow yourself in one moment to dare to engage and to be aware of how your energy is being expressed, and incorporate the action as a game, not in such a serious expression. For as you view it to be so very serious, it becomes dire and that reinforces the difficulty. But if you are experimenting in playfulness, you may offer yourself more of an ease and less difficulty.

KEITH: Got it. Thank you.

ELIAS: Very well! I express my encouragement and my supportiveness to you. And as always, I continue to offer my energy to you continuously. In tremendous affection and great fondness, au revoir.


Elias departs after 1 hour, 7 minutes. (Portions of this session omitted by request.)

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