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Thursday, August 30, 2001

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“Conflict and Blocks in Movement into Intimacy”

Participants: Mary (Michael) and a new participant, Paul (Ottell).

Elias arrives at 10:15 AM. (Arrival time is 32 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning!

PAUL: Good morning. It’s good to hear your voice. (Elias chuckles) Are you ready for some questions?

ELIAS: Quite!

PAUL: My first question is, have I received this information subjectively already?


PAUL: My next question is, what is my essence name, my essence family, alignment, my orientation and focus, and also for my friend, Melanie? (Pause)

ELIAS: Essence name, Ottell, O-T-T-E-L-L (oh TELL). Essence family, Sumafi; alignment, Gramada; orientation, common; focus type, political.

Other individual: essence name, Teema, T-E-E-M-A (TEE mah). Essence family, Tumold; alignment, Sumari; orientation, common; focus type, emotional.

PAUL: My next question is, what is my focus color, my essence color, and also for Melanie?

ELIAS: And your impression?

PAUL: I think it’s kind of like a bluish purple color, my focus color.

ELIAS: And your impression of your signature color?

PAUL: I think it may be yellow. (Pause)

ELIAS: Color identified with focus, indigo; color associated with essence as signature color, pumpkin.

PAUL: Pumpkin! (Pause)

ELIAS: Focus color of your friend, pink; signature color, sienna.

PAUL: What was that color again?

ELIAS: Sienna.

PAUL: Also, could you comment on what my intent is in this focus?

ELIAS: What is your identification of your intent?

PAUL: It seems that I’ve spent most of my life studying myself and my beliefs, and why I am where I am, and why things happen the way they happen. It seems like I’ve spent most of my life doing that, and noticing other people’s reactions to different things that happen.

ELIAS: Now; in recognizing that type of movement, allow yourself to identify the manner in which you express this particular exploration, and this shall offer you the identification of your intent.

You are correct in your identification of the theme, so to speak, of this particular focus, but the actual identification of your intent is expressed in the manner in which you have chosen to be executing this exploration in your individual focus. Shall you attempt an identification of how you engage this exploration of self? (20-second pause)

PAUL: My next question is, to help me understand my relationship with Melanie, could you briefly tell me Melanie’s intent in this focus?

ELIAS: (Laughs) I shall express to you, my friend, as I express to other individuals, the identification of intent of any individual within this physical dimension is an action that holds significance and importance for the individual to recognize. For in allowing yourselves to identify certain aspects of yourself or your movements and to recognize your experiences allows you objectively a clearer understanding of how you create your reality and offers you greater understanding in explanation to yourselves of what you create and how you choose to move within your individual focuses. Therefore, it is significant that you allow yourselves to be attempting to identify these types of movements yourself, first.

Now; in this, I have posed the question to you, in this discussion, to attempt to identify within yourself what YOUR individual intent is, and you have moved from that question to inquiring of your friend, and you have not responded to the question concerning yourself yet.

PAUL: Okay, I see.

All right, my next question is, I have three cats that died recently. Do you have some information on this that you could share with me?

ELIAS: One moment. (Pause) Very well. I may offer to you, you have chosen to draw to yourself these creatures which you have allowed yourself an interaction with to offer to yourself imagery that has offered information to you concerning self and your movement. For, in agreement with these creatures, they have individually offered different expressions of reflections to you in relation to what you have created within your focus.

Now; each of these creatures, in alignment with your movement, has chosen to be disengaging, in alignment with your exploration within self of transition and movement from one area or expression of consciousness to another. In this, the disengagement of these creatures has been expressed to draw your attention to this particular subject matter that you term to be death, which in actuality is merely a movement from one expression of consciousness to another expression of consciousness. This has been offered to you in the recognition of your exploration of this particular subject matter.

Now; this is not to say that you may be occupying your thought process with the subject matter of death per se, but in alignment with your intent in this focus, this is another aspect of your curiosity and exploration: the exploration of self, and choices and what you create in the choice to be moving into transition within physical focus, which two of these creatures displayed prior to disengagement – behavior that mirrors transition. Although the creatures themselves do not engage transition – for they do not align with or express belief systems as do you; therefore it is unnecessary to be creating an action such as transition – but they mirror some behaviors that are expressed by individuals engaging transition.

All three of these creatures have chosen to be moving into emergence – which is what you term to be death or disengagement from this physical focus – as an example of movement from one area of consciousness to another, that allows you to turn your attention objectively to this subject matter.

This is not an omen and is not a sign that YOU are entertaining the choice of disengaging. It is merely an offering of choice exacted by these creatures to draw your attention objectively to a direction of exploration that you are already engaging but not necessarily noticing in clarity. Are you understanding?

PAUL: Yes, I do understand. I am understanding it.

My next question is, could you give me some information about color blindness, because I’m what is considered colorblind. Do you have some information you could share with me on that?

ELIAS: I may express to you, within your physical expression [it is] your choice to be creating this particular expression; but I may also say to you, each individual that creates this type of manifestation or this choice may be creating this action for individual reasons, so to speak. Therefore, what I express to you may not necessarily be an identification of what another individual is creating in a similar manifestation. In your individual focus, you have chosen to be creating this expression purposefully in a lack of distraction.

Now; in this, it may initially appear to you conceptually that this type of expression would be inconsistent with the qualities of your essence family, being Sumafi, which holds great attention to detail and lack of distortion. But another expression of the Sumafi family is repetition in a manner which allows individuals to not concern themselves with certain details, which shall allow for greater exploration and concentration upon other details.

Now; in your particular expression physically you have chosen to be creating your physical outer sense of vision with less distraction of color. In this, you blend the colors within your vision to not offer yourself the distraction of many precise colors. This allows you less distraction in actual identification of individual colors, therefore allowing you to blend many colors and view them as the same, and not concern yourself with the details of this particular viewing or visual quality in your individual focus.

The actual color of a thing, so to speak, is less significant in your individual focus than the thing itself. Are you understanding?

PAUL: Yes, I am; I understand perfectly. That helped me a lot. I really appreciate that.

My next question: I seem to have had trouble with intimate personal relationships, and I would like you to help me explore my beliefs about creating intimate relationships. Could you give me some help with that?

ELIAS: First of all, offer to myself an identification of the nature of your concern in creating intimacy in relationships. What do you view, yourself, as problematic, in your terms?

PAUL: Well, I’ve always had a strong will and I’ve always liked to do most things by myself, and I think that that probably has a lot to do with an intimate personal relationship.

ELIAS: Now; I shall identify to you individually two expressions that you consistently express in relation to other individuals which creates conflict in movement into intimacy. One is directly associated with your orientation.

In the expression of your orientation, you naturally create outwardly; your attention naturally projects outwardly. In this, you couple your beliefs with the natural expression of your orientation, and what you express in relation to other individuals is an action of projecting your attention to the other individual in a manner in which you concern yourself with the actions and choices and behaviors and expressions of the other individual, at times more so than you allow yourself to pay attention to self.

Now; many individuals express a very similar type of action, but within YOUR individual focus, this action becomes conflicting, for underlyingly you create an action of continuous comparison of the other individual’s choices and actions with your choices, and therefore there is an automatic expression of judgment concerning the other individual’s movement. Subsequent to this action, you create another action of attempting to alter the other individual’s choices or expressions, and this creates conflict, and this also creates blocks.

PAUL: And creates what?

ELIAS: Blocks. For as your attention is held outwardly and you are concerning yourself with the choices of the other individual, you are not paying attention to your choices, and you occupy your movement and your expression in attempting to alter the other individual’s choices – which is futile, for you may not alter other individuals’ choices, for you do not create another individual’s reality. And as you continue to be expressing this direction, you are not paying attention to your own choices, and therefore you block many of your choices. You also distract your attention from self, and therefore you do not merely block your own choices but many times you deny your own choices, which creates frustration and conflict.

Now; the manner in which you may alter this direction is to be turning your attention to self, assessing within self what you genuinely want – not what you believe you are supposed to be creating (chuckles) – and as you offer to yourself the identification of what you genuinely want, you may also allow yourself permission to concentrate your attention in that direction and create that.

And let me express to you, my friend, quite definitely, it matters not what other individuals choose or what they express in behavior. What holds significance is YOUR perception and your choices, for other individuals do not dictate to you your reality UNLESS you allow that to be expressed.

PAUL: Well, I appreciate that. Thank you.

ELIAS: Bear in mind also, many times you engage a blocking action with other individuals, for you create a significant payoff within yourself. For at times you wish to be creating a relationship with another individual and creating an intimacy with another individual, but you also wish to be singular or expressing a direction that you want to engage regardless of the interest of the other individual. Therefore, you create expressions and behaviors, and express them outwardly to the other individual, to intentionally block certain expressions. Therefore, you associate within yourself that the other individual shall not be expressing expectations of you, and therefore you create your payoff.

PAUL: I understand.

About myself and Melanie, it seems that we have been connected in other focuses. Could you tell me what types of relationships we had, and possibly where and when, if so?

ELIAS: I may express to you, yes, you have engaged other focuses together. I may also express to you that you have engaged relationships in friendships, you have engaged romantic relationships, and you have also created relationships together as siblings.

Now; I may express to you the challenge to allow yourself to be investigating these other focuses, for you hold the ability to tap into these focuses quite easily.

PAUL: Thank you. I will explore that.

ELIAS: Very well!

PAUL: I have another question. Would it be of benefit to myself and to Melanie to continue our relationship now in exploring this focus together and also with the shift in consciousness?

ELIAS: Yes, in your choices and in your present direction.

I am not offering you a crystal ball answer. I am expressing a response in relation to the energy that you are projecting presently and your desire and your direction presently.

I may express to you, in this present time framework you have chosen to be moving in relation to this shift in consciousness and exploring more of self. You are moving into an expression of creating an intimacy with self, [and] you are also choosing to be reflecting your movement in the intimate relationship with self through the reflection of relationship with this individual. In a manner of speaking, you are moving into the probabilities of creating this relationship with self and engaging the outward relationship with this individual as a gauge, so to speak, of your movement within self. This also moves quite in alignment with your orientation. For in the expression of the common orientation, you create movement within self and you offer yourself clarity concerning your movement within self by projecting outwardly and offering yourself objective imagery that reflects what you are creating within self.

Therefore, as you continue to turn your attention to self – which I may express to you, my friend, in this present now may be quite a challenge (chuckles), for you are quite accustomed to projecting your attention outwardly and holding your attention upon the other individual – but as you turn your attention to self and allow yourself to be creating more of a relationship with self and you begin expressing an intimacy with self, you shall be projecting that movement in the reflection of objective imagery, and you have chosen to be engaging this individual as the focal point for the reflection.

PAUL: I see. Thank you very much.

ELIAS: You are quite welcome.

PAUL: I’d like to ask you, what is the number of focuses I have and how many hold similar tones to myself, and a hint about some that I can look into or explore?

ELIAS: Total numbering of focuses in this physical dimension, 903; those of similar tone, 82. (Pause) I shall offer a brief identification of two focuses that you may begin exploration with.

One, third century, physical location Japan; individual incorporates the gender of male and is a landowner. This individual incorporates many servants but is somewhat benevolent. This individual also concerns his attention greatly with self and a similar exploration of self and experience but, I may also express to you, incorporates similar challenges in expressing intimacy in relationships, which are quite influenced by the individual’s beliefs. This particular focus may be beneficial to be exploring, for there are many similarities in the beliefs, the movements, and the challenges that are expressed in your focus.

You may also allow yourself, if so choosing, to be investigating of a focus within the physical location of Prussia, late 1600s. You participate in this focus with this individual that you engage presently. In that focus, your relationship may be identified as friends, both female. There is expressed an intimacy in this friendship. Both individuals are peasants but what you identify within your physical dimension as well schooled. This relationship continues throughout the entirety of each of your focuses.

You may be allowing yourself exploration of these two focuses within dream state, or you may allow yourself to be expressing visualizations. In your individual focus, it is unnecessary to be engaging actual meditation, for you may allow yourself to be offering yourself information merely in objective visualization. Your ability to be tapping into other focuses, as I have stated in this conversation, is in actuality quite keen, and this action shall be easily expressed.

Your most difficult challenge, my friend, is allowing yourself to accept what you offer to yourself in visualizations, for you discount yourself, do you not?

PAUL: Yes, I do. I do discount myself, but I think I’m doing it less and less. (Both laugh) As I go through time and study the material and study myself, I think I’m allowing myself to accept myself more and my beliefs more, and I’m trying to judge less and observe more.

ELIAS: Ah, I am understanding. But you continue to offer yourself impressions and information that you discount and you identify as merely your imagination. Do not be so quick to dismiss what you assess as imagination.

PAUL: Okay, I’ll try doing that. I’ll try to let the experience of my imagination, I guess, flow to me.

ELIAS: Very well! (Chuckles)

PAUL: Well, our time is about up, Elias, and I have no more questions at this time.

ELIAS: Very well, my friend. I extend my invitation to be engaging conversation futurely.

PAUL: I appreciate your help, and it’s been very nice talking with you.

ELIAS: I offer to you great affection, my friend, and anticipate our next meeting. To you, in encouragement in your challenge of your new exploration of creating intimacy with self, I offer to you my energy to be helpful.

PAUL: Thank you very much, and I’m looking forward to speaking with you again, then.

ELIAS: You are welcome. To you this day, my friend, au revoir.

Elias departs at 11:06 AM.

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